the engagement and day out...

though it were flaws but we had fun and enjoyed the engagement ceremony...the bride-to-be was beautifully glowing through out her day...the food was fantastic...after that, we went to FRIM...the air terjun was besh giler..temptation nak terjun..

::enough::

i just finished my final paper-sociolinguistics/sociolinguistic for language teacher- tsl 545/546...alhamdulillah, my friends and i managed to answer the paper..i guess it was because the questions just like what we have expected..but, somehow, flaws everywhere...though i finished the paper 30mins earlier, that doesn't mean im able to anwer it...huhuhu..i just hope that the marks will be ok and sufficient for me to be credited...here and now,i want to shout out loud that i had enough...after tons of activities,programs organised and hectic life for this sem (july-dis 08), i just had enough..nights and nights without proper sleeps,days and days without organized time to eat, live life like a working zombie,the assignments etc...it just enough...leave me alone..let me breath..let me re-scheduling my life..give me oppprtunity to taste the happiness of my life...i'm done..huhu...well, seems like i have another three sems to be graduated but before that i have just another sem to go for my practicum...haih~~~pretty scared already...the picture of me teaching secondary school students just...well i may say that isn't nice,maybe.xsesuwei kot...

erm,tomorow my friends and i will be attending kenduri..can't wait as we are part of the kenduri...ala2 org penting la...huhu...aha, we're expecting new housemate...hopefully that life will treated us fair for this time...

this is what my friends and i, or to be specific, i have been waiting for---WELCOME BACK BIG BRO...ANOTHER TWO FRIENDS AS WELL...---hurm i missed him a lot...and the other two...i just can't wait to see him next sem and listen to his story in australia...i just can't wait, that's for sure...love to see and hear from u...


enough...fullstop...

i hate men with insensitive attitudes...

well, this is not about another song but it closely related to the song that i like...about the broke-up thingy and whatnot...i am sorry to hear that one of my beloved had just end up her relationship...it do makes me hurt and irritated...why men like to make us suffer (sorry-this is not gender bias but it is based on my experiences) i had a few person closely related to me that had suffered from men's insensitive attitudes...i wonder why they give their heart, they pour us with lots of love and made us fall for them, but all they want to do is hurting our feelings...the reasons will be that they are not ready for the relationshio or what-so-ever...after tons of feelings and love that we gave and shared, and the reason to break up will be im not ready???if u noe that u're not ready yet, why did you make us fall for you...it is not easy to erase the man that we love in our lives...i don't noe about the rest of women but for me i wont be able to go through relationship's failures over and over again...maybe that is why i'm still not bonded to any men up till today...i'm afraid of falling in love and at the end of the day i'll be suffered for the love that i have...well, im not against men and i'm straight but the way 'he' treated my beloved person has just made me feel irritated...plz give her a chance to breath and be happy not to make her sad again and again...to my dear darling, i'm not going to pity u as that is what u asked me to do...but, i'll pray for u that one day u'll found a men of ur life..a men who deserved u more than he is...i wish u all the best and don't worry as i'll be always beside u...i'll be alwiz here to listen and to share with u...i'm not going to say i noe ur feeling as i'm not familiar with the love thingy as i was a failure in mine as well, but, i will promise to understand ur feeling and be with u to face the reality...TO MY BELOVED PERSON: I LOVE U MORE THAN HE IS...BE STRONG DEAR DARLING... :)

i like ths song but it embarassed me already...huhu ;P

Best thing about tonight's that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying......
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core..
But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find



ok..that's it..that's the lyric..well, im pretty ashamed here bcoz this song..well it is a beautiful song and i really like ths song..it's about a man who is in denial that he has feeling for the girl..maybe they were in relationship before but they broke up..(well it's normal to break-up i guess for some people-but hard for me!)...im pretty sure that man made a promise that he wont fall again for the girl but what happened was it turns to be the other way..so, this song was basically to let the girl knows his feeling and admitting that he has fall for the girl over again..isn't it sweet???well, for me it is...back to my story, as i heard this song,it has automatically captured in my head...i told my friend and we discussed about it...btw, i am not that easy to fall for a song though so i wanted to share the song with everybody that i love and close to me...thus, i texted my sister about this song and asked her to listen to the song as well as the lyric...another important person in my life that i have texted is my beloved friend (maybe bestfriend or maybe more than bestfriend - sahabat or i dunno myself) that i like to share with...but, that person didn't reply any, yet, to me...so i wonder if that person get angry over me or hated the way i texted that person or dislike the song or i-dun-want-to-think-the-possibilities...im clueless here...and i feel ashamed already, that i asked that person to listen to the song...to that person: DEAR YOU, MAKE IT NO MEANING OF THE SONG RATHER THAN A FRIEND WHO IS ASKING FOR ANOTHER FRIEND TO LISTEN TO A SONG...I AM SORRY DEAR...AM TRULY SORRY IF I DID HURT YOU...plz forgive me, do takes time if it's hard to do so...i'l be waiting... :)

my dear darling sister...

this is my 10years planning...haha...

Age Accomplishment
23 - grad/work in professional field (search for scholar 4 my master)
25 - get married (wonder who is the luckiest person on earth)
26 - my first child
27 - further my study (master) overseas (preferable: NZ, OZ, France, UK)
- bring along husband (either he works there or continue study as well) and child
28 - second child - born there
- bring mak to have vacation and stay with us
- at least a year or maybe more as long as mak willing to
30 - another child (3rd child- maybe twins)
31 - finish my master
- work there/saving money - by earn a lots of money(hv to work hard both husband and wife)
32 - another child again (maybe the final one - no 4th or 5th
35 - back HOME (malaysia)
- bring along all family members
# husband, the children (4 0r 5 depends if there are twins or not) and maybe mak if still with us
- settled down
# good jobs / business
# big house
# cars (one for me and another one for my husband)
# good schools for the children
# send mak to Mecca (mak's around 64 or 65 years old)
# make big money :)
# if god wills, i want to continue my study to PHD level
# happy marriage and happy family



p/s: this is my dream's list and my hopes, i want to achive these in my life..hopefully, it will become reality, with god wills..amin...

im sketching this while i was studying last nite around 3 in the morning and alone...(so ni la hasilnye bile alone..haha)

btw, what urs???

my hope...

it's has been 2 days after we had a very unforgotable dinner with some of the VIP friends. The dinner was expected to be held at one prestige place but due to some reasons, it had been changed to somewhere we're familiar with. The toughts of making us surprised, did actually really2 surprised us... As we were picked up by 2 gentleman with handsome sport car, it made us to expect high,but, when the truth was reveal...it was rather hurt than the feeling of humiliated...we were not demanding but the idea of having a bussiness dinner was just not like what had happened...somehow, i have to admit that the foods were delicious and ok...we got a new year planner each and that's very thoughtful gift...thank god, after we survived ourselves during the dinner, we were treated with ice cream and fries from mcd as a treat of apology...it was accepted and we had fun enjoying the night with the 2 gentleman and the handsome sport car...after that, we had another meeting with them as to redeem all the info and thoughts from us that supposedly been delivered in the previous dinner (which had been spoiled)... consequencely, it made me think that it is true that to make a move to another step is just not easy, there will be lots of challenges that we have to face before we can taste success... i have believe in what i am doing and involving right now...the relationship that bind us will be a unique that no one would understand..i am here hoping that our things will be going smoothly not in the mean time but for the rest of the time...

gambate ne minna san!!!bonnce chance les gens.... :)

pain..

i have french paper in less than two hours from now..but i don't finish revising the lesson yet and i don't feel like finish it..huhu..and to make it worst, i am having stomachache right now..the pain suddenly accompany me from this morning..i just dunno why it has to be happened right now...i cant concentrate, i think of lots of things, lots of people...and it hurts me...last night, my friends and i were pillow talked about my love life...then i realized that i haven't had that such serious conversation about my love life with them before...it just i don't feel the need to share..erm maybe i'm embarrassed with my story...but then, they gave good advices to me and the way they think was just exactly like what i have in my mind...i think maybe i'm afraid to be involved in love matters yet..so i keep on thinking that this is not the right time for me...but, in a movie that we watched together back at home right atfter multicounseling paper, it says that everytime is a good time...when it comes to heart and feeling, there will be no perfect time...as there will be perfect for every time...and at the end, here i'm sitting and blogging as im clueless and hopeless...

the accompany...

as the title said so, this entry is all about the accompany of a friend of mine...erm, i might say the bestest,closed friend kot...that should perfectly suit him...aha, the friend is a 'he'.but, the name n identity should be remain anonymous...for the past few months or to be exact, we're getting in touch again after not doing so...i'm not saying that we're not contacting each other at all but to be compared to this sem, it is much better...hurm, how shall i put it into words?erm, i just love the way he treats me and the best part, he promises to do me a favor which im really looking forward to have it...maybe people will not understand the condition, but for me, he is just nice and i will like to share anything under the sun with him...the thoughts of him makes me happy...and please give me the chance to be happy...does it sound so pathetic??haha...

from the eyes of me

it was an incident that i saw with my two eyes right infront of me...my friend and i were at LCCT yesterday to send lil bro back to Kuching..well, imagine if u're married..you and your family are going off holiday,ur maid will tag along...she's an old maid...then at the airpot, ur heavy luggage, not your husband who carry it but your old women maid who is carrying all the heavy luggage...don't u feel pity to her...aren't ur tough and strong husband supposedly carried all the heavy bags??why did the old women maid??please help her, she is not that strong...so, the moral of the story, if u wanna have maid and carry all ur things---do have more maids and younger and stronger...or else, for husbands,do your man jobs please even if u're the boss...