The End.

Today is not the end of everything indeed it is a new beginning for the brighter future, insyaAllah. I have ended my year with good things. I have finally went back home after a month of not doing so. To be with family and to be at home is something that I am looking forward to. Though sometimes being at home, I will still doing my own stuffs but the thought of your family is there just making up everything. I started the day by getting my laundry done. It took hours to complete the laundry. hehe. Then after lunch, I decided to take my car to the nearest workshop so that they can have a look at it. After changing the tyre, this and that which cost me quite a lot, I dragged along my sister to look for car wash. I have not wash my car my for more than 2 weeks. It was full with dust, dirt etc. There was no traditional car wash can be found. Traditional here means the one that use human to wash the car not a machine and whatnot. Thus, I have been through my first experience of washing the car through the big machine by my own. huhuh. It was really nervous as I kept on thinking of the movie Final Destination. Alhamdulillah, everything was done and I headed Jusco straight after that. Bought a pair of shoes, a blouse and some food then went back home. 

Oh! We cannot have everything that we want right? We may pray for it, but He decides for us. He knows what's the best for us. Dear you, why did you let me know about it? Can you just keep your mouth shut and keep that as you and that person's secret. It is hurt, real bad. All the good things that has happened the whole day seem not giving me the best feeling anymore. I thought I am ready for it but now it makes me realize that I think I am not, yet. Dear Lord, please ease the pain. I don't think I can bear it anymore. It has been killing me inside out. Let me be stronger to face the reality. amin.

p.s: spent a lot of money today to ensure my safety in future. hopefully. =)

p.s.s: imy but i'm hurt.

New year, new me hopefully

2010 is getting to its end. And, we are going to bid farewell very soon. Though it has been a wonderful year and lots of memories carved in it but life must go on. With no regrets, we are supposed to look up for the new term. As Islamic calender has already started its new year, now we are going to go through another phase of new year.

I am hoping that 2011 will be good and nice to me though I can foresee lotsa bumpy roads awaiting for me. Wait will ya? Let me sip a cup of tea before I am meeting you kay!! I promise, I'll behave and be good.

Owh, I AM A STUDENT again!!! yeah! Hopefully I can finish everything that I have started right on time. Thank you for the prayers everyone. I owe all of you too much especially my family and bestest friends. You know who you are kan? I do not have to mention here because I love uols! And, to You, yes, you my dear. Thanks a lot for making my dream comes true. I really really owe you big time. Wonder when would I be able to  pay your good deeds. May Allah bless you!!! <3 <3 <3

Final Piala AFF SUZUKI

Congratulations Harimau Malaya. 

WE WON!!!

4-2

p.s: We won dah macam aku pulak yang main bola. haha

A Moment to Remember

If I ever have lost my memory, I just want to let you know that I love you just the way you are.
You are just too good to be true.
You are such a kindhearted.
You are a nice person.
You are responsible.
You are very funny.
You are generous.
You are intelligent and smart.
You are an obedient child to your parents.
You are a good family member.
You are such a loyal lover though there are times you play the field too.
You are a great friend.
You are wonderful one, indeed.
You are everything that could be related to those nice words.

Maybe there are times you hurt others' feeling but I know they are glad to meet you in their life.
Maybe you are not good enough to the others but for me you are just fine.
Maybe you did flaws back then but people may change to the better one.
Maybe your words kinda harsh sometimes but the other time it consoles others.
Maybe for others you are too old or too young for something but age is just a number.
Maybe you are such a player but deep inside your heart you are not.
Maybe you look cold but when people get to know you they'll find you are easy to talk with.
Maybe some people assume you as cold hearted but as a person you are such a lovely one.
Maybe this and Maybe that.
Maybe yes or Maybe not.
You are who you are.

No matter what or how others may judge you, I will always thank God for letting me to know you.
I would never regret knowing you though what ever happens.
I learn a lot from you.
About life, love, family, friendships, money and lots more.
Thus, it makes me owe you too much.
Too much to handle and to too much to think.
I do not know what and how should I pay you back for your good deeds.
In fact, I will never be able to pay it all.
Perhaps, I can only pray for your happiness and may Allah bless you.

Uh! I have lots to say about you.
I would not be able to finish here.
Maybe I should keep the rest of it in the corner of my heart.
For it will stay there forever though I might forget you later.
You will always have your own place in my life that none could take it ever.
If you have became one of my past, you will be the wonderful one.
The one that has prepared me for the future.
The one that has colored my life.
The one that has accepted me for who I am.
The one that has proved me everything is possible.
The one who was always there through my bumpy roads.

THANK YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU.


p.s: a moment to remember. and, today it is. one of the many things. you have made my day and I am touched!

p.s.s: for those who have not watch it yet, please watch this movie "A Moment to Remember". and, do appreciate those you love before it is too late. trailer here. cheers!

serabut.

S.E.R.A.B.U.T

S.A.R.A.T

S.E.N.A.K

S.E.M.P.U.T

S.E.S.A.K

tolong pergi jauh-jauh boleh tak?? shuhhs!

AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 MALAYSIA MENANG 3-0

Yeah, kita menang separuh akhir yang pertama. Kemenangan yang sangat cantik oleh pasukan Malaysia. Tahniah atas usaha keras anda untuk merealisasikan kejayaan ini. Dengan kemenangan 3-0 ini, kita berada pada kedudukan agak selamat. Banyak bunyi-bunyi kurang best kita dengar akibat ketidakpuasan hati penyokong Indonesia yang ada menyalahkan kehadiran cahaya laser sebagai penggangu konsentrasi. Tidak mengapa, kita tunggu dan lihat perlawanan seterusnya. (fuh! fuh! fuh! mintak2 Malaysia menang lagi. Jangan hanya menjadi jaguh kampung je sudah lah..hehe)

Oh, by the way, nak tunjuk bukti-bukti penangan bola di facebook. Rata-rata orang memperkatakan tentang bola tak kira mengenai apa sekalipun hatta pemain handsome. haha..xpela, layankan saja.

Apa kata anda? MALAYSIA mampu menang sekali lagi kah???

p.s: gambar dan nama terpaksa dirahsiakan demi menjaga identiti masing-masing. jika anda rasa itu anda dan mahu dideletekan, sila pm.

p.s.s: nape aku mcm skema giler je bahasa?? pelik! haha

I am Gay and I am Okay.

The tagline somehow it reminds me of the theory that I have learnt back in uni - The transactional Analysis (TA), 1950's. The theory is about how we improve our communication and how we relate with each other. The theory believes  that we can change and we have right to be accepted the way we are. Indeed, this is so true. But, by having Quran and Hadith as our prime guidelines, we need to always refer to it. Especially when we are in lost and need guidance. It is the one.

Back to the theory, Dr. Eric Berne has develop a concept of Child Ego State, Adult Ego State and Parent Ego State. All of these states are interchangeable where we are tend to changing roles overtime. Sometimes we are the child, at other time we tend to be the adult as well as the parent. It shows how we change our thinking and personality based on situation I guess. And, in TA, there is a chart with four quadrants named The OK Corral. It is developed by Franklin Ernst, 1971. The four life positions are:

1. I'm Okay, You're Okay.
2. I'm Okay, You're Not Okay.
3. I'm Not Okay, You're Okay.
4. I'm Not Okay, You're Not Okay.

The QUESTION IS, in what ego state and life position he is right now???

Azwan Ismail, 32 yo, Engineer.

Okay, I am aware that each of us has the right to be accepted but dude, please come back to the religion. I believe none of the religions are happy with this. No, I'm not being skeptical about you or the rest of you. I will always pray that someday all of you will get the 'sinar hidayah' and 'petunjuk' from Him to change to be better men. Hopefully there will be such 'wonderful' and 'beautiful' ladies to accompany and stay with you for the rest of your life. Ameen.


p.s: Hulurkan tangan, ringankan beban.

Red Carpet Anugerah Skrin 2010

Congratulations and celebrations to those who won the award last night. I just managed to watch the anugerah for the last 1hour and 30 minutes. Thanks to Celcom broadband for making it easy for me to watch the streaming from home. Oh! I enjoyed the final performance by Superhero Faizal Tahir. You are indeed my superhero!!! =)

By the way, I am not going to comment on the award winning etc. I just want to share what I feel and my thoughts on the celebrities' fashion. I am not a fashionista nor someone who knows about fashion. It is just my two cents and I am sorry if my points are going to hurt you in anyways.

At the moment I watched them in their best attire, I wonder if that is the best they could have or the most beautiful dress they could afford to have. Not to mention that some of dresses are just like unfinished or 'tak cukup kain'. Is by showing off our bare skin is the price we have to pay in getting famous, beauty or making friends? Ops, sorry! I am far from perfect as I do make mistakes from time to time. It just that I am worried that I am becoming one of those people. Okay, now let's enjoy their outfits kay!

Let's have a look at another concepts or views to be fashionable yet they managed to cover their bare skin.

p.s: But I am not advising others to wear tudung ala2 tutup rambut je.. =)

p.s.s: agak2 nya kalau pakai tutup2 tu outdated kot. takpun tak jiwa remaja. takpun helloooo this is 2010 kot, nak masuk 2011 da pon. kolot okay kolot! or maybe, mak2 orang, makcik2 or nenek2 je yang pakai tutup2 ni.. xrock and xglam siot!!!

p.s.s: we're at the end of the world, sigh. take this as reminder not as kutukan or caci maki. this is only MY TWO CENTS. don't bother!


oh! pictures are taken form here.

Live life as in dramas

Can we live our life like those in dramas, movies or even series? Are they displaying the true sights of living? When most of the endings would be the happily-ever-after instead of the cruel-sad-yet-true scenarios. They make us think that life is so beautiful, partners would be so romantic, lovers would be so in love, friends would be so great, money would not be a problem, hope can be achieved easily etc. Where in real life, we have to work hard, move our heavy asses, think extra vaganza and count in people around us i.e: their feelings, expectations, hopes etc. 

Indeed, this is life. When we have both reality and fantasy, when we have good and bad sides, when we have happiness and sadness, it makes our life. Nothing could be compared or bought to replace the experiences we have to go through along the process of living our life. We are not able to run away when it is all written for us. Some of us may lead their live easily like those in the make-up stories, but for some others, to be able to breath and survive is enough to be grateful. 

Our fate is differ from one another. Why would we blame others when the thing is we are challenged in order to test our faith. It is either we are getting closer to Him or we are getting far and far from Him.

Live our life to the fullest no matter if live is not like in those in dramas, movies or series. Take it as your supplement to revive your life. To wake you up. To cheer you up. To make you happy or even to realize you to be a grateful servant. Appreciate your life and people around you. Hold them tight as possible as you can so that you would not regret once they decide to leave you on your own. 

Truth hurts

There are some people who have tried their best but at the end of the day, they still not able to get what they want or been dreaming of.

There are some people who work their asses so hard but could not achieved their desired dreams.

There are some people who work effortless but they managed to fly high!

It is just about time. If you have tried your best but you are not satisfied with the result, accept it with an open arm and heart. Belum ada rezeki lagi tu. But if you get things easily, be grateful and do not degrade others. Its maybe your time but nobody knows up until when the time be yours.

Or, you are gifted, maybe.

Try harder next time. Prove others  that they are wrong and you can do it.

All the best wishes everyone =)

work loading

I have lots of things to write but due to some extent I could not write anything. The thing is, I have and I want to share the things here but now, everything that I have planned in my head is missing and dislocate somewhere else. Everything seems to be jumbled up. down. here. and. there.

Maybe later I will write something which I am looking forward to do so.





p.s: how many times did I use the word 'THING'.. sigh!

reflections of life.

Scene 1

Suddenly a few kids came to me and opening my car's door while they offered to help.

A: Let me help you miss. anything I can do for you.
B: Can I come into your car?
C: Hye miss, We want to help you.

Me: What's wrong with you guys? Do you want anything from me? You guys are scary, you know? Bodek eh?

note: They did not help me before, not even offering to help. Maybe they feel guilty for yesterday. huhu

Scene 2:

In the class, before the presentations started.

A: Miss, may I go to the JAMBAN?
Me: Don't you have better words to say?
A: Eh miss, I am politely asking you what?
Me: ( SMILE)

note: I did not argue about the way you asked me. Yes, you did ask me politely. But instead of JAMBAN, can you please use TOILET or LADIES/GENTS whenever you feel like to do your business there.

Scene 3:

Still in the class.

A: Miss, we are sorry miss. We are not able to provide you with the notes. He did not his work.
Me: Who is he? Why didn't you tell me yesterday??
A: I just knew about this miss. I have given him the pen drive but he returned it back without doing his part.
C: Miss, can we be in the group of our own choice next time?
Me: We have discussed about this yesterday. I have given you to choose your own teammates for the next presentation.
C: I know miss, thank you.

Note: I am giving you the sneak peak of the outside world my dear. You will not able to sit in your comfort zone forever. By living with your own clique without noticing others' feeling won't do you any good.

Scene 4:

Still in the same class.

Me: By the way, what about this exercise? Why don't we discuss about it?
A: Aha, the exercise you will have to do it at home as homework.
Me: OOOKKKAAAAYYYY. (sigh)

Note: That is not the reason I have been asking you to discuss it with you classmates. I want all of you are able to get the information on what have you presented earlier. How on earth are they going to know the correct way of answering it which I can guarantee that they could not get full marks for the exercise.

Scene 5:

The class has finished and they were queuing to 'salam dan cium tangan'.

A: Miss, are you mad at us?
Me: Why should I? I am not mad at you. I AM SMILING.
A: Oh, okay miss.

Note: If I ever mad at you, I do not have the power to let it out. I will not shout and yell at you. I am going to smile, always.


Scene 6:

After the class has finished, before I get into my car.

A: Miss, can I know the marks for my group's presentation?
Me: You don't have to be worried. I am going to inform the marks and comments tomorrow.
A: But miss, I have not had the chance to talk during the presentation.
Me: Oh, I see. So, you are in the same group of B? And why did not you present just now? I was waiting for you to open your mouth. I was a bit confused.
A: Miss, they did not let me and C to talk. We have prepared the slides but suddenly they did not want to use our slides and instead they are using theirs. We were not able to present at all. (tears running down)
Miss: Okay, if that's the case, the first thing in the morning tomorrow, you have to show me you slides. And, later I will consider to give you marks. Go back and have fun, don't worry too much okay. ( I am trying my best to comfort A)
A: But, how about the marks miss? ( A was crying when asking this question )
Me: Do not worry k. I will do my best to give you marks. The thing is you have to transfer your work into my pen drive tomorrow. That's the deal. As for now, You go back, have some rest and have fun. Do not think too much.
A: Okay miss, thank you so much.

Note: Dear, this is the reason why I asked you to be outside your comfort zone. I want all of you to taste the bitterness of life. I am not cruel to make such action. It is up to you to get use to it. I am only here to assist you, remember that!

***

Though I am quite frustrated but I have to accept that this is life. I am trying to let them know and learn about life thus I have to be brave to face it too. I do not ask for the rainbow as the rain is just enough to make me be grateful and smile from ear to ear.


I am smiling while typing and posting this entry. ^_^

kids are going to be kids.

No matter what, kids will behave like one. With no valid reasons, they will still be one. I have nothing to say about them, it just something that I have to keep in my mind and heart that what ever happens, they will be like kids. I see them, I talk to them, I  befriend with them, I try to understand them and whatnot but at the end they will just like any other kids. I have to hold on so that I can always smile and be nice.

I am not complaining, do not worry. I am still sane to not make any outrage statements. I know where I am standing at, the place that you can turn back and say " I was a kid before =) "

A good kick start

I am grateful that I can still can happily breathing the air. In the previous post: Late Night Coffee Everyone? , I have mentioned that I need to stay up in order to do some works? I did my work and I think it is awesome. Have you ever wondered why do we tend to do work at the very last minute? Maybe not for others, but I believe some of us are like that. It is tiring when you have to force yourselves to complete a work that supposedly done in longer time. You will have to compress everything in a short period. Yeah, it is true that no matter how last minute you are, no matter how short the time you have, you did marvelous. The work is awesome. BUT, again, have you ever wondered that if you took a little effort before, if you started the work earlier, it will become perfect! Not just awesome but it is a masterpiece!

True that some people work best under pressure, thus, I keep on holding to that mantra in which I, myself do not know the truth behind it. I have been telling myself that no matter how early I start, I will end up with the same result, so why bother to start early. It is better for me to relax and enjoy first, then I work my ass on it! Please do not follow my foot steps.

Tips for you, do your works earlier  and later you will have such good quality time to spend without having to worry about anything. Another tip, if you have been burning your midnight oil, have some time to rest for a while before you start your day. I had mine which is 40minutes of closing my eyes and relaxing. And, keep on thinking about good things or maybe good people. Have a look at their photos might help you. Read some good things as well, I read inspirational message from someone. It made my morning and wake up my soul and spirit. InsyaAllah you'll be smiling the whole day. Have fun and have a good day everyone!


p.s: It is still raining heavily here, hopefully it will not kill my motivation.

Late night coffee everyone??

Why do I have the tendency to write about foods and drinks lately? Well, well, em. em. I, my self don't know either. I am still searching for the reasons. I guess maybe I have the answer but let me just keep it to myself, aite? For the time being, please bear with me.

So, anyone wants to join me? Let's have some late night coffee together. It does not matter what kind or what type of coffee be it mocha, espresso, cappuccino etc., no worries I don't mind. It would be nice to have hot drinks at the moment, in the middle of the night. Especially if it has been raining cats and dogs for the whole day. It is wayyyy colder than usual. I have to wear lots of clothes and on top of that I need to cover myself with a cozy blanket. And, for your information I am not anywhere near highlands but here in the peaceful area of greeneries.

Ahaha. And why do I need coffee but not any other drinks? The reason is because I need to stay up and do some works. Lotsa works actually after two days of not doing anything and just lazying around. Serve me right!! When everyone is nicely sleeping, I have to do preparations for work tomorrow. AHAHAHAHAHAH.


p.s: point to defend myself, I could help it as it is toooo cozy to do anything when the weather is telling not to do so. (good excuse eh!)

To satisfy your hunger

I am home alone and I am hunggereyyyyy!!! I feel like eating all the good food that we have in the universe (exaggerating is my middle name. hehe.)  I am pretty sure if I had the chance to grab anything, the first thing I want to grab is food, at the moment. walaweeehhh~

All I have in my mind is merely food and food and food. Case in point is fasssttttt foood. Why fast food? Well, because I am super hungry,thus it makes fast food is the best choice.

If only, I can have all these.....

Chicken McDeluxe 

Dominos' Pizzas

Pizza Hut's Creamy Carbonara 

A&W Float Rootbeer 

KFC Spicy Snake  Snack Plate

Yummmmeeeehhhhhhh!!!!! I am salivating at the moment. Luckily no one can see me. hehe. I can only see the photos and imagining that the food is in my mouth. Owh, it tastes heavenly superb. Whereas in real life, I could not afford to have all the food shown. Please don't ask me why. Please. Please. Wait, for a second thought. em. No, I think I want to tell you the reasons.

REASON NUMERO UNO: My home is far away from town. It takes approximately 20 minutes if you are driving 100mph. And, there is no delivery thingy here. Pfft!

REASON NUMERO DEUX: My monthly payment is not in yet. Indeed, they have not process it yet. Uh! How cruel the system is, treating us like we have no life to worry about. We are talking about my tummy hellloooo!

Okay, enough of complaining and stuffs. So, if you are salivating with me as well, let's go to the official webpage for those food k. In today's world, everything is just a click away. Some of them you can order just from home, either by using phone calls or online. It is ssoo easy right. Here's the link. All the best!!!

KFC Malaysia.
You can have them to cater food for your event. Whoa!

Pizza Hut Malaysia.
You can choose to dine in, home delivery or even online ordering. Woot! Woot!

Dominos Malaysia.
Lotsa promotions there, do not hesitate to visit the webpage y'all!

McDonalds Malaysia
They have nutritions information and fitness fun with Ronald McDonald. 

A&W Malaysia
Walaweh~ They have been in Malaysia for 45 years.

Oh! Oh! OH! Please go and pay a visit there. You will not be sorry to do so. Enjoy.


p.s: I only had corn flakes+milk for breakfast and I am thinking of eating noodles a.k.a megi after this.There's nothing to cook. Pity me =(

Hanna The Gorgeous Plumber- How to fix leaking tap

I think I am going to be a gorgeous, beautiful and wonderful plumber. A successful one. So, if you have problems in repairing you water tab, you can just call me. ahaha. Fine, the fact is I have successfully repaired my water tap. And, this is the first attempt. Alhamdulillah. It had been leaking for a week. I had nearly give up. I tried tighten the tap slowly. Put extra effort in it to make sure the water can stop from leaking. But, it was meaningless. It had been getting worse day by day. And, I know that I have to pay extra amount for the water bill this month. uh!

I have no one to ask for help. Because I do not know how and where to find. huhu. Thus, today as I went to Napisah Jelita's house for lunch, I asked her if she has an adjustable spanner. Luckily her husband has one and without further due I asked her to lend me the spanner. Later, I went to the hardware shop and bought a new tap. It costs me RM 9.50.

Later, as I reached home, I quickly turned off my water supply. In my case, I did not able to find the stopcock inside the house thus I had to turn off the main water supply near the water meter. Then I went to the bathroom and start fixing it.

Firstly, you have to check that the water is off.

Then, use your adjustable spanner to undo the tap counter clockwise. It may be difficult to undo the tap based on how long it has been used. You have to be very careful while doing it. Do not hurt yourself and break the valve.

After that, when you have finished undoing the tap, take it out. Some water may come out but that should be all. Do not be panicked.

Take the new tap. Make sure it is the same size and can be fitted . Then you  need to reassemble the tap correctly. This time around, you need to do it clockwise. Tighten the tap slowly.

Once the tap is tight and at the right position, turn on the water supply. Check if the water is still leaking and if it is not, then you have successfully fixed it.

Congratulations and you just saved up your money to be spent on water bill. Yeaaahh!

note: Images are taken from Mr. Google. Thank you!