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Lunch Date

2012-01-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

Salam everybody. Long time no see kan. Been busy with life and whatnot.. huhuhu.. well I have so many things to be shared. but not gonna do that at the moment. later maybe.. but one thing for sure, I am uber excited for tomorrow cos I gonna have lunch date with mama napisah. can't wait to feel the little baby inside her womb. 4months old ye baby. well syg, you have to wait for another 5 months to meet your beloved parents and this beautiful world as well as the cutest mummy hanna.. okey muntah darah..haha

Excited. Happy. can't wait to feel your movement. please be nice ye syg! hehe

P.s. sakit hati sebab nak upload gambar tapi tak boleh pulak! peace yall
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Muhasabah diri

2011-12-11T18:03:00.001+08:00

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah Maha Mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

–Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

p.s. I just got to know that my best cousin (the same age with mine) is going to be engaged soon. And on top on that, my other best cousin (the same age with mine, too) has already engaged a few months ago..
So I guess, I'm the one who left behind. Sobs. Okay now let's muhasabah diri!!!

Tomato dan Ukhwah

2011-12-09T17:31:00.001+08:00

Hablumminallah Hablumminannas.

Please watch this short film. Ianya sangat menyentuh rasa dan mempunyai makna yang mendalam.

Ukhwah itu indah.

Jom tolong menolong!

2011-12-07T12:58:00.003+08:00

Dari Abu Hurairah ra, Nabi SAW, bersabda: “ Barang siapa yang melepaskan satu kesusahan seorang mukmin, pasti Allah akan melepaskan darinya satu kesusahan pada hari kiamat. Barang siapa yang menjadikan mudah urusan orang lain, pasti Allah akan memudahkannya di dunia dan di akhirat .

Barang siapa yang menutupi aib seorang muslim, pasti Allah akan menutupi aibnya di dunia dan di akhirat. Allah senantiasa menolong hamba Nya selama hamba Nya itu suka menolong saudaranya ” .

(HR. Muslim, lihat juga Kumpulan Hadits Arba’in An Nawawi hadits ke 36).

Jahanam!

2011-11-29T05:19:00.000+08:00

Received an email that makes me heart wrenching. I feel scared!!! Thus, let's share some here. Please correct me if im wrong!

Dari Hadith Qudsi: Bagaimana kamu masih boleh melakukan maksiat sedangkan kamu tak dapat bertahan dengan panasnya terik matahari Ku.

Tahukah kamu bahawa neraka jahanamKu itu:

1. Neraka Jahanam itu mempunyai 7 tingkat

2. Setiap tingkat mempunyai 70,000 daerah

3. Setiap daerah mempunyai 70,000 kampung

4. Setiap kampung mempunyai 70,000 rumah

5. Setiap rumah mempunyai 70,000 bilik

6. Setiap bilik mempunyai 70,000 kotak

7. Setiap kotak mempunyai 70,000 batang pokok zarqum

8. Di bawah setiap pokok zarqum mempunyai 70,000 ekor
ular

9. Di dalam mulut setiap ular yang panjang 70 hasta
mengandungi lautan racun yang hitam pekat.

10. Juga di bawah setiap pokok zarqum mempunyai
70,000 rantai

11. Setiap rantai diseret oleh 70,000 malaikat

Mudah-mudahan ini dapat menimbulkan keinsafan kepada kita semua......Wallahua'lam.

Masih Ada Cinta

2011-11-24T01:40:00.001+08:00

Angin lalu
Kirimkan lah
Beritanya
Oh di sana
Di hatiku
Masih ada cinta
Kembalilah kekasih ku… sayang
Ku rindu...

Siapa ingat lirik ni? ha nilah lirik lagu Masih Ada Cinta nyanyian kumpulan ATo Z.. Lagu ni paling femes masa filem Gemerlapan dulu.. Woot Woootttt mase tu memang tangkap cinta cintun la dengan lagu ni (dengan ahli ATo Z pun ye jugak..haha) Tapi siyes masa tu memang tangkap leleh la dengar lagu ni. Suke!

Malam-malam kene buat esaimen lagi. Badan dah makin kurang antibodi. Sudah sakit-sakit terima tekanan. hati runsing. Jiwa lara. Jadi sangat emosional sejak menjak ni. Oh rindu kudikkkkk~

p.s. Jom ayuh lekas mari buat ASSignment!

AUMMMMMMM! HARIMAU MALAYA!

2011-11-22T11:35:00.001+08:00

ehsan dari MalaysiaKini

Mendebarkan! Menggerunkn! Tekanan!

Alhamdulillah! Tahniah Harimau Malaya kerana berjaya mengekalkan pingat emas bolasepak Sukan Sea 2 kali berturut. Yang jarang sangat berlaku. Tapi anda berjaya buktikan semangat Malaysia Boleh!

Dua kali mengalahkan Indonesia di gelanggang mereka sendiri dan dihadapan ribuan penyokong mereka. Pastinya amat meninggalkan kesan mendalam. Jadi jangan takbur, jangan riak! Kekalkan kecemerlangan, tingkatkan usaha, insyaAllah kita boleh pergi jauh lagi dari ini.

Berbaloi rasa mengikuti setiap perlawanan Harimau Malaya. Tahniah!

Pagi ni rasa nak nangis dengar lagu semangat Harimau Malaya.
Over kan!!! haha.

Burik Ayam

2011-11-21T11:49:00.002+08:00

Kebelakangan ini saya mendapati saya merupakan seorang yang banyak bercakap. Selama hari ni saya rasa saya seorang yang pendiam lagi berat mulut serta berat badan itu sudah pasti. Ye pendek kata saya seorang yang sopan santun (la sangat!).

Tapi mungkin kerana desakan hidup yang semakin mencabar hati nurani jantung pisang tanduk, jadi bila sahaja ada peluang untuk bercakap maka akan terkeluar rantaian kata-kata secara terus dan tanpa henti. Pot Pet Pot Pet macam Cik Jah (bukan nama sebenar) mengumpat petang-petang.

Sampai kadang-kadang jatuh ~~cinta~~ kesian kepada yang terpaksa melayan saya bercakap. Sebab kene dengat cerita satu-satu dari A sampai Z.

Menjengkelkan sangat!

Gambar sekadar hiasan. Ihsan dari Incik Google.

Sekian laporan penuh dari JIWA dan LARA yang sunyi..

Okay everyone! Have a nice day!!

It is our choice to be happy

2011-11-17T12:19:00.002+08:00

I came across this email and was whoa-ed by its content... here let me share some of the contents with you guys.

These are simple steps/guidelines for us to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hate
2. Free your mind from worry.
3. Live simple.
4. Give more
5. Expect less.

Let's (at least) practice some of it. May Allah bless us all.

updated: i miss everybodyyyyyy!!! T-T

Half deaf

2011-11-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

I am currently on MC. Not feeling well and on top of that a pile of assignments (and late due) waiting to be done. Do not have the courage to sit and do those monsters yet. Or I am going to be depressed and stressed again. Oh great! due to stress, I am having high fever at the moment. And on Monday I had this kind of shivering and shaking all over me. I had to rush to the kitchen and made myself a cup of hot milo.

While I prepared my drink, I had to quickly eat anything I could reach near me. I ate some breads, biscuits and raw milo as well. Luckily after I consumed those food and drink. my body reacted as normal and under control. No more shivering or shaking. However, I noticed that something is not right with my left ear. It feels like I am at higher place like mountains or hills. I feel like something is covering or stopping my hearing. Or there is something that clog my ear. Thus I tried to clean my ear with cotton bud but nothing could be found as I will always make sure my ears clean.

So I decided to wait and and let it for one day but nothing's changed so, again, yesterday I went to my panel clinic as I am afraid that thus is the effect of the meds that I had from the other clinic I had for my fever. After the doctor took a look at my ear condition, she told me that my left inner ear is too red and there's inflammation. She told me that it's kinda VERTIGO and that's why I suffered form dizziness and pain around my head and eyes. The friendly doctor also told me that it takes almost two weeks for me to get my hearing back. And as for the mean time I am not allowed to clean my ear.

So currently I am half deaf due to that sickness. And next week is going to be the start of new semester, isn't that greatttt!!! Homaiiiii!!!!!

By the way, please pray for my health and thanks in advance y'alls.

Lelaki Seperti Aku by Alif Satar

2011-11-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

Seriously I am super duper stress at the moment. Dah berhari-hari kurang tidur. Dan semalam hanya mampu tidur selama 30 minit. Ni semua research punya pasal. Dan esok kene present full paper. Tapi banyakkkkkk giler tak baca and cover lagi. Data pun berterabur lagi.

Stress! Stress! Stress!

Tapi thanks to my sis Mya sebab bagi link lagu ~~Lelaki~~ Gadis Seperti Aku version Shila Amzah kat fb td. Terus sepantas kilat bukak youtube cari Alif Satar Lelaki Seperti Aku. Call me cheesy ke ape I don't mind but I love this song.

Tetibe rasa airmata menitis. Dan pada masa yang sama dok sengih memanjang tengok video tu sebab comel sangat. Hilang stress sekejap!! huhu.

Jom layannn!

Budak Manja

2011-11-02T04:35:00.001+08:00

R I N D U ! ! !

Kopak Pintu

2011-11-01T20:49:00.001+08:00

Alkisah hari ini, tadi menumpang bilik ofis seorang kawan namanya Kak Ima sebab kononnya nak fokus buat research dan senang nak tanya-tanya la konon. Maka balik dari breakfast, terus laju menuju ke bilik Kak Ima. Kebetulan Kak Ima ada meeting, jadi ditinggalkan kunci biliknya di dalam bilik takut saya perlu keluar ke mana-mana. Tiba-tiba perut memulas dan dengan pantas dan efisien berlari anak ke tandas. Kunci Kak Ima di bawa bersama. Nak dijadikan cerita, balik dari tandas dengan semangat nak buat research, terus masukan anak kunci dalam tombol pintu dan pulas.

"Eh kenapa senang sangat ni"

Tup tup rupanya anak kunci tu patah dan tertinggal di dalam tombol pintu. Patutlah senang sangat nak pulas. Tahniah la kan sebab segala barang termasuk laptop, buku, handphones, air, handbag semua dalam bilik Kak Ima. Terus gelabah ayam dan berlari ke bilik sendiri di tingkat atas. Menelefon teman sebelah bilik untuk meminta bantuan bukak pintu guna kad. Tapi dah try banyak kali sampai give up terus telefon fasiliti.

Boleh tak boleh technician tu gelak je bila dengar aduan. Ish! Malu okay. Dah la suara pun ketar-ketar takut kene marah dengan Kak Ima. Huhu. Tunggu punya tunggu sampai ramai betul kat depan bilik macam pesta dekat 30minit tak sampai sampai lagi. Kene call 3 kali baru terpacak muncul technician depan bilik. Memang research ke laut la kan.

Ni la dia kunci yang patah tu. Kunci tu nampak memang macam dah usang kan? worn out sangat. Sebab tu la patah (defensive konon bukan salah sendiri..hehe)

Okay namppak tak sebahagian lagi kunci yang tertinggal dalam tombol pintu tu?? huhuhu

yeay!!! Mr. My-Saviour-Technician akhirnya muncul dan menyelamatkan keadaan.

Okay! Ni lah hasilnya tombol pintu yang telah dikopak. Lama jugak nak buat ni. Kesian berpeluh-peluh Mr. My-Saviour-Technician.

Taaaddaaaa!!! Inilah hasilnya setelah hampir setengah jam berhempas pulas. Dapat tombol pintu baru yang handsome bergaya plus satu set anak kunci baru yang bergemerlapan woot woot!

Penuh adventure betul pengalaman hari ni. Dalam pukul 12 tengahari baru dapat masuk bilik dah mula mengadap research yang terbengkalai tadi (kononnya la.) haha. By the way, ni sebenarnya pengalaman kali kedua anak kunci patah masa buka pintu. Yang first time dulu masa kat rumah my sis Mya di Shah Alam. Masa tu tengah sedap nyanyi lagu dangdut Selangit selangittt selangiiitttttttt~ pak patah kunci huhuhu..

Anyway, Alhamdulillah semua selamat dan kak Ima tak mengamuk walaupun dah senseng lengan baju jugak la tadi.. hehe

Kill! Kill! Die! Die!

2011-10-31T02:23:00.001+08:00

Rimas! Lemas! Tak suka! Kotor! Busuk! Selalunya inilah yang kita rasa bila melihat serangga kecil ni. Memang serangga ni tak mengacau tapi tapi ianya kotor dan boleh mendatangkan mudarat pada kesihatan kita. Boleh membawa penyakit. Okay siapa suka lipas sila angkat ketiak cepat!!!!

Tak suka! Tak suka! Selalunya kalau nampak lipas mesti rasa macam geli-geli. Jangan kan dalam rumah, kadang-kadang dalam kereta pun boleh ada lipas. Seriously tak tahu dari mana puncanya! Pernah sekali tu masuk satu kereta ni punya la banyak lipas siap beranak pinak banyak betul. Sana sini boleh nampak lipas-lipas dan anak lipas. Euww!!!

Macam mana nak halau lipas eh?

Petuanya senang je. Sekarang pergi cari daun pandan, yang warna hijau dan bau wangi tu. Ala yang kita guna untuk masak nasi lemak. Ambil dalam 2-3 helai daun pandan, carik-carikkan supaya bau dia lebih kuat. Lepas tu, ikat daun pandan tu secara gumpalan supaya jadi macam ni.

Lepas tu, boleh lah letak daun pandan tu kat tempat-tempat yang sesuai. Kalau dalam kereta tu, boleh lah letak kat bawah seat, dalam dashboard dan dalam bonet. Oh, nak buat macam potpori pon boleh. letak dalam kantung dan gantung kat dalam kereta. Bukan hanya boleh halau lipas, tapi boleh jugak wangikan kereta yang bau kepam tu. hehe..

Oh Magnum!

2011-10-30T01:45:00.001+08:00

Oppss! ini bukan tempat nak beli nombor ekor magnum tu. Bukan jugak tempat nak telek nombor. Salah! Salah!. Tapi ini tentang CINTA. Hahaha.. Pernah rasa bercinta tak? Tentunya indah-indah kan? Sampaikan kentut pun bau wangi.

Ini juga tentang rasa cinta. Sangat indah. Sangat lembut. Sangat membuai. Sangat mengkagumkan. Sangat mengasyikkan dan yang penting sangat lazatt yum yum!

Pernah makan tak eskrem Magnum? Sedap kan? So inilah cinta hati yang dimaksudkan. Memang sangat membuai perasaan. Kalau tengah-tengah stress, insyaAllah boleh rasa tenang buat sedetik dua. Yelah, lepas tu dah mengadap balik stressor tu semula, sure la stress balik kan. Tapi takpe, kalau rasa nak tenang-tenang kejap dan menikmati kehidupan silalah jilat slurrp slurrpp Magnum puas-puas. hehe

Eskrem Magnum Almond memang best!

p.s. Bila makan magnum 2 kali dalam seminggu maksudnya memang tengah stress hokay!!! =)

Berat Belog Saya.

2011-10-28T19:16:00.023+08:00

Yeay! Sudah timbang berat blog sendiri..Blog ni kite kene jaga jugak macam jaga badan walaupun secara realitinya badan sendiri pun tak terjaga..muahahaa..Blog kalau berat sangat sampai atas dari 100kb adalah kurang sihat dan akan menjadikan blog anda jadi lambat untuk browse.

Ini adalah berat belog yours truly sebelum tambah gadget ini.

kira sihat dan normal la kan sebab bawah 100kb.

Namun, langit tak selalunya cerah. Bila-bila masa saja berat blog ni akan naik. maka marilah kita diet sama-sama. Ayuh!!!

Ate moh le kite cek berat blog masing-masing..Jom klik sini penimbang berat!

The Kitchen Musical.

2011-10-26T02:14:00.003+08:00

I just watched it just now and I find this new series is interesting and yummy. It makes me salivating. haha. I don't watch any musicals before but I am going to watch this one. Even though I can see amateur steps and kinda stiff movements and expressions yet they are delicious to be watched. And most importantly, Christian Bautista is too scrumptious to be wasted off..hahaha..

It is a Pan Asian Musical television Series starring by Stephen Rahman Hughes as Alex Marcus (the executive chef), Karylle as Maddie Avilon (sous chef and The Avilon's owner's daughter), CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA as Daniel Ray ( Maddie's childhood friend as well as another sous chef), Rosemary Vandenbroucke as Selena Argon ( the sommelier of The Avilon) and other actors & actresses. The Kitchen Musical is a product of Singapore and to be watched all over Asia and Europe.

here

Let's watch the appetizer of The Kitchen Musical. hehe..

Hani's solemnization and reception ceremony.

2011-10-26T01:26:00.001+08:00

So, last weekend was awesome for me!!! Managed to go Hani's solemnization and reception ceremony then later had ronggeng rokiah with dearest family. hehe. Memula sudah frustrated sangat sebab macam tak sempat nak rush ke kepong for the solemnization. Imagine I was from Kedah around 2pm, then headed back to Bote to pick up my little girls (note: they refer to my cousins) and my superhero which is my car. Hujan lebat sangat sehinggakan sampai Bote around 5ish pm, almost 6pm. Lepas tu rushing ke Ipoh to pick up my emak and kakak pulak. Right after maghrib baru lah gerak ke Kepong. Dengan hujan lebat sepanjang hari memang menyukarkan pemanduan. Dah give-up untuk sampai masa nikah sebab Hani nikah after Isyak. Sedih.

Tapi, takdir Allah siapa tahu. Bila dapat tahu Hani nikah lambat apalagi terus pecut even hujan lebat. Alhamdulillah sampai around 10pm dan masih hujan. Tinggalkan family dalam kereta then headed to her house. Elok-elok sampai, Hani selamat diijabkabulkan dengan Hatta.

I was so happy to meet dearest besties. Lama sangat dah tak jumpa. Without further due, let's look at the photos of the solemnization and reception ceremony before I go mad and babbling rubbish..haha.

The solemnization.

My jelitawans that I managed to meet that night.

Sadly another jelitawan, Napisah wasn't there that night.

Some of the hantarans from both sides.

Before the reception ceremony started.

Alhamdulillah we managed to meet up with Napisah this time around.

These were taken during the ceremony
upon the arrival of Mr. Bridegroom.

My siblings and my cousin were attending the ceremony too.

Praying for our turns to come next. Haha.

p.s. Didn't manage to meet lotsa friends. huhu..

p.s.s. Next post will be on the ronggeng rokiah trip. hehe..

Down Memory Lane and Tribute to Hani

2011-10-21T04:55:00.000+08:00

In another few hours, one of my besties is getting married. tik! tok! tik! tok! Oh excited nye! Eventhough sekarang masih di Kedah sebab konon bajet nak siapkan proposal nak hantar esok, tapi ape pun tak siap lagi sebab mood sudah terbang ke Kepong!!!! Tak sabar nak jumpa Cik jelita bride-to-be Ecah. Lepas ni no more cik, lepas ni puan/madam sudah.

Dear sahabat, esok pasti menjanjikan kelainan buatmu. Tanggungajawab pun makin besar, keluarga bertambah, banyak yang berubah. Semoga kehidupan berkahwin akan lebih membahagiakan, diberkati dan dirahmati selalu dear. Dah kawin bukan makna nya putus kawan dan letak kawan jauh-jauh kan, tapi lebih kepada memanjangkan lagi silaturrahim kan, insyaAllah. Semoga persahabatan kita kekal abadi. Amin.

And, here are some pictures as the tribute to you. miss you babe. and yes, you know i love you.

1. August 20, 2008. Babe, ingat tak waktu ni? Ni masa kita dok sibuk pindah dua tiga round ke rumah mr. pang. Pindah keluar dar rumah ***##*. Penuh giler kereta. Mak takde masa ni, dia kat OZ.

Mak selalu escape, kan.haha.

2. September 09, 2009. Yang pulak masa kite pg sunway nak tengok cite Ugly Truth kot.

Yang kene tahan dengan polis suspek bukan warganegara..haha..

3. July 11, 2009. Your Surprise birthday celebration kat KFC Federal.

Almost frustrated sebab macam tak jadi. tapi Alhamdulillah plan went accordingly.

4. April 5, 2010. Ini antara momen-momen terakhir kita. The friendship that stays stronger since our first meeting masa pre-degree dulu. Then, kita teruskan lagi masa degree pulak walaupun banyak rintangan. more or less 6 years and still counting. Roommate, housemate, classmate, course mate, colleague, bestest friend.

Selamat Pengantin Baru Dear Hani. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan.

Kekal bahagia dan dirahmati selalu.

Lotsa love,

Mummy Hanna.

(nak bagi hint kat ko..haha)

p.s. pics 1 and 2 tu amek dari archive dolu-dolu. yang dah siap edit. tu pasai jadi macam tu..haha

Tahniah Rashidi Ishak dan Vanida Imran.

2011-10-20T09:37:00.005+08:00

source..

"Saya sangat bangga kerana akhirnya dapat juga menamatkan pengajian dan saya mungkin pelajar paling lama

di Fakulti Bahasa dan Komunikasi, UPM ini."

Congratulations to both of you. Usaha yang yang ditaburkan akhirnya berbaloi walaupun mengambil masa selama 7 tahun. Tidak mengapa bak kata orang biar lambat asalkan selamat betul tak? Sangat suka both of them. Sama cantik sama padan dan sama pandai. Dengar cerita Vanida Imran pun tengah belajar, bagus-bagus! Ikut jejak langkah. Inilah yang kita mahukan!

"Biarpun saya sudah mempunyai kerjaya tetapi ijazah ini adalah satu kepuasan buat diri sendiri, lagi pula saya mahu anak-anak saya tahu betapa pentingnya ilmu dan pelajaran."

"Insya-Allah, kini saya memasang impian untuk terus belajar di peringkat lebih tinggi."

Mengangkat martabat artis Malaysia ke arah yang lebih baik. Tidak hanya pandai bercakap atau berlakon sahaja tapi penuh ilmu di dada. Semoga mereka ini akan memberi inspirasi untuk lebih ramai lagi menyambung pelajaran. May Allah bless both of you and family.

source

psssttt: yang lain bila lagi?? hehe

Bayi dikelar, perut terburai.

2011-10-18T09:56:00.000+08:00

Serius. Memang kita sedang mengalami krisis kemanusiaan yang sangat dasyat. Kita sibuk-sibuk mengenangkan budak 2 tahun yang digilis di China sedangkan di tempat sendiri pun kezaliman ke atas bayi/ kanak-kanak berleluasa. Kita dok sibuk memaki hamun drivers, motorists dan orang ramai tapi kita sendiri pun tak sedar salah kita.

DI KELAR sebanyak 7 KALI bukan sedikit kesannya. Bayi tersebut pastinya sangat menderita kesakitan akibat diseksa sebegitu rupa. Terburai isi perut pulak tu. Insane!!!

“Polis yang tiba di tempat kejadian selepas menerima laporan, memeriksa mayat bayi itu dan menemui tujuh kesan kelar iaitu dua di bahagian belakang, dua di tangan, dan masing-masing satu di leher, rusuk serta perut,” katanya. Sementara itu, Pemangku Ketua Polis Daerah Betong, Asisten Superintendan Henry Nyuhai, yang mengesahkan kejadian itu berkata polis turut menemui sebilah pisau pemotong sayur dipercayai digunakan dalam kejadian itu."

selanjutnya..

p.s Takut memikirkan masa depan.

Budak 2 tahun di gilis

2011-10-17T22:28:00.001+08:00

Okay now, parents please be extra careful in handling your kids. They are kids who like to wander around and love to play. They sometimes not even realized that they are jeopardizing their safety. Pelik kan, kadang-kadang ada je kanak-kanak yang bermain lari-lari sampai ke tengah jalan tapi tiada ibu bapa atau penjaga di sekitar.

Ada jugak nampak budak-budak yang berkeliaran sedangkan mak bapak sedang sibuk nak pilih baju seluar baru. Lepas tu anak dah nangis-nangis baru terhegeh-hegeh nak cari dan pujuk. Walaupun takda anak sendiri lagi tapi dah alah bisa tegal biasa tau dalam penjagaan kanak-kanak ni. Budak-budak ni bukan apa, kadang-kadang dorang just nak kan perhatiaan untuk rasa di sayangi.

Nanti jangan sampai anak dah hilang baru teriak menangis dan salahkan orang lain pulak. By the way, sebelum melalut lagi, sebenarnya nak kongsi cerita yang menyayat hati yang dihidangkan TV3 dalam Buletin Utama tadi. Kesian that little girl, takde siapa pun yang sudi membantu. Hopefully if this happened to us, somebody will helps us.

Updated:

Here's the video.

p.s. Parents, like I have mentioned earlier, please be extra careful. Drivers and motorists as well. Everybody too. take this as an eye opener.

Kamu.

2011-10-16T12:35:00.002+08:00

Hoi! hoi! hoi! Kamu, ye kamu..Patah Seribu Shila Amzah betul tau tak! Faham tak macam mana rasanya. Jangan pandai cakap je. Tolonglah selidik diri sendiri tu dulu. Kalau rasa nak orang faham kita, cubalah faham orang lain jugak.

Kamu kejam! kamu memang kejam! Kamu tahu tak!!!!

What's worth it.. Laid back weekend and Real Steel..

2011-10-16T11:23:00.001+08:00

Salam,

See, I have been telling you guys that I am suffering from severe stress at the moment. I have been working and using a whole lot of my energy for the past few weeks non-stop. I slept late at nights thus it makes my body aches particularly in each part.

Since I am working in Kedah which its weekend falls on Friday and Saturday, I have spent a pretty good time for myself for the past two days. ALONE. hehe.. My body refused to do anySINGLEthing the whole weekend that I just can laid down and watch TV programmes the whole Friday. I was very lazy to go out. Thus I cooked a very simple dish for my lunch and dinner. I feel healthy!.haha

This is for my lunch. Orange Juice, Chicken-Mushroom Soup, Wholemeal Bread and Chicken Nuggets.

As for dinner, I had Chicken Porridge and Orange Juice

I was thinking to continue my work on Saturday evening since I have a ceremony for postgrad students to be attended in the morning. But then I just do not know what happened to me that suddenly my feet dragged to the Sunway Carnival. Weehooo! Finally I stepped my foot there and having my long-lost chicken soy sauce springy noodle from Noddle Station. I miss yuhhh nudel!!!

By the way, this picture was taken long long loooonnnggg time ago at Noodle Station SACC Mall, the place where my beloved sister, Mya Akmal, and I love to 'lepaks'.

Blame me, I know because supposedly I have to heading back home, unfortunately I spent (a lot of) time there. I decided to watch a movie which I long to watch. It's Real Steel. Big Applause pleaseee!!!! The movie is about robots boxing. The robots box instead of human as boxing has gone high tech. It has been a phenomenon to watch them box and cheer them up for more aggressive and destructive fights! I love this movie and I do not care if there are lots of bad reviews about this movie. As for me, it was very entertaining yet emotionally touched. It was good to see how the long lost father-son relationship develops. Family relationship is wonderful and the love is priceless. I almost shed a tear or did I? hehe.. Please go and watch then you can review or critic or what so ever. Sorry if it is not your cup of tea. =)

source

Okay, so now I have to be responsible for all the things I have done and the pleasure I have been enjoying. I have to really work my lazy ass off for another couple of weeks. Lots of works/assignments/presentations/papers/events/loves to attend to..huhuhu..pray hard for myself. May Allah bless us all. Have a nice Sunday everyone!!!

Stress itu Seksa

2011-10-13T13:20:00.000+08:00

Okay saya sedang sangat stress sampai jadi tak tahu nak buat ape. Bila banyak sangat benda nak kene handle, jadi sangat tertekan langsung mengakibat satu defence mechanism yang menolak semua kerja-kerja itu. Dalam hati tak ketahuan, dalam minda nak langsaikan semua tapi physically nya tak terbuat. Langsung membuat entri baru. Apakah??

Mohon agar semuanya dipercepatkan dan dipermudah. Everybody is pulling out from it. And I have to be focused to get over it soon. Permudahkanlah!!!

Sakit Bontot.

2011-10-10T17:28:00.004+08:00

Bontot juga adalah sama maksud dengan punggung, punkoq serta ada lagi beberapa perkataan yang memberi maksud yang sama.

Okay ini bukan entri lucah. Sila cepat-cepat tutup tab kalau itu niat anda melangkah ke dalam entri ini. hehe. Harapan hanya akan tinggal harapan sahaja kerana apa yang anda cari tiada di sini. Maaf.

Tapi ini entri untuk distract diri buat beberapa ketika. hehe. Pernah tak korang rasa sakit bontot atau mungkin juga lenguh-lenguh sebab duduk terlalu lama. Okay jangan jadi bias. Bukan orang kurus je yang akan merasai perasaan ini tau! Orang yang gempal, bersaiz sederhana, chubby or berisi pun tidak lepas dari pengalaman ini. Betul, percaya lah!!!

Kalau rasa sakit/lenguh sebab terlalu lama duduk dan fokus buat kerja jadi mari kita bangun dan melakukan sedikit regangan. Let's Jom, Ayuhhh!!! Jangan duduk lama-lama sebab nanti peredaran darah tidak lancar dan akan menjadikan kita mengantuk dan malas. Maka jangan jadikan nasi lemak or apa-apa nasi sebab alasan okay. Dah! Dah! tak reti-reti ke nak bangunnnnnn!!!!!!

So bila bosan dan sakit bontot, maka inilah hasilnya. Capturing pictures time uols!!! Go get your camera and snap snap! By the way, ini adalah panorama dari dalam bilik ofisku sorgaku la sangat!..

Alang-alang kepalang cakap pasal bontot, mari kita sahut kempen WIR (Wear It Right): Say What? Cover the butt by Sue Anna Joe. This is the second campaign. The first one is WIR: Covering the chest is the best! Kedua-dua kempen ini sangat lah bertetapan dengan tuntutan sebagai seorang Muslimat. Mari cepat join kempen sama-sama!!

Apa tunggu lagi, cabar diri anda sekarang!!!

updated: beberapa ketika selepas gambar diambil, hujan lebat telah turun mencurah-curah membasahi bumi. Alhamdulillah, rahmat!

Bayi 23 hari diliwat bapa

2011-10-08T16:38:00.002+08:00

Apalah nak jadi sekarang ni. Bayi sekecil 23 hari pun sanggup dijadikan mangsa untuk melampiaskan nafsu syahwat seorang bapa. Sampai hati si bapa melihat anaknya menangis menderita demi untuk kepentingan diri. Anaknya sendiri hasil dari hubungan dengan isteri. Logik tak logik engkau dah tahu bini tu baru lepas bersalin anak engkau jugak, yang engkau paksa-paksa puaskan nafsu engkau kenapa? lepas tu bila kene reject, engkau lepaskan pada anak engkau! Cukup akalkah?

Takut kan dengan fenomena hari ini. Macam-macam boleh jadi. barulah impossible is nothing (NOT!).. Semoga engkau terima balasan yang setimpal atas perbuatan terkutuk tu!

Baca sini untuk berita penuh!

Sanggupkah anda melihat bayi secomel ini di seksa??? Tak sanggup kan? Comel sangat newborn babies. Bau baby pun sangat wangi kan.

Mahu ~~liwat~~ lihat gambar babies yang comel lagi tak?? mari! mari!

Sakura Photography

Anna B Photography

Hush Photography

Newborn Photography
Little Moon Photography

dan banyak lagiiiiiiii~

Enjoy!

Aku Maafkan Kamu

2011-10-08T02:15:00.003+08:00

Salam semua, semoga semua berada dalam rahmat Allah insyaAllah. Rasa macam formal pulak ye entri kali ni. Tapi jangan risau entri ini tiada tujuan formal pun. Okay, this entry is dedicated especially to Puan Napisah. Thank you for your support. But you know, being me is not easy (ayat tak nak kalah kan..haha)..So busy memanjang tapi atas permintaan puan yang sangat jelita, terimalah penempelan entri baru ni!!! hehe

By the way, memaafkan tidak pernah senang kan? Mungkin senang diluahkan dengan kata tapi pasti akan terkesan di hati hatta (betul tak penggunaan ni?) sebesar zarah. Kalau tak mana nak dapat kata-kata orang yang "Forgiven but not Forgetten".. Bukan! bukan saya pendendam mahupun berdendam tapi hanya perlukan masa. Tak salah kan??

Takpelah, abaikan saja nanti-nanti okay la tu. Jom dengar lagu ni. Single baru Malique Feat. Jamal Abdillah. suke! suke!

Aku maafkan kamu

Tak perlu kita bertemu

Cukup kau tahu

Yang aku

Maafkan kamu

Tolong teruskan hidup

Jangan sebut namaku

Nanti kita pergi makan kek kat Secret Recipe nak?? Siapa mahu teman? Oh ni gambar yang masih panas lagi. Semalam punya gambar. Orang nya pon "panas" sangat! haha

p.s. perasan je ada orang nak sebut nama kan!

p.s.s. Napisah, jom makan secret nanti.

p.s.s.s. Cik Mya jom temankan lagi puhlisss...

Nota kakitangan: EH baru perasan hari tu suka lagu Pompa Bensin 'Jangan Lupa Namaku' dan sekarang suka lagu Malique Feat. Jamal Abdillah yang emphasize "jangan sebut namaku"..sangat contradict kan? rasa macam ada split personality pulak.. Bukti? buktinya tadi bajet nak buat entri pendek je, tapi ni dah banyak melalut..haha..ampun! ampun!

The Messages from God

2011-09-23T17:49:00.001+08:00

I have been receiving lots of messages from God in which the messages are not directly sent but through people I love the most and through incidents happened one after another. I have to admit that sometimes I could not register the message even after quite a while. When it passed too long to be remembered, then it comes to my sense that it happened for sure for a reason He knows the best.

One thing for sure, all the messages are sent to me in order to let me know that He loves me still. So that I will be strong to face all the challenges or circumstances and whatnot. For me to realize I should be thankful for having such beautiful people family and friends with me. And not being ungrateful to complaints everything.

And, as for today, I have received two news, one is a good news and the other one not so good news. Both news are too confidential for me to let it out in public. But I am happy for you my dear, You are achieving one by one of your big dreams. I am looking forward to meet you and of course I am very happy for you. Love you lots! For the second news, it is about me. Which makes me think that I am meant to be here and to help those kids in need. Maybe that path is not meant for me and I am not qualify or suit to be in that environment. By the way, I am happy with that. No complaints!

Indeed, I have no time to complaints as I have engagement's 'hantaran' and ceremony to look forward, papers to be marked, family who is going to come over the weekend, assignments to be done and classes to be attended. What a wonderful life I have!!!

Bila Raksasa Lapar

2011-09-22T10:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I was very hungry on the way back from USM. So I was thinking on what I want to eat when suddenly the urge to eat home cooked meal came across me. Maybe because of too much intake of take away food forced me to cook my own meal. Since there are Giant and Tesco on my way back, I decided to 'pay a visit' to Giant Supermarket and bought some groceries. After spent SOME time there, I headed back and arrived at home around 9.30 p.m. Later, I had my dinner at 10.30pm accompanied by Shrek the Third on tv2. What a night for such beautiful and single lady like me. haha!

Voila! Satisfying Bihun Sup Ayam.

p.s: I feel old.

GELI

2011-09-17T10:23:00.002+08:00

To start my day, I am at the office right now. What a great start kan? Well I have to paste up students' marks so that they are able to know their level and to prepare for the final examination.

While waiting in the room if the students come and want to see me for clarifications, I go through my students' fb. To my surprise, some of them are in love. They are classmates and I did not notice their lovey dovey mushiness in the class before. ugh!

I just don't know but I feel GELI2 when I read their status and especially when they are commenting each other. I will always think that they are too young to be involved where they should focus more on their study especially for my subject!! But then, I also believe that I am nobody to judge or criticise so I hope they will find their happiness and success in life. Because for me, to be in love is for once and for all.

Have a nice day!

quick update! Selamat Hari Raya!

2011-09-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

senyuman bahagia di pagi raya.

Lame nya tak hupdate belog..oh! rasa sangat bersalah mengabaikan belog ni sampai da bersawang. Baideway, rasa nak upload pics raya and nak menulis bannnyaaaaakkkkkkkkkk banyaaaakkkkkkk tapi ni pun tumpang lappy org..hehe..lappy my sis cik mya cun!

To make it short and sweet, i just wanna wish you guys

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

MAY ALLAH BLESS US ALL!!

lots of love!

Hanna.

Looking classy and sophisticated with #AddaraKaftans #MilkADeal !

2011-08-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

Looking classy and sophisticated with #AddaraKaftans #MilkADeal !

Jangan Lupa Namaku - Pompa Bensin

2011-08-19T02:26:00.000+08:00

Yes! Finally the song is out. I have been waiting for this song since the earliest episodes of Ramadan Terakhir. The drama has been on air July, 26th 2011. It is on TV3. I think this drama has its own values that attract viewers like me. I will wait exactly in front of the tv every 10.30 pm every Tuesday-Thursday night. Even if I have classes or anything need to be done during the night, I will make sure not to miss the episode. There was one time I cried and missed all the closest people in my life during watching one of the episodes. It touched the bottom of my heart. Credit should also be given for the OST of this drama by Pompa Bensin. It is marvelous! The song really suits the story line.

Something about the group:

Pompa Bensin is a special project band formed in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia in 2009. The group consists of AzmaAiza Y (vocals) and AG (bass, guitar, keyboards & percussion), Andra Ahmad (Vocals & guitar) and Aidan Alicia (vocals). All four members are involved in songwriting and production.

Taken from their fanpage!

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Okay. Enjoy the song!

here's the lyric.

Lirik Lagu Jangan Lupa Namaku - Pompa Bensin

Walau aku tidak bersamamu

Jangan engkau lupakan diriku

Walau aku tiada di sisimu

Jangan engkau lupakan namaku

Kerana

Aku mengingati mu

Kerana

Aku mencintaimu

Andai aku

Bisa bertemumu

Dengan senyum ku tadah syukurku

Andai aku bisa menyentuhmu

Air mata pasti deras gugur

Kerana

Aku merindui mu

Kerana aku sentiasa

Menyintaimu oh sepenuh hati

Walau kamu

Jauh di mataku

Jangan aku hilang dalam kalbu

Saat kamu samar mengingati

Jangan aku terus kau lupakan

Kerana aku

Sentiasa mengingatimu

Kerana aku

Sentiasa menyayangimu oh sepenuh hati

Andai aku bisa memelukmu

Pasrah aku tabah diujimu

Andai aku bisa dicintai

Dengan rela menyerahkan hati

Kerana

Aku merindui mu

Kerana aku sentiasa menyintaimu

Salam Ramadhan

2011-08-04T15:19:00.000+08:00

Happy fasting everyone.

May this month will be granted with lots of good things.

Be good, be nice!

Please forgive me for all my wrongdoings!

Lots of love!

Off men and women

2011-07-30T08:11:00.000+08:00

This is about marriage.

I have read something on this topic which makes me realize no one is perfect. How perfect is perfect may vary from one person to another. We may perceive different views than the others. They may have another perceptions compare to us. Depends...

About my reading, I've that no matter how bad or good men and women before marriage do not make or change anything. Because what most important is the attitude right before akad, during the akad and the life after marriage. If the man or woman is not good, bad attitude and whatnot, who knows what would happen and they might change to betterment. Being judgmental is not healthy.

I myself is being judgmental. I think I have to let it be and hoping for the best because He knows what best for us all.

Love.Love.Love

Digging Up

2011-07-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

At the moment, I am doing a big project of my own. Something that I have been dreaming for quite some time. I am very eager to finish what I have started. It is like a power that force me to work out that thing. However, in order to complete it, I have to dig out my past which I just realized that it is not easy. I have to be able to recall everything that has happened to me before.

There are times I even get too much into the character or the history that makes me feel nervous. It feels like yesterday that all of it happened. Indeed, because of getting too much of my past, I even dreamt about someone that I wish to forget. That person is looking after me and trying to change the history. The dream was so real that I woke with fear and my heart beats real fast.

Anyway, despite of that fact, I am happy and excited to continue my project. May Allah bless.

Anugerah Tuhan

2011-07-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

Bilamana saat memerlukan, mereka ada disisi. Tidak kira sebagai penenang hati mahupun penyokong sorak. Kalau ada pertandingan pom pom girl, pasti mereka mampu menggondol piala kemenangan. Tidak mengapa tiada mereka selalu disisi. Tetapi hadirnya mereka bila kehadiran itu mengubat duka. Itu sudah lebih dari bahagia. Syukur. Biar masa dan jarak pemisah kasih, namun tidak sekali pemutus tali. Biar ia diduga cubaan agar sayang semakin utuh. Semoga kasih dan sayangnya bukan sikit-sikit tetapi melimpah ruah mengalir di setiap pelosok sendi. Syukur aku syukur dipertemukan dan dijodohkan sahabat yang baik budi pekerti. Moga Tuhan sentiasa merahmati.

Rindu itu sentiasa ada kerana kasih sentiasa bertaut. Sayang juga masih utuh kerana lekatnya ia dihati.

precious

2011-07-25T18:49:00.003+08:00

Today I just knew about something.

Something which is so good.

Something which is too precious.

That broke my heart into pieces.

Irony.

Indeed.

So Toodles.

Pictures of busy weekends.

2011-07-20T19:29:00.004+08:00

For the past two weeks, I had been busy with lots of things. Happy things for sure despite of whatever bad things that had happened. Because I believe life is too precious to be given up! Here are some pictures that hopefully can tell the stories..

1. 7 - 9 July 2011. A return journey of 24hours from Merbok, Kedah to Ipoh, Perak to Teluk Ramunia, Johor. A solid single driver!!! Yeah! I broke my own record!!!

This is yours truly with tiring face!

Yours truly, again! Berangan okay!!! haha

With the Bride, Kak Ira.

The d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s wedding cake!

My partner in crime, my beloved sister, Akak. This is one of the successful dangerous poses that we took while heading back from south to north. and please noted that I was driving..hoho

2. 14 - 17 July 2011. A return journey of many many and many hours from Merbok, Kedah to Ipoh, Perak to Gombak, Cheras, Ampang and Putrajaya. Though terrible things happened but I enjoyed my stay there. Thanks Akak, Maksu and family!

This is my little angel, Adik Kudik. We were at Pesta Floria, Putrajaya. Maksu, Angah, Abang Chik, Azie and Akak, THANKS!!!

This is Abg Chik and his adik, Adik Kudik.

Here are Maksu and beloved children, Angah, Abg Chik and Adik Kudik.

THE KAZENS. From left: Me, Azie and Akak.

Yours truly with my partner in crime.

That's it. Now I'm back for work and I have to attend a course for these two days. Well, there are lots of things to be written and to be vomited here. I have not been posting anything for quite sometime. I miss to write again here. But , somehow, there are certain things that we should keep by ourselves. Certain things that only certain people should know and not the entire world. I am okay at the moment, I think. But I hate that things change to be upside down. However, I believe in Him. There must be something good at the end of the day.

p.s Thank You!

p.p.s. Allah jarang beri apa yang kita minta tapi Allah akan beri apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

dari utara ke selatan

2011-07-08T01:21:00.001+08:00

me with the bride to be. *i have no seri pengantin like she does, well obviously laaa!*

I am going to Johor in a few minutes for a friend's wedding, Kak Ira. She's an ustazah and teaching Islamic Finance. She is my officemate, neighbour, friend, sister and a good ustazah. She will offer helps and like to cook for her friends which make you unable to go through your diet regime because she cooks delicious food..haha.

Alhamdulillah, i am able to go there with my sister to accompany me. Puhliss pray for our safety!

to go or not to go

2011-07-06T13:57:00.001+08:00

i dont know. i got this one offer that i have been dreaming for. after asking around to get some tips, i have this feelings of not enough confident, knowledge and preparation. it sounds like a bit difficult, em i think it is difficult. i have gone through the guideline and info, and im afraid that i will fall hard later. urgh!

i did asked around for opinions, some said i should go. but some others said i should consider and think about it again. but i guess it's worth the experience huh? but noooooo! i am confused!!!!

I AM INDECISIVE!!!!

Main masak-masak

2011-07-05T10:20:00.001+08:00

Salam, dear all, dah lama rasanya tak berbelog. And for this time around rasa macam nak tempek gambar makanan. Sebenarnya I tengah laparrrrr sangat uolsss! Hehe... Anyway, at the moment saya yang comel ini tengah menumpang rumah seorang kakak ustazah. Kak Ira namanya. Sangat baik hati. Oleh kerana beliau akan berkahwin minggu depan, masa yang ada memang digunakan sebaiknya untuk bersama. (eh! alasan ke ni? hahah) Oh kitorg pegi nursery rambang mata ikut napsu beli bunga macam2 jenis..haha..kali ni aku nak tengok sejauh mana pokok2 tu mampu diuruskan olehku..hehe. okay weekend lepas aku berniat nak masakkan lunch untuk kak ira yang baik hati. Berbekalkan bahan2 dirumah kak ira, aku pon main la masak2..hehe..jadi inilah hasilnya...

Nasi Goreng Kampung, Ayam Madu, Coleslaw and Mushroom-Chicken Soup

bersama Milo Panas.

TAADAAAAAA!!!!!

this is for kak ira *senyyuummmmm*

and this is mine...

Kenyang gilerrrrr!!! sedap hingga menjilat jari. eh! ktorg guna sudu and garpu la..okay fine sehingga menjilat sudu..hehe

ini bukan puji diri sendiri. *kembang kempis hidung* hehe

p.s: dear bestfriends, lame dah tak main masak2 dengan korang, rindu!

Relationship

2011-06-29T23:03:00.001+08:00

I am no good in sustaining relationship(s) but I think it is nothing wrong with me. Because for me no one is. So please accept me for who I am as what I been accepting you the way you are. Peace y'all.. By the way, Hafiz showdown sangat comel.. Aawwww~~

L.O.V.E

2011-06-23T10:08:00.001+08:00

Thanks Mya Akmal for pasting up this photo in your blog! It reminds me of those memories, love, pain, happiness that we have gone through! This picture was taken during last Raya, 2010. Fortunately we took this picture together cos it would be our last pic with Tok and Opah. Their last Aidilfitri in this world. How I miss them so much! RIP Tok (7th June 2011) and Opah (12th April 2011). Al-Fatihah.

p.s: we wont be having them around anymore. especially this raya, it would be our first raya without them. it would be different, really.

wedding bells..

2011-06-18T18:58:00.001+08:00

Not me obviously..heheh..my bestest friends are getting married soon..quite a number of them.. I am beyond happy for them..May the union will be blessed forever! To my dear punching bag, I wish you the best for your life. May the coming marriage will make you happy eternally. Indeed, this is what I have been wishing and praying (dreaming, too) for you. And, He listens and answers my prayers. Alhamdulillah.

Dearest bestest friends, May Allah bless you and partner for the whole of your life. Please produce lotsa cute and adorable babies so I can be their cutest aunt in the world..hehehe..

p.s:please pass me the baton and the aura(s) as well..hehe..

blood donation

2011-06-15T15:09:00.004+08:00

I have donated my blood again. And, this is the third time and still counting. I wish to make blood donation as my interest because by donating my blood will help me to help others. This is the least I could do, one small tiny thing.

Every time I donated my blood, it reminds me of my atok. His sufferings. His pain. If donating blood is painful what about those people who undergo dialysis every alternate days just like my atok. I believe he suffered a lot in those days. Imagine that the kidney is not function anymore and you need to use machine which is located outside the body. The machine will be functioned just like your kidney to purify and remove waste from your blood. just like the process of taking out your blood, cleanse and return it back to your body. The process took about 2 to 4 hours depends on individual. Imagine! My atok once held my hand tightly! And during his final days, I can see how painful it is to do that process. His body almost could not stand the process and rejected it. He had to stop during the second hour where he should uundergo a process of 4 hours.

I am glad that he is not going to suffer the pain anymore. I could not stand to see him in pain. InsyaAllah, I will donate my blood as long as I can. And every time I donate my blood, I will remember my atok so that I can realize where I am and where should I stand. Tok, you will always be in my heart. I pray that Tok and Opah will be seeing each other and be placed amongst the solehin. Al-Fatihah. Amin.

p.s: my grandpa has just passed away on 7th June 2011, almost 2 months after my grandma passed away, 12th April 2011. Tok and Opah died on the same day which is Tuesday and almost at the same time 6.50ish in the morning. They are destined to be together until the end of their lives. (sehati sejiwa, sehidup semati)

p.p.s: 52 is my Opah (73years old) and 55 is my Otak (75 years old). side by side!

perasaan macam terharu..

2011-06-15T09:39:00.000+08:00

bile students bgtau yang dia dok tunggu nak jumpe kite. siap tunggu kat kereta sebab itu sure tempat yang kite akan tuju. cuma nya jodoh itu belum ada atas sebab-sebab aral yang melintang. waktu dorang tunggu pun adalah waktu kelas yakni maknanya waktu sedang mengajar. pukul 5 petang.

Aww! sangat la terharu bile students yang kita dah tak ajar ada inisiatif nak jumpa. oh! ye 5 ptang pon masih berada dalam kelas kan? sebab sem ini jadual sangat padat. malam pon ada kelas ganti lagi. hahaha.

BERUSAHA!!!

happy

2011-06-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah. I am beyond happy for my students. How i miss them so much! Though the semester has just started, I do not have the same feeling as I had in previous semesters. Changing is not my cup of tea. By the way, I am happy because most of my students manage to get Band 4 for their MUET. Alhamdulillah. They did a great job, they put extra effort and He pays real good for them. When the students thanked me, I feel happy that at least I have contributed something for them, one small little thing. Though I know I was only facilitating them and be there when they needed me. After all, everything was not under my control. They believe in it, they work hard on it and they get what they want. I hope they can continue their degree in Law. My prayers will always be with all of you. i miss you all. =)

Hari tua

2011-05-21T00:42:00.002+08:00

Takotnya kalau mati dihujung usia bilamana tiada siapa disisi. Anak tak mahu cucu cicit pun tak mahu. Walhal mase kecik2 dulu siapa yang jaga kite? Siapa yang belai dan bela? Kalau tak pernah merasa kasih sayang mereka pun, cube fikir yang mereka itu darah daging kite juge. Asal keturunan kite. Yang menjadi punca kelahiran kite. Mari bayangkan pula kita dihari tua nanti jika semuanya dibalas. Hidup kita ni ibarat roda kan?

lesson learnt

2011-05-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

It makes me think, hardly and deeply and thoroughly. And the thought makes me learn something that I just could not care before. I learnt that I should not depending on others anymore. I have to be such an independent woman. Even though all these while I thought that I am independent enough but boy I was wrong! There are certain points in my life that I have been relying on others so much. So, this is the time I need to wake up and stand on my own feet! Now, I know that when you put your belief and trust and love and hope wholeheartedly, it will just make your heart cut into pieces. The condition which hardly cured in a short while. I believe that I have only myself to love and trust and hope besides Him and family, obviously. Because I know that I have nobody other than the Merciful and my beloved family!

p.s: Oh! I am looking forward and very excited to be home. Ipoh, please be nice to me and wait for my homecoming!!!

p.s.s: Happy Mother's Day to my beloved Emak, aunties and all mothers out there. It would be good if Opah is still around. May you rest in peace!

2011-05-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

“Boleh jadi, kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah yang paling mengetahui, sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui.” (QS. Al-Baqarah:216)

Makanan Pagi

2011-04-20T09:36:00.001+08:00

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a, daripada Nabi s.a.w, baginda telah bersabda : “Barangsiapa yang meringankan salah satu daripada kesusahan seorang mukmin di dunia, maka Allah meringankan salah satu daripada kesusahannya di hari kiamat. Barangsiapa yang memudahkan (membantu dalam masalah hutang) orang yang mendapat kesusahan (berhutang), maka Allah akan memudahkan baginya di dunia dan di akhirat. Allah menolong seorang hamba selagi hamba itu menolong saudaranya. Barangsiapa yang menempoh jalan untuk mencari ilmu, Allah akan memudahkan baginya satu jalan ke syurga. Tidaklah satu kaum berkumpul di satu rumah (masjid) dari rumah-rumah Allah, mereka membaca Al-Quran dan mempelajarinya bersama-sama, kecuali ketenangan akan turun kepada mereka, rahmat akan meliputi mereka dan maklaikat mengelilingi mereka dan Allah memuji mereka di hadapan para maklaikat-Nya. Barangsiapa yang amal solehnya sedikit, maka nasabnya (keturunannya) tidak boleh mengangkat darjatnya.”

[Hadis riwayat Imam Muslim]

p.s terkenangkan kebaikan kawan-kawan yang sentiasa ada di saat-saat memerlukan. Semoga kalian akan sentiasa dirahmati. =)

Al-fatihah

2011-04-13T10:30:00.001+08:00

Dalam hidup ni, kita cuma diraikan untuk 3 perkara iaitu kelahiran, perkahwinan dan kematian. I have lost the most beloved grandma yesterday. The one who took care of me during my childhood, the one that once i mistook as my mother when i was a little kid. The one who love me unconditionally. The one that will always excited when lots of people come to see her. The one who misses her children and grandchildren dearly. The one who will always welcome us with open arm and open heart. The one who will hug us and cry when we are leaving. The one who work real hard in taking care of her sick husband. The one who will be worried about the husband though she was in real pain. She's the one. The one that I will always love wholeheartedly.

Dear Opah, may you rest in peace and be amongst the solehin. May the peace, blessings and mercy of Allah be upon you Opah sayang. Indeed, from Allah we come, and to Him we return. Stay strong, Allah is with you.

p.s: Opah, this is so sudden. Unexpected! One thing you should know is I love you so much! will always be.

p.s.s: Al-fatihah.


Siti Halijah binti Puteh Mariam (12 April 2011)

Pain is gain?

2011-03-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Beauty is pain.

But I will not put myself in pain just to be beautiful and at the same time deteriorating my health.

Because I believe health is wealth.

Please don't take my sunshine away

2011-03-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy,

When skies are gray.

You'll never know dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

I have posted this lyric before. It was in June 2010. But today, once again I feel like posting the lyric again and again. I specially dedicate this song to my sunshine of my heart. Thank you for the time and thank you for being there.

Please don't take my sunshine away!

p.s. Nanti I belanja you okey!

"Allah beri kita beluncas untuk kita dapat rama-rama yang cantik"

2011-03-14T01:17:00.001+08:00

Haven't posted anything for quite some time. It kills me as I have lotsa things to burst out. Misery. Happiness. Depression. Excitement. Boredom. What else? I have all those complete wholesome! It's life we are talking about where everything is not fair for certain people but fair for others. Again, it's life that worth living!

I think I want to share something here about Tsunami in Japan. Exactly a day before it happened, my friends and I have witnessed one of the signs of it coming. Honestly if you asked me to think again about the coordinate or location which could not make sense, I do not have the answer. I do not know. Period. But, if you believe in His capability to do anything, kun faya kun, anything could be happened. That day, on the way to Penang which we used the Penang Bridge, we can see something different with the sea. It was not like usual. It was different. The sea water level was very high. There were lots of water waves. And the sky was creepy dark! To add some more, on the way back Kedah, it was raining cats and dogs that we had to drive slowly and carefully. Alhamdulillah we survived!

And, the next day i was shockingly shock to hear the news! MashaAllah, He gives us signs from time to time but we tend to ignore. We always consider it's nothing. But things happen for reasons aite? As for me and my friends, we are very lucky to think again that we are given the opportunities to witness one of the signs. It is very sad to watch the videos/clips about the Tsunami in Japan. Remind me back to those victims in Acheh years ago. Poor them to suffer this! Let's lend our hand by praying for their safety. May Allah bless us all.

On another note, I am very grateful to be given a bundle of lovely friends that I could not asked for more. Each and every of them has their own specialties that makes them so special. I love you all to bits! muah muah! But, this time I want to thank my loyal dear punching bag! Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for not letting me go.Thank you for believe in me. Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for talking to me. Thank you for lending me your hands. Thank you for being the best best friend. Thank you for the love. Thank you for the comfort words. Thank you for the support. Thank you for having such an annoying friend like me. Thank you for your willingness to be troubled by me, always! Thank you for everything! I have nothing to offer in return except that I will always pray for your happiness, success and safety. May Allah bless you my dear. I love you so much that I do not know what to do if you are not around. You must be shocked to hear me crying my heart out, sorry! Sorry! I was at my weakest point. But, insyaAllah I will get back on track soon. Believe me!

For the rest of the loveliest friends, worry not! My love towards you have not leveled down even a bit. I still love you more and more. May Allah bless us all. I am lucky to have each of you in my life. Alhamdulillah!

p.s. I will post lost of things that wandering in my mind later. Please bear with me.muahaha!

p.p.s. "Banyak nangis ni nanti mata bengkak nak jumpa students esok macam mane" (Punching Bag, 2011). Thank you for the concern. You made me laugh!

p.p.p.s. Punching Bag, it will be just another two years to complete things that I have started. Later on, I can go there to be near with you as you wish. BUT then, at that time, you could have been away from me to start your new life. It's okay my dear, it's life we are talking about. The life worth living for! =)

Hey Kacak

2011-02-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

I love this song so much. Somehow it reminds me the magic of a smile can do. Smile can change lots of things in lots of ways. By having a nice smile, sincerely of course, it will spread love towards others. And, it will not cost you any cents or harm you at all.

Kacak luar

Kacak dalam

Kacak dengar sini

Kalau saya senyum

Awak mesti senyum sekali

Kalau kita senyum

Semua orang berjangkit

Bila semua orang senyum

Dunia tiada penyakit

So my dear friend, I am not happy with your current condition. I am praying that you will be back and gain your own self. Don't think too much dear. Ingat, I will always be there for you. Ups and downs. Happy or sad. Anytime and Anywhere.

Senyum okay!

akal dan hati.

2011-02-21T22:50:00.001+08:00

Dua entiti yang sering bertelagah sesama sendiri. Hati berkeinginan tapi Akal menafikan. Seringkali Akal dan Hati tewas dalam perlawanan yang diciptakan oleh mereka sendiri. Ada masa Hati akan bersorak kemenangan dan Akal akan tewas penuh hormat. Namun ada masa pula Hati jatuh tersungkur dan Akal menghulurkan salam pertolongan. Dua entiti ini saling akrab dan tidak pernah meninggalkan satu dan yang lain.

Cuma manusia ini mudah lupa. Pengalaman yang harusnya dijadikan sempadan terus ditinggalkan tak dipeduli. Jenuh Akal mengingatkan, jenuh pula Hati memujuk. Namun semua itu ditutup tidak dipandang. Lantas kesakitan menerjah semula. Kalau ikut hati, mati kata Akal. Tapi Hati tak pernah mahu beralah.

Lantas merana lah diri menerima kesakitan demi kesakitan yang tidak pernah jemu datang bertandang. Kalau boleh dilihat dengan mata kasar, pasti sudah banyak lubang-lubang dan compang camping si Hati menanggung dan menyimpan rasa.

Pernah kehilangan 2 figura penting dan akan kehilangan figura penting sekali lagi. berat sungguh rasa.

It will never be too late

2011-02-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there are things better left unsaid or undone as most of us rather think that it is not important to bother at all. But, have you ever thought that that thing should be best said or done despite of its drawbacks. How would you know that the thing you have been keeping all these while will give some big impacts on others' life? Even if it is only one tiny little thing but it maybe one big important thing to others.

Most of us take things for granted. I am one of them. I tend to forget small things or for me I think it is not important to look at. But, due to that attitude, I lost many many good things before. I have lost people, materials, memories and what not. And, today as I turn back and look for it, I now realize that it is no use at all as those things are not here anymore. I might cry my heart out, I might shout the whole universe, I might search high and low but for sure I will not able to find all those things back. There are gone!

You may find new people. You may find new materials. You may find new memories. And, you may find new interest but I bet it would not be the same to compare with previous one. The taste, the smell and the shape will be totally different. Nevertheless, despite of the differences, please appreciate it. Please be more responsible. Please take care of it and do not let it go just like what you have done before. Or else, you will regret it later, again and again.

Don't give up on God because He won't give up on you. So, please don't give up!

i love my kids

2011-02-20T16:57:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I will be surprised how cheeky the kids could be and at the other times I will be touched on how wonderful the kids are. There are times I have to shout out loud so that they can listen and pay attention which leads me to get sore throat or suffer from a fever. But, there are times where the students are all being nice, listen and participate in the activities. They are wonderful in their own ways as we cannot expect them to be all good all the times. For sure they are also facing with their own issues which will become one of the contributing factors to their behaviours. As for me, I will always bear in mind that they are just kids. And, they will always be kids.

Yeah, I will be lying if I said I do not get mad at them. Sometimes I feel like giving up, frustrated, tired, mad, bored, burdened, distracted, inferior and the list goes on. Seriously they are energy sucker. They are able to drain you out. But I guess, over time and as time passing by, you will get into the situation. You are able to be on track. You have to bear in mind that the kids need you though they behave like they know every single thing in this world or maybe they seem to know and do not need to have guidance anymore. No, they are NOT! Indeed, they need you to show them the right path, to lead them in searching their soul, to facilitate them in molding their life and to love them the way they deserved to get.

I am no one. I am not good either. I have so little experiences to compare with other seniors. But, I do enjoy doing this and that. Experiment this and that. Try this and that. The kids may not like me. They may hate me. They may compare me with others. They may evaluate me and perceive me negatively. But, I do not mind as I am in the process of learning and learning should be fun as well as life-long process. I will always seek for guidance and chanting this phrase so that I will not give up - I Love the Kids!!!

Here is one of the reasons why I love them:

There are many good things that I have learnt in the course. Especially on motivational sides as Miss Hanna always motivate us to be a good student, person and human beings. The way she taught us has made us inspired to go to the highest limit to reach for success. Definitely my listening, reading, writing and reading skills have improved. Through this course, I am getting more confident with myself. I can listen in the right way, read, and understand things easily, write confidently and my skills are getting better. My grammar also increasing to reach the good standard. Thanks to this course. The most difficult component in the course is grammar. But I can overcome it with more practices provided. All in all I love this course and I hope the lecturer can be as good as my lecturer, Miss Hanna.

(extracted exactly from the kid's reflections)

So now, please tell me why would I not love them. They are just adorable and sweet. I am touched! Thank you my dear. You have just made my day. Lots of love.

at the end of the day, everything would be just fine. just fine.

2011-02-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

“The easiest way to not get hurt is to not care. But that’s the hardest thing to do…”

I thought I can bear the pain. But, then again, I fall down on the ground. The lowest ground. Again and again. I thought that I am strong. But, again and again I am not. I thought I will be the happiest person on earth, but I will be lying to myself if I say that I do not get hurt even a bit out of it.

But, worry not, I know what should I do. I know my limit. I will be smiling and try to understand so that you can be happy. By then, hopefully I can get back my happiness. By the way, indeed, I am happy at the moment.

“Berkasih sayang kerana Allah, benci membenci juga kerana Allah.

My best friend's wedding

2011-02-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

I just watched this movie on TV3. It was hilarious and touched me here and there. I was like in the storyline where I can feel it despite the evilness part, obviously. hehe. Somehow, I keep on asking myself am I able to be that way or am I going to be the devil wears prada?? And, of course I want everything would be just nice and stay the same despite of any changes or anything that could be happened. Huhu.

p.s: I thank Allah for giving me the best people to live with and to endure the pain, challenges, upside down and happiness.

Sabar

2011-02-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

Quoted and paraphrased from an Ustazah which happen to be one of the colleagues.

"It is not easy to find good man these days. If he shows good attitude and if he is being nice and good to you all these while, why would you give up. Spare a little time more. Be patient. Solat. Pray and ask for guidance. Pray. Pray. And pray. It is just about time. Maybe he is searching and questioning about the same thing about you as well. Believe in Allah. If he is meant for you, he will be yours. Sabar sikit ye."

Huhu. it touches my heart. When I almost giving up, when I almost at the edge of losing my hope, when I almost stop believing, someone says such good words. At least it makes me to stay put. At least I know that it is nothing wrong to dream and hope for the best. And, at least I know that there are people who believe in me, who believe in fate. Thank You!

Rindu.

2011-02-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

Merindui makcik diatas.

Dah lama xborak2 properly.

Over a cup of coffee.

Rindu you.

Dah lama tak menyusahkan big bro diatas.

Lama tak bersua muka.

i miss you.

It has been a while since duduk rumah MR.PANG together2.

Makcik-makcik mengubat luka lara.

i miss each and every of you, including you napisah.

This makcik kepohchi.

kuat bebels tak hingat.

i miss you too.

Dan, sebenarnya..ahaha da macam lagu yuna la pulak..em, sebenarnya rindu ramai lagi tapi takde gambar. ni pun tumpang pc orang lain, maka korek gambar dari koleksi blog ni je. But I know, you know who you are and wherenever you are.

I Miss You.

Take Care!

Mencintai tidak semestinya untuk memliki

2011-02-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

As cliche it is, but it is soo true. Sometimes, even though we have tried our best, the love is not meant for us. Please do not give up! There's plenty of more happiness out there waiting for us to treasure. And, at the same time, let's pray for the love ones' happiness. To see them smiling happily will be the utmost satisfaction though the love is not for us. Things happen for a reason. Be grateful!

source

p.s: Yes, I lied to you. Because I still love you.

I have BIG dreams!!!

2011-02-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

I have neglected the blog for quite some time. It feels bad, you know! It is like you are abandoning something that is a part of you and you are aware of it. I can give reasons or maybe excuses but some people may not believe it. So, I think why bother to mention all the reasons or excuses here. And most of all, is there anyone care about the blog's existence! Hehe.

Today, I feel like blogging and that's it! Here, I am backkk!!

I have dreams. We do have dreams! But I dream BIG!!! It is so big that sometimes I could not stand the pressure myself as there are lots of things to be done in order to achieve my BIG dreams. I have been thinking about it again and again until I finally told my friends about my worry. Alhamdulillah, I am glad that I let it out. At least, I have full support and they are now able to see my dreams. Hopefully I can achieve my dreams soon!

I am working on it at the moment. Let's pray I can sail it smoothly. I will be very happy if one day I can write about my journey going to the top! Well, I feel like telling my dreams here but I am shy shy cat! hehe. Maybe later I will post an entry about my BIG dreams and as for the time being I will keep it to myself.

I wish you all the best as well! Berusaha! Berusaha!

Merepek Meraban

2011-02-04T14:09:00.001+08:00

runsing betol. I just do not know how to handle this thing well. If you were in my shoes, I doubt you can managed it too. Supposedly, I will have to follow and listen. Please do not make me rebel or raise up my voice. I do not want to be rude. Please hear me. It is killing me.

I do not have the world to offer. I do no have all the time to spend. I only have a little time that I need to use it wisely. There are lots of things to be done. I do want to enjoy my stay here. So, please compromise.

Oh! I hate this!!! I just could not stand!!!

Antara Cinta dan Cita-cita

2011-02-03T14:49:00.000+08:00

I been watching this program show on Astro "Serasi Bersama". Sebenarnya episod kali ni adalah ulangan. Astro kan. Tapi kan, pasangan Doktor Azmi and isteri Professor Muaya ni sangat suhweet la! Antara cinta dan cita-cita, both of them kejar sama-sama. Takdelah neglect either one. For them, both are equally important.

During their younger days, when Professor got offered to further her study in Kaherah, Dr. Azmi cried because he had to wait for 7 years. Oleh kerana itu, Professor pon tak sampai hati nak tinggalkan Dr. Azmi. Suhweet kan? And, they have been happily married for 30 years uolsss!!!!

Impressive kan?? Macam mane the couple managed to get both cinta and cita-cita. Dorang bahagia dengan cinta yang dorang ada dan jugak berjaya dengan cita-cita.

What about us? What about you? Antara Cinta dan Cita-cita, mana pilihan anda?? Both or either one?? Let's think!!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2011-02-02T22:45:00.001+08:00

source

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Have a prosperous year ahead!!

* I just reached Ipoh. Continue back with my medication. Thus, I am sleepy head at the moment. Will update later, InsyaAllah. And, please pray for everyone's safety!!!

Have a good day and Take Care!!!

[Terkini] Krisis Di Mesir Keadaan Sebenar Pelajar Malaysia dan Mangsa Banjir@NajibRazak

2011-02-01T14:52:00.007+08:00

Mari kita sama-sama mendoakan keselamatan dan kesejahteraan saudara-saudara kita di Mesir. Keadaan semakin genting bilamana pelajar-pelajar Malaysia terpaksa bersembunyi di dalam rumah yang kecil seramai 30-40 orang. Ada yang kebuluran kerana makanan terpaksa dicatu(BAYANGKAN 48JAM TANPA MAKANAN), air pun dicatu. Talian terakhir internet terputus. Dan, hari ini akan menyaksikan perhimpunan berjuta-juta orang di Kaherah bagi meningkatkan gesaan tuntutan perletakan jawatan Presiden Hosni Mubarak.(sumber Utusan Online)

Ini di ambil dari blog.ariff bertarikh 31 Januari 2011. Mari sama-sama kita panjangkan info ini.

Salam Ariff, saya Nadia, a student in Egypt.
Ariff, kini saya berada di Malaysia kerana pulang untuk winter break, but when I got home, the condition in Egypt somehow got worse about the Hosni Mubarak thingy. Ramai yang sangka keadaan kat sana adalah okay, mengikut kata Jabatan Penuntut Kaherah Mesir dan Kedutaan Malaysia di sana, but there are parts that they don’t know:
Di tempat saya Mansoura, people got killed on the streets, houses are getting robbed and they are aiming to attack Malaysian students. There are about 6000 prisoners on the streets! Pelajar kita di Alexandria dirogol, airport dibakar dan anggota polis tidak lagi menjalankan tugas mereka.
Kita memohon supaya kerajaan Malaysia memandang serius hal ini. Bukan sahaja di Mansoura, malah di seluruh Mesir keselamatan rakyat kita terancam.
Segala update berkenaan keadaan di sana boleh dibaca melalui blog Krisis Mesir, Nasib Pelajar Kita
Jika ada cadangan di luar sana untuk membantu kami mendapatkan perhatian kerajaan Malaysia, sila hubungi Nurul Nadia Binti Md Zin di 017-3193923
Atau melalui:
Facebook: Nuvul Nadiva Dizavch
Twitter: DyyaDizarch
Blog: Nadia-ism
YM: nadia_mdzin2001@yahoo.com
Please let all Malaysians know about this. I will do the same but I need your help too especially to all the bloggers out there. May Allah save our citizens there.
- Nadia

So what can you do now?

Kalau ada Twitter, retweet this. Aku sengaja mention @NajibRazak dalam tajuk entri supaya everytime orang retweet, akan automatically mention nama dia. Click the retweet button. Lagi banyak, lagi bagus. It show’s that things are really serious there and we care.
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BANJIR! BANJIR!

Bak kata pepatah gajah di seberang kita nampak tapi kuman depan mata tak kelihatan. Eh! Betol ke ni? Bukan apa, kita juga harus ingat pada mereka menjadi mangsa banjir di negara kita ni. Nanti terlalu fokus pada yang diluar, tapi yang disini dipinggirkan. Biarlah balance, sama rata, adil dan saksama.

Menurut sumber Berita Harian Online, sehingga jam 10m pagi tadi, terdapat seramai 45, 145 mangsa banjir daripada 11, 104 keluarga di 267 pusat pemindahan di seluruh Johor lapor Portal rasmi kerajaan negeri Johor. Setakat ini, sudah ada 3 nyawa yang diragut oleh banjir. 2 di Johor dan 1 di Melaka. Di Negeri Sembilan, seramai 4198 penduduk dipindahkan. Di Pahang seramai 690 dan di Melaka seramai 2014 mangsa banjir dipindahkan ke pusat pemindahan sementara. Sabah dan Sarawak juga mengalami nasib yang sama. (sumber Utusan Online)

Mari kita sama-sama doakan kesejahteraan dan keselamatan semua.

Al-Fatihah.

im enjoying every bits of my life

2011-01-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

There will be ups and downs in life, that's for sure. It is somehow spices up our life. We learn things not only in school but education is a life long process. Those experiences that we have been through since kids up until today are priceless. Nothing could be compared and no amount can be paid.

We live our life not only for the sake of ourselves but for others and the rest of living things. Our actions will give impacts for them as well. If we made mistakes, people will blame us but let them know that we live our life by making mistakes so that we can learn to improve to be better man.

We may hate others, blame others but at the same time we may love and care about others. I was angry at this one particular person, but after thoroughly think, argue, debate about it, I believe that there is no point to do so. Why can I just forgive and forget. People make mistakes. That person may not have the intention to do this or that, or maybe it is in his or her blood. Maybe I am the one who is over sensitive, so why bother to put my heart in pain. Thus, I have decided, to ask for apology and to lead my life happily. I do not want to think about works, office or assignments yet. But I am trying to relate those works, office and assignments with stress-free condition, please help me beautiful peoplleeee!!!!

No pain, No gain!

p.s: I still have to work until Wednesday. No cuti-cuti for me...uhuks!

Barbican Beer

2011-01-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

picture taken from here

Anyone up for a drink? Beer maybe? Oh! I mean Barbican Beer..

Okay, first of all, I don't drink and drive. Wait! wait! I DO NOT drink at all, obviously. It is forbidden in the religion. So, what's up with the Barbican Beer???

Well, according to Mr.Google, Barbican Beer is non-alcoholic drink. Which means, there is no alcohol in it and when there's no alcohol, you can drink it as much as you want. It is made from Malt. Okay, now maybe some of you wondering what is malt? Malt is grain, usually barley that has been allowed to sprout, used chiefly in brewing and distilling. (taken from answer.com).

However, there are arguments that Barbican Beer contains alcohol. It is somewhere along the process, the concentrate used contains alcohol. So according to Islam, when there's alcohol, we are not allowed to drink. But, there is also opinion stated that alcohol below 0.5% can be accepted and not categorized as haram. The alcoholic strength of beer on the other hand is usually 4% to 6% alcohol by volume (ABV), but is may ne less than 1% or more than 20%, and at least as high as 55%. (taken from wikipedia.org)

Barbican Beer can be spotted everywhere in Malaysia as it is non-alcoholic drink and anyone can buy and drink. So now, what say you?? Okay, before you made up your mind please read this "Arguments on the Halal Haram of Soft Drinks and Alcoholic Drink ( Barbican Beer) by The Mujlisul Ulama of South Africa" and " Bukan Semua Alkohol Haram (Utusan Online)"

As for me, I don't prefer to drink. Thank you.

Maybe we can ask Ustaz Love to answer regarding this matter. =)

picture taken from here

Berperang

2011-01-30T10:35:00.001+08:00

Luka-luka dan penuh darah.
Bukan senang mahu menang.
Payah sungguh mempertahankan.
Letih berlari mahu bertatih.
Mengalir-ngalir airmata terasa di hati.
Ini perang bukan sebarang perang.
Tempur dengan bukan sebarang musuh.
Medan perang di dasar hati.
Bersenjatakan akal dan jiwa sebati.
Kalau menang tiada trofi.
Kalah pun tidak menjamin erti.
Sekali termasuk, selamanya derita.
Pandai buat, pandai tanggung.

p.s: sedang berbolak-balik, mencari erti, berlawan rasa, mengerti logik!

kecik hati

2011-01-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

em. em. em. kecik ati with no reasons. ahaha ada reason sebenarnya. tak baik kan nak kecik-kecik hati ni. nanti hati rosak sebab banyak sangat membebankan hati. bukan aku nak menuntut hak lagipun aku takde hak pun nak dituntut ke hape ke. cume at least treat me well, the way I deserved to be treated, tu pun susah sangat ke? berat sangat ke nak buat. kalau aku boleh buat, kenapa orang lain tak boleh buat. FINE! nanti mesti ada yang kata kita buat sesuatu bukan sebab harapkan balasan atau orang lain buat yang sama macam mana kita buat. tak ikhlas la bla bla bla..what ever!

the point is, i am frustrated. over small and silly thing. but it means a lot!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

tolong jangan bagi jawapan yang kurang pandai

2011-01-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

kalau kau jenis on off pakai tudung, lantak kau lah. kau punya suka. kau tau mana baik buruk bak kata kau. tapi tolong la jangan bagi kenyataan yang memalukan kau balik. paham tak?

kalau kau seorang public figure, lagilah kau kene jaga kata-kata. jangan biar orang nilai kau kurang pandai. kalau kau bukak tudung sebab watak, dan kau bukan diri kau dalam cerita itu. tapi hanya komitmen watak. perlu kah buat statement?

"saya tak boleh nak shut up dorang punya mouth?"

macam-macam.

Slang

2011-01-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

it is not a dialect. it is new informal terms used and accepted by the society. it can be used in speaking as well as writing.

Brunch = breakfast + lunch

Smog = smoke + fog

Grool = great + cool

LOL = laughing out loud / laugh out loud

ROFL = rolling on the floor laughing

TQVM = thank you very much

jk = just kidding

imy = i miss you

ily = i love you

poyo = self boasting

blurr = ignorance / being ignorant of something

sengal = stupid / silly

hanjing = disgust / dislike

fuyoh! = outstanding

and there are lots more. go google if you wanna more.

today is better than yesterday

2011-01-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah. I wish to have peace of mind and soul yesterday, and today Allah grants me with calm and peaceful mind. It makes me believe that when we put effort or in my case extra effort, InsyaAllah the outcome will be a blast.

Dear kids, can you please behave just like today. I will be extremely thankful for it. Let's enjoy the limited time that we have and hope for the best for your future undertakings.

"Miss, thank you for the ilmu"
"Assalamualaikum Miss"

There's big smile from ear to ear on my face =))

Sakit Hati

2011-01-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

Makin lama kesihatan jantung boleh jadi semakin kritikal. Semakin lama simpan rasa, semakin sakit di dada. Sabar ye hati, sabar. Pelik bila tengok perangai anak-anak remaja masa kini. Mereka bakal pemimpin masa depan. Tapi inikah perangai selayaknya pemimpin? Di mana hormat? Di mana bahasa? Di mana susila? Apa sudah tiada bezakah antara kita? Bukan status yang aku minta atau tagih simpati cukup hanya sekadar hormat menghormati.

Kalau ini sikap anda, jangan pelik bila nanti ada orang bersikap begitu dengan anda semula. Setiap kali berjumpa, setiap kali juga aku tahan rasa, tahan derita, tahan kata dan tahan telinga. Sabar duhai hati!!

Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan iman, tingkatkan kesabaran, dan ketabahan hati =))

sedia membantu

2011-01-25T02:13:00.000+08:00

Kalau penat, segar jadinya.

Kalau ngantuk, mata ditahan.

Kalau sibuk, luangkan masa.

Kalau tak sihat, makan ubat sihatkan.

Kalau clueless, buat-buat tahu.

Kalau malas, rajinkan diri.

Memang akan sentiasa ada dan sedia membantu.

Haish! kau yang pilih kau tanggunglah akibatnya.

Demi kau.

p.s: Aku rajin pun sebab kau jugak!

Oh! my Broadband

2011-01-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

I am frustrated of the current connection, I mean my internet connection. It is such an annoyance! When you pay like a lot of money on it but the product is not satisfying at all. Yes, I am using the BLUE broadband which I have to pay more or less RM104/month. Imagine I have to spend HUNDRED ringgit per month but I just can use it best at night-early morning around 1AM-5AM. <---- this is my sleeping time, I need my beauty sleep!!!

I am working uolss, and studying at the same time. I have tons of works to do and lots of researches to be read, thus I need good network connection so that I can go through the websites/information without any hassles. Seriously I do understand the situation. I know the population here consists of students and most of them are using the same BLUE broadband. I understand the situation where most of us are using the internet at the same time and using the same connection. And, this is the reason behind all of the inconveniences.

BUT, dear network provider, if you have noticed the increasing number of users in this remote area, could you please do something for us. It is for your own benefits as well. You see, it's win-win situation here. Or, do you want us to terminate and change to the other network? I heard they are promoting theirs at the moment. I am desperately in need of good internet connection. I need to do my work as well as to get in touch with dear friends (oh blogging is included as well..hehe)

It's getting worst y'all!!!!

A Gentle Reminder

2011-01-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

selalu kan bila kita da buat sesuatu and nak patah balik sangat payah. walau sudah janji pada diri sendiri juga pada orang lain, kebarangkalia untuk berulang sangat tinggi. mungkin solusinya tak perlu hebah2 kot. nanti orang kata cakap tak serupa bikin. =))

p.s: takut kene makan dek kata-kata sendiri.huhu

GATAL

2011-01-22T19:05:00.001+08:00

oh! oh! tidak!!! kenapa lately ni mata gatal-gatal? tapi tak merah pon. pastu mesti air mata mengalir-ngalir especially mata belah kiri. sedih sangat ke aku? atau sadis sangat kah kehidupan aku??

ouh!! stresss!

those days with my beloved friends

2011-01-22T15:01:00.000+08:00

I flipped through my photos during my teenage years. it sounds like I am too old la pulak. but the fact is I am still young lady but not gaga-ing for sure. The photos were taken during my uni years. Being melancholy as always, that's me..haha.

Well, I miss those days. I miss the friends. I miss the house mates. I miss the best friends. I miss the cat fights that we had. I miss the arguments. I miss the karaoke-ing. I miss the jalan-jalan cuci mata. I miss the makan-makan. I miss studying late at night. I miss studying at fast food restaurants. I miss jalan kaki together. I miss the jalan2-to-go-to-pasar malam. I miss the part kene tahan dengan polis. I miss those sharing is caring moment where we talked and shared stories like there's no tomorrow. I miss sharing foods together. I miss surprising them on their birthday. I miss watching movies with them. I miss organizing/going or anything related to programs/seminar with them. I miss stalking people together. I miss lepak2 at kedai makan.....and the list goes on.....but most of all, I miss being near to them and I miss those moments wholeheartedly.

I feel like putting those photos in this entry but I know that it would not be enough. There are lots of them which I couldn't able to pick the best as all of them are the best photos. I have few friends and my circle of friends are limited but I am glad that up until today, my circle of friends consists of those people who can lead me to the right path of life. I might went to the wrong side during my younger days but He loves me I think that He leads me to my beautiful companions I have at the moment. Alhamdullillah and Thank You Allah.

Each of you has your own impacts towards my life and I am grateful to be given the opportunity to be one of your friends. I just want you to know that whatever it is, you'll be my best friends forever.

"kawan ketawa senang nak tukar ganti tapi kawan menangis yang ada saat susah dan senang sukar dicari dan ganti" --- my reminder to myself.

Thank you my dear!

Thank you dear.

2011-01-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

Bila hati tidak tenang dan merindu, dia pon tiba dengan gelak tawa. sungguh telepati.

he has just made my day.

mode: Bercinta by Faizal Tahir.

lelaki tidak tahu tanggungjawab?

2011-01-20T09:57:00.001+08:00

Betul ke? atau ianya cuma tuduhan semata-mata. Bukan semua lelaki tidak bertanggungjawab, itu kita perlu faham dan semat dalam minda.Cuma bak kata pepatah kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga. Kerana segelintir mereka, habis satu kaum orang perkatakan. Lelaki sepatutnya seorang yang memimpin, seorang yang mendidik dan membentuk sesebuah keluarga. Maka kalau pincang ketuanya, bergoyahlah sesebuah institusi.

Cuba kita lihat sekelililing, ada lelaki yang meletakkan sepenuhnya tanggungjawab di pundak sang isteri. Si isteri lah yang bekerja, si isteri juga yang membayar segala bil utiliti seperti air, elektrik, telefon, sekolah anak-anak, internet dan kalau ada astro pon isteri jugak yang bayarkan. Si isteri yang bekerja jugalah yang menguruskan rumah tangga. Makan pakai anak, sekolah agama dan sekolah kebangsaan. Habis, di mana kedudukan sang suami? goyang kaki dan menyalahkan takdir?

Ada juga lelaki yang tak tahu nak cari duit dan mengharapkan dari orang lain. Kalau kita berada di satu tahap, kita kene tahu di mana kemampuan kita. Bezakan antara kemahuan dan kehendak. Bukan semberono membeli dan memiliki segala yang dimahukan. Kemudian, bila sudah kekeringan mulalah meminta dari ibu bapa atau kawan-kawan. Sampai bila mahu begitu? Lagi parah kalau sudah berkahwin dimana tugas dan segala tanggungjawab harus dipikul sendiri. Di mana integriti anda kalau anda masih meminta jasa ibu bapa untuk menampung kehidupan? Sepatutnya inilah masa anda membahagiakan mereka. Anda sedarkah?

Bila keadaan meruncing, mula lah mencari sesiapa untuk dipinjam wang. Anda sedarkah bahawa anda perlu bangkit dan tunjukan kejantanan anda dengan kemampuan sendiri dan bukan hanya berpaut dan bergantung sahaja.

Kalau pun anda mampu dari segi kewangan, ada pula yang tidak tahu tanggungjawab dalam segi lain. Bagi yang sudah berkahwin, jangan ingat anda boleh lepaskan segala tanggungjawab pada sang isteri. Bantu mereka, give and take. Ini tidak, semua kerja rumah isteri buat, isteri jugak kerja cari duit. Pandai bina masjid, pandai lah bertanggungjawab!

Kalau anda rasa entri ini bias sebab datang dari tulisan seorang perempuan, anda boleh cuba baca tulisan seorang lelaki berkenaan ini. Kemudian anda tepuk dada, tanya minda.

JADILAH ANAK JANTAN oleh Norden Mohamed.

Self Reward.

2011-01-19T12:11:00.002+08:00

Believe me if you love yourself please and please give reward. It is called as self reward. It will help you to perform better the next time around. The case is if you are forcing yourself too much in order to perform or completing a task. Self reward can be divided into two types. The first type is verbal reward. This type of reward need no money to spend on. What you have to do is just a little pat on your shoulder after you have completed your work. Praise yourself as well. For example, when you have finished doing your homework, you can just pat you shoulder and praise yourself "Good Job! or Well Done!".

The other type is concrete reward or I prefer to say it is more materialistic reward. Forgive me for the terms, I have to read more I guess in order to find the correct term. But this kind of reward is more or less you have to use money. As you have put a lot of efforts in completing your given task i.e: assignments, you can motivate yourself to do better next time by taking a break. What I mean by taking a break is you may need to rest for a while before you start doing another work. Maybe you are going to ask me, what's about money that I hav mentioned just now. Okay, money comes in when you are relaxing, for sure you will need it in order to do something else. Oh, by the way TIME IS MONEY! Ahaha. Actually, for me, I like to reward myself by buying something for myself. It will not necessarily to be expensive okay. Chocolate, ice-cream, or magazines are just enough to make me happy. And, I need a proper time-break. That's all.

According to Bob Fancher ( I do not know the year published but here the link, you can read up more) self reward is a powerful tool to motivate us. Self-rewards have at least three good effects: They relax us, give us confidence, and reinforce our good performance. If you reward yourself for good behavior, you calm down, feel good, and repeat the kind of behavior that earned you the self-reward.

So, please reward yourself by showing some love. Remember to love yourself first before you love others! Have a good day!!!

p.s: there are lots of researches, theories or approaches can be found on self reward. You may google up for those info for your own benefits!!!!

p.s.s: My friend and I ( Puan Napisah Jelita) have submitted our 1st draft of research proposal. Yeay!!! Alhamdulillah. So, we will be patiently waiting for the comments from the lecturer and work on second draft as well as the real paper.

Ulat Buku atau Book Worm

2011-01-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

To be honest, I have never been an ulat buku. I just enjoy reading but that also imply on certain genre of books. Maybe I can say that I am quite picky. Those days, I could read a lot of novels for instance Malay romance novel as well English novels. Up to this point I have been collecting a few novels be it in Malay or English. I was addicted to comic as well i.e Dragon Ball, Doraemon etc. But now, I am being choosy in selecting my reading materials. I can easily get bored when it comes to cliche story line. I can be very annoyed when it comes to those fantasy love or cheesy love storyline. There was a time when I want to buy novels but at the end of the day I did not buy any because I found out that the stories are unrealistic as I skimmed and scanned. I have grown up I guess. haha.

But, since forever I have problems to read academic writing. I will always have short attention span and will end up not reading the book entirely. It is either I do not read or I will ask my friends to read for me. Meaning say, I will wait for them to discuss on the topic. Or, if I ever managed to read, not all of the information could be remembered as I am bad in memorizing as well. I think I know the reason of being bad in memorizing is because I am lack of reading, is that true? Maybe I should do a research on that. hehe.

Okay, the point I have been rambling here is just that I am tired of reading. haha. I know I am being exaggerating but I just do not know how did the ulat buku can ever read a lot. Like A LOT! I here pronounced that I am super envy them. And, obviously I adore them. Can I give my standing ovation to those ulat buku out there?

p.s: By the way, I have lots of books, journals and articles to be read. Can you please read for me?? muahahahahahaha

Men and women can be best friend?

2011-01-17T00:17:00.001+08:00

Have I posted on this before? I could not remember but this topic had brought dissatisfaction amongst my students. We started the issue with simple questions. It was just a light discussion when I had started to provoke them on which stand they belong to. Do they believe there will be no lovey dovey between man and woman in a relationship? Case in point, between two best friend from different gender. Few of them believe that man and women can never be best friend and some others hold on their belief that man and woman can be best friend.

So, I divided them into four big groups where two groups proposing the motion and another two groups opposing the motion. The discussion was alive. They came out with lots of points and stands. Some of the points are taken from their psychology class and some of them came out with religious point of views. Later on, I involved them with open debating where they had to defend their points.

The kids really did their work. Though I can see some of them struggled to let out their points and even being attacked while delivering the points, but I am proud of them. The simple topic has lead to massive discussion. There were arguing with each other. We laughed out loud together. We respect each other. The kids kept on defending their point on man and woman can be best friend as long as they know their intention. They said that nothing will happen if both parties know their limit. They won't go overboard if they are aware of those limitations. However, the other sides pointing out that love comes naturally. We don't have any idea when will it comes and to whom it may occur. They also mentioned that as man and woman are completing each other, they might fall towards each other. The debate was going uber expectation where I have to stop them. We ended up the session by wrapping arguments from each groups. I think it was beautifully wrapped up as the last person mention on some hadith which I couldn't recall. However, that girl made some advices to the rest of the classmates to take care and be careful in making friends.

Well, I learnt a lot from them. I can see their level of thinking where they have been actually omitting some values on Islam. When they provoke things on religion, when they see nothing's wrong, when they believe on their young heart, when they behave like nobody to respect but I learn the most that kids will be kids. As someone who is more mature, I have to tolerate and consider that. Anyway, I had fun!

p.s: can we be best friend?

Mind-blowing process.

2011-01-14T22:03:00.001+08:00

It's been quite some time I haven't posted anything. The last entry was posted a few days ago. If I could put the blame, definitely it will be my hectic life. But that is not the option to do so. I should not blame anything or anyone except my self. Basically I have started my postgraduate study. It has been a month or so but I just attended the class recently due to my personal matters. What can I say about my study is that it is a mind-blowing process. Imagine, my first time attending the class, I had to do a presentation with my group mates. Alhamdulillah, it went well though we were super nervous. We thought that we screwed it up however a few of the classmates had this whoa-ed moment with us, and I guess it shows that we did it just fine. 1 down, lots to come. pfft!

I just do not know why but every time I went to the class or attended the meeting regarding my study I will end up having severe headache. Those lectures has been haunting me and ask me to think and think. Again, it's been a while for me and my friends in facing those assignments and presentations since our undergrads study. I have started to think this and that, here and there. It makes me want to puke and scream out loud. As for today, we went to the library, sat for a few hours and been discussing and reading on those things I am unfamiliar with or maybe those things are located somewhere in my brain that I have to re-located it back.
T-T

Well, somehow, I just wonder is this the right path that I am taking on or am I making the wrong decision? As for the time being, I am hoping and praying hard that I am able to cope with my roles in living the life to the fullest-a good servant, a daughter, a family member, a sister, a lecturer, a student, a good best friend, a friend, a colleague, an employer- A PERSON. May Allah bless us, all.

p.s: hope the best soon to come.

65 RIBU untuk setiap pemain dan jurulatih bola sepak PIALA SUZUKI AFF

2011-01-12T20:08:00.001+08:00

WHHHHOOOOAAAAA!!!

Kaya juga Malaysia hingga mampu memberi ribuan ringgit insentif untuk setiap pemain serta jurulatih Piala AFF lepas. Mereka akan mendapat, setiap seorang insentif:

1. RM 50 Ribu unit amanah saham dan perlu simpan selama sepuluh tahun sebelum boleh dikeluarkan
2. RM 10 Ribu tunai insentif dari kerajaan Malaysia
3. dan, RM 5 Ribu tunai
4. serta attachment di luar akan ditaja oleh kerajaan Malayisa sepenuhnya.

Memang OKB la uols!!! Orang Kaya Baru!!!!

sumber: BULETIN UTAMA TV3 12/01/11 8.05PM

p.s: tapi semua baranng naik harga????

clueless phase

2011-01-12T12:36:00.001+08:00

I am in a bit of clueless state. There is a saying that 'actions speak louder than words' and I somehow believe in that. We, people tend to show how and what we feel regarding something or someone by our actions. Sometime we tend to fake what we feel by saying those contradict statements which later on we will regret. Not to mention though we lie or not reveal the truth, others will be able to know the real thing from our own actions. For an instance, when we like someone and we deny our feelings to others. Unconsciously, we will be smiling or having a kind of happy face whenever we talk about that someone. Or, when we are talking to that person, without we realize it, we tend to slant our body to that person. On the other hand, if we do not have that special feeling towards them, we might not facing them while talking or we will have those stiff expression or body language.

All these while, I had enough of showing or having those body languages but still not enough or maybe they pretend not to know. Whichever they prefer, I do not know. When we get to know that the person we like so much do not know or never realize our presence, it hurts. But if we are able to get through this phase, worry not, we will be just all right! However, when we are trying our best not to put or have high hopes on them ( though you still have those hopes deep down your heart), it is confusing when they act the other way around. We will have the feelings of uncertainty and again it hurts. While we are trying so hard, they simply give us more and more hopes to look up. Especially when they make us feel special and needed. Or at least, we are the one who feel very special though they never meant to do so.

If I can ever asked you, I would like to ask what do you want from me? Are you testing me or are just fooling around with me? Why did you do this to me? Why did you make me feel so special and important in your life that later on you just laugh at me? What did you think of me? Is there any chances for me to be with you? Is there any empty spaces in your heart that I can fill in the spot? Do I deserve to be treated the way I should be? I do not have any idea of what you are trying to do. I am confuse, really am. After years of not doing so, suddenly you ask me to that thing again. Do you know that it reminds me of those days. The days that I treasure and hoping not to let them slipped away from my memory. However, I want you to really know that I really hope you are happy with your life and hopefully I will happy for you and for myself. It hurts. And, I am tired of this.

p.s: I know that I should be blamed for having all these feelings inside me. I am the one who feel important and special whereas you never feel so. I am sorry!

read more on body language here and here

Acoustic mood - Bila Cinta

2011-01-11T03:14:00.001+08:00

I love acoustic. So very much..hehe.. I think I can easily falling in love when it comes to acoustic version of songs. I had dreamt of playing guitar on my own and even bought one for that purpose. Its name is Kasim Baba. haha. Unfortunately, I had difficulties in learning it (padahal alasan semata.haha.), so I gave up. But, I still hope that one day I am able to fulfill the desire. It is for my self satisfaction I guess.

And, I can also easily melting down if someone can play for me. Oh, how I have this imagination that someday my future other half will play a song for me. It will be good and additional points if he can sing the song very well. I will be the happiest person and love him more and more. hahahaha..verangan sangat!!! haish!

I found this video in youtube. I met him before as he was one of the photographer for my convo photoshoot. I did not expect he has such a good voice. And, he knows how to play guitarrrr!!!!!! weee~ Okay, here is his youtube channel Syahiran Sukardi. I am so gonna watch the rest of his collections of acoustic version videos. Enjoy watching everyone!!!!

ps.: psst! psst! i love you!! yes, you!!

AJL 25:Tomok takde identiti sendiri?

2011-01-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

Meletopz okay opening Anugerah Juara Lagu Jubli Perak kali ini. Okay la, enjoyable and it brings all the memories during those days. Siapa tak kenal kan otai2 industri muzik kita.

Tapi bukan itu yang aku nak kongsi. Yang ini lagi besh kot. Perasan tak persembahan TOMOK tadi ada ala-ala persembahan siapa? Gaya pun agak-agak nak sama dah. Perasan tak?? Okay2, to cut it short, let me tell you. But this is my personal opinion la tapi. Em, aku memula tengok je performance Tomok terus aku teringat MR. MJ Malaysia kita. Cube teka siapa?? Mestila Faizal Tahir the superman. Fine! memang lah FAIZAL TAHIR pun cedok indentiti dari Late MJ, tapi bukan dah macam jadi trademark dia ke? Macam orang akan tahu Oh! itu Faizal Tahir yang pakai glove hitam, rayban, baju fesyen pon lebih kurang sama.

And, tadi persembahan Tomok serta gaya pakaian juga sudah sama seperti itu. Ke arah itu. Atau aku berfikiran sempit kah? Siapa nak jawab persoalan aku ni?? Tomok?? ke Faizal Tahir??

does it matter?

2011-01-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.

Richard Bach

can i not give up on you and just wait? wait and wait and wait until i am definitely sure that you are not mine, forever not mine. because i believe that there is a little, at least, a little space for me in your big heart. dear God, please grant me with lots of strength to make me stand still and smile.

im done.

2011-01-06T15:49:00.000+08:00

walau bukan senang mahu mendidik hati, namun aku pasti dan aku yakin harapan itu akan sentiasa ada. aku cuma perlu terus melihat dan pandang ke hadapan. walau ia memakan masa, walau ia mengguris rasa, walau ia pedih tak terkata, tapi aku pasti akan ada jalan keluar. mungkin bukan sekarang. mungkin aku kurang bernasib baik. dan segalanya mungkin. esok lusa dan mungkin juga tulat hikmah itu akan terpancar.

kini, aku sedang dalam tempoh membatasi hati. membendung rasa. walau yang pertama itu sakit, rasanya yang kedua pula lagi perit. maka, biarlah yang ketiga hadirnya abadi. aku mohon menadah langit. aku bukan kuat. dan aku juga bukan tunggul yang tiada rasa. aku mampu gelak tawa. aku mampu senyum gembira. tapi kalau boleh diselam dasar hati, pasti akan terlihat luka-luka yang masih berdarah. dan pastinya juga akan terlihat titisan-titisan hujan membasahi bumi.

aku pasrah. dan aku redha. jika ini jalan hidupku, jika ini takdirnya, maka aku rela. terima kasih diberi peluang. sekurang-kurangnya aku belajar menghargai. dan membatasi.

yours truly.

move on.

2011-01-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

letting go.

it was not that easy and it is still not easy.

let's get used to it.

moving on. letting go. look forward. no turning back.

thanks for the memories.

promise to keep it eternally.

used to be a part of me and it will forever be a part of me.

may Allah bless.

...

IF I LET YOU GO Westlife

2011-01-05T18:18:00.000+08:00

Day after day
Time passed away and I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

But once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

Chorus:
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I Know If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There is no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we world's apart

I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to loose
but sooner or later
I've got to choose
And once again I am thinking about taking the easy way out

Oh! excitednyaaa...

2011-01-03T03:02:00.001+08:00

Sangat excited dan tak sabar-sabar mahu berjumpa mereka-mereka kesayangan hati. yeay! Sekarang sudah berada di gombak tapi kudik-kudik sudah tidur. ala, rindunya nak peluk cium =) Sila cepat-cepat bangun ye, esok awak tak boleh ke rumah Mak Esah tau. Kami mahu gomol awak cukup-cukup. hehe.

ala kudikkudik...

kudikkudik with his momma, maksu.

he is so adorable i tell you.

Juga sangat teruja mahu berjumpa mereka-mereka kesayangan hati yang lain. mari ketemu yuh!! hopefully i am able to meet all of them. kalau tidak semua pun, antaranya pun sudah lebih dari memadai. bersyukur!

cik azie kazen kesayangan dunia akhirat, insyaAllah.

dear along, my bestie since school.

mereka yang sentiasa di ingatan setiap masa setiap waktu. you know who you are. lotssaaa love bebehs! <3 <3 <3

encik mr. bestfriend. =)

semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. amin.

Budak Comel~

2011-01-02T18:44:00.001+08:00

ini entri untuk budak comel yang rasa macam geram nak cubit-cubit.ngeee~ Okay, semalam post pictures tunang je kan, so today let's have a look on the birthday celebration pulak. tapi simple je la, doa selamat amongst family members sahaja. owh, terubat rindu pada kampung semalam..

Now, presenting budak comel.........

Eh! ini bukan budak comel yang dimaksudkan, walaupun memang sangat2 la comel okay. =)

me with aunties, kazens, niece and nephew.

Masih bukan budak comel tapi inilah dia birthday boy. Happy 24th birthday dear kazen. May Allah bless you and cepat2 kawen.hehe

Yang berbaju merah merah itu adalah entiti wajib yang perasan sangat handsome.

Tengok lah mereka yang sangat happy. The boys are siblings. woot woot.

AHA!!!! ini lah dia si budak comel yang dimaksudkan. BABY HAZIQ DARWISH, 5 months old. Alololo comelnyaaaa!

Darwish with my brother and sister in law. His ayah ngah and mak ngah!

budak comel with his mak yong.

aha! budak comel with his mak yang (comels jugak.hehe). i asked them to call me aunty young but no one listens to me..huhu.

This is the comelest. finally dapat captured his smiley face. sangat comel la awak ni Darwish. rasa macam nak peluk and cium bertubi-tubi (Aisyah Hani, 2006).

Okay sekarang mari lihat kecomelan baby darwish dari kecik lagi walaupun sekarang baby darwish masih seorang baby yang kecil.

ni masa akikah dan cukur jambul baby darwish, 2 months old. with his comelest aunties. mak yong azie, mak yang hanna and mak yong mai.

lihat kaki ku..sungguh tergoda kannnnnn????

And, this year 2011 there will be lots of babies coming out.... yeaahhhhhaaaa! excited and looking forward to have a look on those beautiful and special creation by Him. Subhanallah.