los and foun..

yeay!!!
i found it...
i found my ring back...

thenx!

second chance...

It triggers me a lot on how is it feels in giving another chance to a person who had destroyed our believe, hopes and those feelings that I’m unable to mention...Before this, I don’t believe in second chance when it involves with relationship...I don’t think that we have to give him or her second chance after all the opportunities given before this he or she didn’t appreciated at all. I don’t think that I’m going to ruin my life with the same person again and again as I don’t think I’m able to handle it anymore..For me, it is the matter of forgiven but not forgotten... But, somehow, something has changed my mind, my view and believes... Maybe, he or she deserves a second chance... Or maybe we, or maybe me, deserves another chance to be happy… nothing is perfect and everyone makes mistakes… I do make mistakes... so does other people… it comes to my mind that who am I to punish others? They did mistakes, so, give them time and opportunity to redeem back… though it hard to be accepted but as long as we give a try, I think it would satisfy us no matter the results is negative or positive. Being able to breathe up until now has made me as a person… I may hurt your feeling, I’m hurt as well… I may pretend that nothing’s happened between us and I’m happy… but deep inside me, nobody knows except for HIM... let’s give another chance to the person who deserves it… hopefully, I’m going to stick with my new resolution as I’m the person who is hoping for my happiness to come… help me to find the lights…

P/s: I lost my significant ring while I was writing this entry… is it a sign for me??? Or, is it just an accidentally accident???

thenx me for my ignorance...

no!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wont say it as my level of stupidity but it is more like my level of ignorance.i had test ths morning which i was not able to finish the paper.it were 2 questions, only!n my writing was terible.blame on me as it was my fault.i didn't read the topics..i was sleeping last nite though i was planning to stay up.but my aura to study just wasn't there...so it's not totally my fault i guess..now, i hv lots n lots of asgmnt n one of it has to be submitted this evening but here i am..blogging all the way...hehe...teruknye!!!!!!!! ;P

break!

it was fun though it was kind of tiring and sleepy all d way of it. but, it just happened some of my unreleased stress and feeling were dumped there.the movie was like okayyy laaa...not total rubbish but it successfully made me laugh for its stupidity...cruel me...lalalala~~ i need more!!!! thenx darl who was there for me (i thought im goin all alone until u were there for me~~love u!)

love is not in the air..im late..im loser..

okay.i like him.fullstop.is it wrong to like him.no, i don't think so. so let me be, just don't stop me from liking him. i noe that im not able to get him, so what?if u like somebody, that doesn't mean that u'll get him.this is real world,ladies n gentlemen.it is not like in the movies or dramas tht they put u to believe that u r goin to have happily ever after live once u like someone.this is REALITY.yeahhh!i noe that im hurt as he is reaching his next level in life, but as i said before, it's just that the feeling cannot be stopped.but, i noe my limit.i will try not to like him anymore.this is not my promise but i will try.i have to try hard, i think so, as i don't want to ruin his life.i noe some other girl is just for him. she deserved him more than i am. she work hard to get him while im jut sitting here without doing nothing. hey! i did do something but to compare with that girl, i think my effort is just nothing to be counted. i really understand the feeling of getting hurt, so i am not going to hurt that girl's heart just to satisfy me. i am not trying to be an angel but deep inside me i know that i am nobody that ought to have his heart. it will be grateful for me if he is happy and doing good with his life..and im happy for the girl too.she is just so lucky.. hopefully they will live happily ever after...amin..

deep inside..

one day, when u wake up and look beside, then u realize that there is no one there. all this while u are all alone. u take things for granted and they hate u for what u did. then u realized again that everything u've done is just meaningless. ur thoughts are not as briliant as u think instead thay hate it. suddenly, u feel that u're not belong to them tht u not deserved them as company. though it hurts, but u hv to pretend. u hv to lie to the world. it hurts; the situation, the relationship etc..up until now, the foundation that built is just not enough. the base is fragile n as time pass by, it will collapse..even if u feel cheated, u hv nothing to say or do.it's not that u're afraid of them but u just don't want to ruin everything though it is..u may think that life is treating u unfair but is there any in life that u think is fair?

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