duhai hati yang bisa mati

maaf ini agak personal.
barangkali akan membuat ramai yang bersoal akan perlukah entri ini.
tapi niat aku hanya mahu mencari satu medium untuk menenangkan hati.
sang hati sudah semakin tidak kuat.
seperti kertas yang dicarik-carik.
juga seperti kain yang digunting-gunting.
maafkan aku.
aku hanya manusia biasa yang kurang sifat sempurna.




p.s: keadaan hati tidak mengizinkan kenafsuan membelog buat tika ini.

wonderland

Life is like a playground.

There are lots of choices to play.

It is full of colours.

and, it is beautiful.

Indeed, it is a wonderland for the kiddies.

There are times where we are not allowed to play,

but no matter what we still want it.

Then, somehow it is not fun to play anymore .

Either we are too tired to play,

or, we are injured while playing.

Hence, we stopped playing around.

However, it would not take so long,

tomorrow or the day after,

we will come to play again.

harga murah di pasaran!!!

alah membeli, menang memakai..dapatkan segera sementara masih hangat dipasaran..

mari! mari! mari!

apa yang penting?? KERJASAMA!!!

http://www.tesluitm.blogspot.com/

http://www.facebook.com/#/pages/TESL-Shah-Alam/287835882118?ref=ts

p.s: basically, i have to organize a seminar. so this is what we, all the committee members with the help of Boonga Studio, have come up for fund raising purposes. :)

it has been haunting me from the very first time~

Menyesal - Ressa Herlambang

Semula ku tak yakin
Kau lakukan ini padaku
Meski dihati merasa
Kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia

Reff:*
Bila cinta tak lagi untukku
Bila hati tak lagi padaku
Mengapa harus dia yang merebut dirimu

**
Bila aku tak baik untukmu
Dan bila dia bahagia dirimu
Aku kan pergi meski hati tak akan rela
Terkadang ku menyesal
Mengapa ku kenalkan dia padamu

Back to Reff:* dan **

Terkadang ku menyesal
Mengapa ku kenalkan dia padamu

Please Get Well Soon

salam and good day...

this entry will be a simple and short one. dearest readers, my bestfriend's baby brother is hospitalized at the moment. his eye is badly injured due to an accident at his school. and, today, the specialist needs to get half a pine of his blood to treat the eye. let's pray for him and for the family. i can't do much but with the small help from all of us, it means a lot for him and for the family..let's pray he will be all right..please click here and here for the full story...




yours truly,

smile and the world smiles back at you

it is stressful to be in the final semester. of all the expectations and the thoughts after graduation is killing me softly. i have lots of assignments and task to be completed but somehow the brain refuses to work on it. indeed, i have one assignment to be submitted tomorrow yet i have no appetite to do so. if i can listen to my own brain, there will be lots of buzzing sound here and there as i think too much to the extend i could not focus on any single thing.

of seminar and fund raising. well.well.well. please you two, can you just go away!!! at least for a while. let me breath and enjoy my life without worrying about both of you. i am annoyyed, you know. to organized and to manage is not easy and not fun at all. especially when you have to face a few challenges. BUT, this is a learning process, right! please calm down and i know somehow at the end, i can do it. i believe all my classmates are capable in handling this, too.

so here are some tips to manage stress, yeah i know, it's for me too..


1. Go for a walk : em, it's 2.56 in the morning..so where should be the best place to walk??? K.I.V

2. Spend time in nature : again..it's too late or too early to spend time in nature... K.I.V

3. Call a good friend : i wanted to call but i guess it's not appropriate to let the good friend meddling up in my problems.

4. Sweat out tension with a good workout : i am not in the mood to do any workout. :)

5. Write in your journal : this is what i love the most indeed i am doing it right now. i am blogging about it. wee~

6. Take a long bath : too cold!!! K.I.V

7. Light scented candles : where is it the lighter eh??? K.I.V

8. Savor a warm cup of coffee or tea : i did this. i just had a cup of hot milo..awesome!!!

9. Play with a pet : is superpoke pets can be considered as a pet??

10. Get a massage : everybody is in their lala land. who else should i seek to massage me.. K.I.V

11. Curl up with a good book : i love reading but at this moment i am afraid i fall asleep if i am curling up with books. K.I.V

12. Listen to music : my roomate is sleeping and my headphone is not function. can i be selfish and volume up my music player?? huhuhu

13. Watch a comedy : last but not least,i guess i have to keep comedies in my laptop. i may need some dose of it once a while..

source

the list goes on....you may do the suggestions above. it is good for your health. do not stress yourselves. let's enjoy our life. if you feel you have something to share, please do so. it will lessen your burden. and, do spread your love to those people who deserve it... :)

men and women

we are different from each other,
men see things in this way,
and, women see things in other way.
though we have the same feelings,
our approaches in handling it are not the same.
and for that,
whatever it takes,
though there are lots of differences between us,
we complete each other~


Surah 9.71: ‘As for believers, both men and women, they are (to be) friends and protectors of one another, encouraging the doing of what is right and preventing the doing of what is wrong; they are constant in prayer, and pay the zakah on their wealth, and pay heed to Allah and His Messenger.’

Surah 30.21: ‘Among His wonders is this – that He creates for you mates out of your own kind, so that you might be attracted towards them, and then He instills love and tenderness between you; in this there are messages indeed for those capable of thought.’


p.s: i had fun discussing things with you..i'll pray for your happiness and i know u'll get throuh this..

please be stonger..

dear you,
if you could read this,
i want you to know that it hurts me to see you in pain.
i don't want you to be sad,
i want you to be happy,
and, i want you to enjoy your life.

dear you,
if you could read this,
i want you to know that i'll always there for you,
i'll lend my hands to help you,
but if that couldn't do,
i'll lend my ears to listen to all your issues.

dear you,
if you could read this,
i want you to be stronger and stronger than yesterdays.
please hold on and take a grip,
i am sure you'll be safe.

dear you,
if you could read this,
please let me stay,
please let me be beside you,
please let me help you.

dear you,
if you could read this,
let's do this together,
do it not for us, but for you yourself.

dear you,
if you could read this,
i want you to know that i care for you,
and, that is why i am here for you.

p.s: i am not sure where it leads us, but i am very sure you'll be able to go through this..keep on moving, have faith and insyaAllah everything will be good..

لا يكلف الله نفسا إلا وسعها
"Allah tidak memberi kesusahan seseorang hamba melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya."

[Al-Baqarah: 233]

Rain

here

it's raining outside.

hoping it's raining cats and dogs.

as the weather is too hot too handle.

thus, i cant resist of whining this and that.

it's raining outside.

but i feel it inside.

tears are running down the face.

wet all the atmosphere.

it's raining outside.

i want it to be.

wishing it may splashes away all the miseries.

so i can be happy.

it's raining outside.

and i love it.

the feeling of calmness and peaceful that i hunger of.

please let me enjoy the moment while i can.

p.s: i want nobody nobody but you..

masih

Masih ku tak berdaya
Melupakan mu
Di hatiku berkata
Apakah sebenarnya cinta

Di hati ini
Hanya mainan semata
Namun kau tak mengerti
Apakah sebenarnya yang telah terjadi

Di diri iniKau yang masih di hati
Tidak terdaya
Untuk mengundur diri
Darimu

Setelah engkau pergi
Tiada apa yang ada di diri ini
Kuharapkan kau kan berubah hati
Semoga kau kan kembali
Di diri ini

*flopp poppy*

p.s: aku mahu dia. cume dia xpernah boleh untuk berada di sisi.

i'll never break your heart

Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Chorus
I'll never break your heart
I'lll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie (2x)
As time goes by you Will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid
To let you're feelings show
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see
Chorus (2x)
Bridge
No way, no how
I'll make you cry (2x)
Chorus


p.s: i will never break your heart, but i'll break mine..

hati kusut+jiwa kacau

the feeling is just not right..i can't tell you what and why..i don't know either..the heart won't allow me to talk to her..she's in great pain..me myself couldn't help her. i't not the emptiness, it's more or less like a great burden of rocks to hold with your own tiny hands. i might collapse, i might yell, i might laugh. i might run, i might dance -- but all of those still could not help me.. why?? because it's from inside, i have to find and cure it from the inner side..but i can't do that neither you can do it for me...


*babbling+crapping= hati sebu dan sangat berat...

this I promise you

these two are some of my bestfriends that I cherish my life with.

I have less friends to be compared with others. I guess I can count my fingers on the list of friends I have. but, that is not something I whining about yet I am glad to have less friends. for me, it's not about quantity that we care most, but the quality of friends that they uphold with. as I am getting older, ok I admit it, sometimes it's tiring for me to work hard on making relationship with friends successful. it's not that I am not working on it, but somehow they refuse to be in the same process, thus, I just let them go by hoping that they will be happier without me. okay, through out years of living, I am grateful that God has been kind to me and giving me the best people in my life. despite the bittersweet experiences, I know I have good friends to turn to. they are the kind of friends who wont let you facing the hardship alone. they are not only share the happy moments but vice versa. looking back each and every stages of my life, I have been granted with good friends who eventually lead me to be a better friend, sister, child, person as well as a better muslimah. if they were not there, I guess I wont end up being who I am today. I know that I am not perfect, no one is perfect, but I will try to be a better person. thus, by having them as my friends, it will help me to find the light!! I guess the time is going to the end, so I have to treasure every second of it. it's not I am going to end it up but as human, we don't know the future. we can predict but not determine it. so, for good things or for bad things might happened, I don't want to regret it later. hence, let's enjoy the moment that we have now. appreciate each and every of them. love them lots. and, insyaAllah they will love you more. Thank God for giving me such opportunity. I am blessed.


p.s: i wish the rest of you are here. cepat pulang!!!! hehe...

p.s.s: i miss all my friends from childhood up untill now. kindergarten, tcsian, stekrians, teslians etc.

Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah...

I have fully RECOVERED...I am now is a new person, Alhamdulillah. thus, it makes one of my new year resolutions achieved. I can now declare that I have nothing to do with it anymore. it just the matter of open-up and let things go. it is one of my biggest achievements. it's not easy to be recovered as I am now, it took a lot of times, energy and lots more. however, it worth a thousand mile. to be in that situation, I have no regrets with, but thankful that it helps me in searching who am I. indeed, it thaught me the real meaning of life and feelings. the world is not revolve solely around you. the realisation is something that money can't buy. though the experiences are full with those bittersweet memories, yet I am proud that I was chosen to be challenged that way. I am stronger than yesterday. and, what most important to me is that the tie between us getting even stronger and strengthen. though I have doubts in making it clear, but, I think no matter what I will let it out of the box soon, when the time comes. I know I dont want to lose you, but, if it's the price that I have to pay, I'll accept as long as you'll find the true happiness that you're searching for. as for me, I don't know what are they in store for me in the future. I guess, by Allah wills, I have plenty of time to search for it. and again, when the time comes, everything will makes sense. experience is the best teacher, and I agree with it.

" Kadang-kadang ALLAH sembunyikan matahari, DIA datangkan hujan petir. Kita bersedih dan tertanya tanya ke mana hilangnya matahari, rupa-rupanya Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi yang indah. "


p.s: thank you my dear friends for making my day.. I wish the others are here too.

Hablum Minallah Hablum Minannas

sayang itu ada banyak cabangnya.cinta itu ada banyak maknanya. sayang sesama manusia dan cinta hakiki buat Tuhan yang maha berkuasa. sayangkan keluarga. sayangkan kawan-kawan. sayangkan teman. begitu juga cinta. cintakan Allah s.w.t. cintakan Ibu Ayah. cintakan sahabat. cintakan kekasih hati. itu semua datang dari hati. tapi ikhlas kah hati menuturkan nya?? ikhlas kah hati menyatakan nya?? cinta dan kasih pada Tuhan memang hakiki. tiada siapa mampu menidakkannya. tapi berlainan pula kasih dan sayang terhadap sesama insan. sebuah perhubungan itu perlulah menuju dan berlandaskan ke jalan yang diredhai-Nya. untuk mencapai hubungan yang begitu, maka jujur dan ikhlas adalah dua intipati yang penting. tanpa jujur dan ikhlas, ia akan merosakkan rasa sayang dan cinta. bila sayang dan cinta rosak maka musnahlah perhubungan yang dibina. oleh itu, andai tidak jujur dan tidak ikhlas, jangan berikan harapan. jangan lontarkan perasaan. jangan taburkan kata-kata manis. biarkan mata tidak melihat tapi jangan biar hati dibutakan.

isn't it true

if you used to have something or someone that is so close to you,
and somehow, the thing or someone goes missing,
u'll be surely and sorely missed it...



(Puan Rohaya Abdul Wahab, January 2010)


....and, there goes again, LOVE HURTS!!!

bahagia itu

ia datang tanpa diundang
ia pergi tanpa pamitan
hati gelisah
jiwa merana
namun bila ia datang lagi
hati melonjak riang
senyum meleber luas
jiwa tenang dan damai




p.s:uhuk! uhuk! antibodi makin melemah..shuhhh kau demam..pergi jauh-jauh dari ku..aku mahu tenang dan damai..

p.s.s: aku merasa bahagia tapi tidak lagi lebih dari apa yang sepatutnya..sudah normal kah aku???

mungkin nanti

Sahajaku berkata

Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

Sudahlah lepaskan semua

Ku yakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti

Kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba

Tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin

Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung

Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu

Membuka hatimu yang dulu

Cerita saat bersamaku

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi

Simpan untukmu sendiri

Semua sesal yang kau cari

Semua rasa yang kau beri

p.s:let's treasure the moment together, i know i'll be missing you soon. but, i guess, this is the path that i'll take. so i have to be sure about it. and, i hope u understand!

i miss you :(

well, i had terible weekend..or should i say wonderful weekend?? initially, i wanted to stay at home and start doing my assignment a lil bit here and there.. but then, my maksu requested us- my sis, cousin and me, to go for a talk in cheras. so i decided to go but not staying over at maksu's (remember, i have assignment to do..) thus, after the talk, we headed back to maksu's to perform maghrib and lepak a while then rushed back shah alam. we successfully persuaded my cousin to send us back and have ladies night since we have been planning quite a time yet no time to spend with.so we decided to watch midnight movie.AVATAR..i know, i know, it's been weeks and weeks on screen..hehe..ok, we reached shah alam around 11pm and the movie started at 11.55pm..we rushed to jusco bukit tinggi, bought tickets and out to tesco shah alam as my cousin needed to buy something important..we're at tesco around 11.30pm thus,we drove insanely fast, walked faster and ran to catch the time..still, we're late 15-20minutes and the movie already started- quite lost at the beginning of the movie..huhu

AVATAR ended at 2.30am, we went searching for food..lepak2 at mamak's and headed home...my house was locked up, and we can't enter my sister's apartment. the pak guard and mak guard were totally out of mind.. *berlagak-bagus-sangat-sakethati-gila-babs* ...we even decided to sleep at the Shah Alam mosque, but, while searching the proper parking, the guard and kariah looked suspiciously at us hence we decided not to sleep there..takut...haha..so, we ended up sleeping in the car outside the house...i couldnt sleep though i was very sleepy.. it was hot and mosquitoes were flying around you..dem! huhu...around 6.30, went back to my sis's apartment and freshen up..while waiting the turn to bath, i managed to sleep for while..fire burning betol (mya akmal, 2010)...

off to pasar pagi shah alam at the Shah Alam stadium around 9am..it was too sunny and hot!!! so we didnt take too much time there, just looking around and bought dear grandma a beg..then, we headed to my house, finally, and started parking to lepak2 at Ulu Yam..we're intended to cooling down after all what has happened.. however, there were a few scene that were not cool at all..we lost track of my sis and her friend as they went by using her friend's car..we took quite some time to gather back and by that time, it's raining...but, nothing can stopped us. we finally jump to the river though it's raining..hehe..after a while, we stopped and had our lunch at 5pm..hehe.. the rain was getting heavier, decided to go home. we kissed goodbye to the cousin, she was going home at ampang, we on the other hand went home by my sis' friend.

so, in total, it was an awesome weekend-fire burning weekend. and we are HOT!!! haha...by the way, i am happy..happy and happy..met safya, napisah's niece and the family at my house..safya is so comel..miss her already!!! by the way, i met mukhriz too at maksu's..he is already 10months with 8kilos..sangat BOLAT and TEMBAM..auww, manja betol, i loike!!! love.love.love.


how would i say this??

em i think miss you??
yes, i am missing you!!!!
but why???
oh! i dont know either.
do i have to have reasons to miss you??
duhai hati, sila bertabah okeh!!!!

Sayangku Napisah :-*

Cik Miss Birthday Girl ke??hehe


@pakli


@home, sacc mall, pkns, johnyss

so, this is Cik Napisah on her birthday. dia seorang yang sangat chumel. seorang yang pemalu tapi banyak cakap sebenarnye. dia penglipur lara-ku sebab dia boleh bercerita for hours. but, worry not my dear, i cant be bored with you, indeed i love you so strong!!! ngeh ngeh ngeh... maka genap lah usia beliau tahun ini yang menjadikan beliau lebih MATANG dari yang lain. it was your last birthday celebration being as a student. hopefully the celebration will remain in your memory forever and evah!!! hopefully that was not the last time for us, let's pray our relationship will last forever, insyaAllah.

Cik Napisah perasan tak bahawa birthday anda telah disambut dengan rancaknya???bermula dengan kita lunch, heavy tea time with my sister kat sacc mall, walaupun dah makan dinner pulak lagi kat pakli and last but least camwhoring kat rumah. juge merujuk hadiah anda. maka kesimpulannya, semoga anda gembira dan happy. kerana saya mahu anda happy. bila anda happy saya pun happy. weeheee~

dengan ini, saya mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan selamat maju jaya. semoga anda sentiasa dirahmati dunia dan akhirat. terima kasih kerana sudi menjadi kawan-ku, walaupun dulu kita tidak sealiran..hakhak..

p.s: sorry for the late entry..membelog dalam keadaan tingtong..hahahah (tapi ikhlas, perlu la state ikhlas kan)wahaha...

bila rindu

it has been days of not updating the blog. there were lots of things happened and i really want to blog. but, due to time constraint and the laziness creeping inside me, the desire of blogging was put aside..please dont blame me, but me... (^_*) okay, i guess there were too many stories to tell in this entry, so i'll just make it short and sweet (just like me *wink2)..

1.went back to shah alam, unfortunately, my sis and I were 3minutes late from the departure time, thus we're missed the bus. we tried to get another bus and yeah we did it. the ticket's price were cheaper than the previous bus, thus, we're super happy as we managed to get another bus as I have class on monday. again, unluckily, the bus stucked in the middle of the journey. so we had to wait for another bus to pick us up. imagine how would you feel if you have to stand through out 60++ minutes journey to shah alam together with almost 80 passengers. wtf! I was super tired, cramp, exhausted and hungry!!!! the journey from ipoh-shah alam took almost 5hours..
huh!

2.after all the bitterness, as soon as I safely arrived home, my dear friend who promised to make us spaghetti called and sent us the amazingly delicious pasta ever..ececeh..and the pasta was delivered by him (and it was raining okay!) the pasta was superb. IT'S FINGER LICKING GOOD!!!! oh! btw, the sauce was made by him and not using preego etc. so, dear you, can we have another shot of your heavenly delicious with love pasta..ahahaha... (^_*)

deepest appreciation to you!!

3. it's Napisah birthday the day after..even though, she personally asked the friends to have lunch together2 to celebrate the day, however, some of them could not make it. they had other things to deal with..but, that's okay, life must move on. thus, the rest of us had lunch with Napisah. the food was ERK! sorry Napisah.. (will post another entry specially for you!)

4. after lunch, went straight away to class. it's the first meeting for the subject and we're a bit late but we apologized okay!!! so, we need to organize a seminar and i will be playing a big part of it, ehem..thenx to dear friends OKAY! oh! i really need moral support from you..and you...thinking hard whether i can do it or not... :(

5. the rest of days, we ronggeng2 rokiah..berjoka-joka..

6. it's just the beginning of the semester. it's only a week..which means it's only 5 days of the new semester but the works are piling up.. we have 3 presentations to do, as well as the reports, and we're the first presenter!!!!!!! there are lots of reports, presentations, journals, article reviews, seminar etcetras..last but not least my thesis....how can i enjoy my final semester?????

p.s: tensi.

love hurts

this is the first entry of the year.

the clock is ticking. time is running faster than i could ever thought. there is no time to turning back and regrets. it is all about moving on and getting over with. i want to be different. the brand new me. everything is just not the same anymore. the good side or the bad side it is, the matter of fact, every of it contributes to what we have and who we are, now. i want to be stronger than yesterday so that no one could see the weaknesses and the fragility of me. tomorrow is just the beggining where it will lead to various path that can be chosen to shape the future. we might be wrong in making decision yet the process of it will help us to review the way we see the world and change for the better. the world does not revolve around us solely, that is why we should not be concerned excessively with oneself by not sharing our life with people that we care and we love most. do not wait until the final minutes that we have to share with them. i am afraid that it will be too late to catch up things. appreaciate each and every of them while we can even sometimes we suffer ourselves by doing so. but believe me, the time spent with them is precious and it worth a hundred thousand miles. i know how it feels as i learn the hard way.

anyway, this is the last day of spending my quality time with dear family. it has been around three months and this is the longest semester break that i spend with my beloved family. i have been quite busy the whole break. there are lots of things to settle with but somehow it bridges the family ties within the nuclear family members as well as the extended family members. day by day, we are getting closer and closer, not that we are not closed before, but, to the extend i could sadly cry or cry happily just for small and silly things. last night was the closing dinner with dear family. and, since beloved mother's birthday is just around the corner and we might not be able to come home later, thus, we did a little birthday suprise last night. Alhamdulillah, beloved mother loves the surprise soooo much. it was rather touched and heartmelt when beloved mother did round table to kiss each of us. not just that, beloved mother accompanied me doing some stuff the whole night. we chatted, we disscussed and did things together. how wonderful motherly love is, isnt' it??.

now, it's the time. i have to face it. dare or no dare. let think positively and look forward each and every day. OH! love hurts!!!!


p.s: additional resolution, searching for my green apple. please pray for me eh!