Immortal

Nothing lasts forever. Be it in term of living things or non-living things. And I think that everything here would also include feelings and relationship. We have to bear in mind that we are all imperfect. We have flaws. We are lack in term of so many ways.

So don't worry my dear; because it is okay to lose and be lost.

Sometimes we need no reason to be parting ways. If you were to be asked of the reason being separated, the only answer that you may tell them is 'Just Because'. You do not have to have lengthy explanation or valid justification when the only thing would matter is you, yourself.

I read this somewhere "No matter how good you are, you can always be replaced."

True enough. But, let's see it from different perspective because people might see you as being too much of yourself if you think you are good enough for others. For me, it does not matter whether you are good enough or not, once the purpose is no longer valid, you are not needed anymore. So you might just go rather than you linger around hoping for miracle to happen. Because when you put expectations, or have high hopes that it would be like usual, it just wont be that way. It hurts you deeply to the core.

It takes time to heal. As cliche as it can be. You might be hurt. You might be broken into zillion pieces. You might lost yourself. But, sooner or later you will stand up feeling better, even if it is not like before, but you may be recovering bit by bit.

Just because.

Let go. Let god.

Paper Cranes

When I was in my primary years, my best friend asked me a question that I can still remember up until now. We were at the back alley of the class, facing the skies. She asked me,

"If you were to be an animal, what would you want to be?"

I answered without hesitation

"I want to be a bird so that I can fly high in the skies. Free from anything."

To which she said this 

"But you know, if you were to be a bird, you will be shot dead."

And, there goes my dream to be a bird. Kids can be very critical at times as how they hold their honesty. They see things from different perspectives, those angles that we have left it somewhere while we are busy growing up. We lost the child in us.

Apparently throughout the process of growing up, we have been compromising our beliefs to most of the things that we tend to lose ourselves. Succumbing ourselves to people's wishes and orders. Believing others are superior and we are powerless. Being timid as we are afraid to open up and speak up. Being the Yes-Man who agrees to those narrowed minded people who are forcing us to think out of the box; but keep and lock us inside the box, nowhere to go.

Then we realize that life is unfair and growing up is challenging. It is full of surprises which consist of a series of audacious decision makings as we could not foresee our future. The only choice we have is to just live life to the fullest with the hope that we would not turn back and regret later.

*On the other note, it is so ironic the fact that I love birds because they can fly freely, yet I keep them in the jar instead.

**Let me keep you here, safe and protected. Grounded.

Missing You

He has been missing his father like I have been missing mine.
Indescribable feeling.
The pain.
The hurt.

When you are dealing with worldly issues
When you need someone to advice you
When you need someone to reassure you

"Its okay love, everything will be just alright"

I hope I could still remember the soothing voice so that whenever I feel down,
I can replay the voice over and over again.

"Its okay love, everything will be just alright"


Thanks Max Steel for reminding me of my longing.


I'll be just alright!
I know I will.

The Unrequited Love

A friend told me that she likes my clear box of folded paper roses and she asked me the reason behind it. It took me a while because I have lost the thought of it. I was struggling to think any of it and to let it out. I know I have the reasons of doing it, but being asked spontaneously, I lost all the reasons I have before. Then, I figured it as the resemblance of beauty. That beauty should be kept well and hidden. But nahhh... No its not! I told her, maybe its about the one sided love. An underprivileged state of being able to love but not to be loved. 

Hence I ended up with this piece of mind:

Okay I better continue my work or I might stay here forever with so many thoughts to write. =P

Have a good day!!!

Yang Pertama

Tak sangka sudah 8 tahun usianya. Segala macam cerita, yang duka, yang lara, yang bahagia dan yang gembira semua terluahkan di sini. Ibaratnya seperti setiap sisi kehidupan mampu disingkap dan dikenang melalui setiap bait kata yang terzahirkan.

Thus, to commemorate this meaningful day, let's take a stroll down memory lane on the very first day, the first entry of this blog.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 at 1.42pm.

sepi seorang insan

Termenung aku sendiri
Mengenang nasib meratapi sedihnya hati
Walau angin bertiup sayup
Walau cantik sinar mentari yang memancar
Walau lembut ombak menghentam pantai
Namun damai di hati tidak mampu bertandang lagi
Lalu aku bingkas bangun
Masih terus mencari
Dimana kedamaian yang ingin ku temui
Namun mengapa masih tak dijumpai
Lantas duka hatiku berlabuh sepi
Buat kesekian kali
Sepi menguasai diri
Ah, betapa sakitnya hatiku
Tatkala aku mengingati semula detik-detik itu
Acapkali bermain-main di kotak fikiranku
Terbayang-bayang oleh mataku akan bayanganmu
Terus aku menangis sedih
Salahkah aku membiarkan perasaan ini menguasai diri
Tidak aku jangka jauh sekali untuk aku pinta
Bukan aku suka
Tapi ia datang menduga
Sudah aku tepis semua
Sudah aku lontarkan sejauhnya
Namun kudratku tak segagah dulu
Sepi bertandang kembali
Bila rindu itu datang lagi.

***

p.s. I started off with this piece of heart. It was 8 years ago. And it is still legit! 😭

p.s.s. Dan, pastinya rindu itu datang lagi dari sisi dan posisi yang berbeza. Tapi rasa itu tetap rasa yang sama. Rindukan sang dia ikhlas dari seorang pemuja. 

Deep Conversation

Let me reach you,

If it opens your heart.

Let me be there for you,

If it cures your wound.

Let me make a move,

If it satisfies you.

Let me love you,

If it makes you, 

You.

Monolog #1

Ego tinggi melangit dan kau rasa kuat macam badang. Semua pun boleh. Semua pun okay. Kau langgar segala macam pantang. Kau buat semua ikut rasa hati. Sebab kau tak mahu dilihat lemah. Kau tak mahu menyusahkan. Dan kau tak mahu ditinggalkan. Ha! Itu yang paling kau takutkan. Ditinggalkan dan dibiarkan keseorangan. Tiada teman. Tiada kawan.

Tapi sayang semua itu hanya perasaan. Bilamana kau mula tewas, segala ego dan kekuatan tadi jatuh menjunam. Ibarat air hujan yang turun membasahi bumi, begitulah juga segala ego dan kekuatan kau. Gugur satu persatu. Berderai. Nah, sekarang mana perginya kau yang gagah perkasa? Kau akhirnya terduduk terjelepok menyembah bumi. Kau gagal. Kau kalah dalam menahan rasa. Kau menyerah diri walau sekuat mana kau cuba bertahan. Jasad kau tewas dalam perjuangan minda kau sendiri.

Ya pasti kau semua akan tanya di mana tuhanmu? Dia ada sentiasa. Mana pernah tinggalkan kau sendiri. Maka kau akan kata, memang betul tuhan ada disetiap helaan nafas kau. Dan kau tak pernah menafikan. Tapi kerana hakikat yang kau manusia lemah. Kau lemah kerana kau masih memerlukan seseorang yang fizikal berada berhampiran. Menjadi peneman yang kau katakan kau kesunyian. Kasihan. Betul-betul kasihan.

Ha! Apa lagi yang kau tunggu? Bangun! Cepat bangun! Ambillah masa tapi jangan terlalu lama. Jangan biar dilihat dunia siapa diri kau yang sebenar. Jangan biar mereka lihat sisi kau yang sadis ini. Biarkan mereka lihat kau kuat seperti selalu. Biarkan mereka terus biasa dengan idea yang kau sentiasa menggembirakan mereka. Jangan pernah hilang untuk mereka. Dan kau tahu kau mampu. Lekas bangkit semula!

Bangkit dan moga kau terus tabah!

Dear You.

Dear you,

Yesterday I learnt that I have you as my avid reader. Thank you for being here and reading all my rambling pieces and thoughts. Mind you, I have nothing to offer except for me, myself and my thoughts. But please know that knowing you are here surely means a lot to me.

As you can observe, it is all complicated here. Because being me is too complicated hence you can see the thoughts written here are scattered and all over the place. I write what I feel like telling or sharing. It could be about me or it could be from my observation. And it could be about you, like this one particular entry.

So, dear you,

Whatever you read here, please please please read it as a piece of writing or expression. Because what I feel, may not be related to you. Or maybe not even applicable to you. So, let me be (only as) one of your entertainment sources. But, if there are things that could benefit you in any way, please take it with an open heart and open mind. I would be more than happy to help you.

Dear you,

I may not be around, I may hesitate here and there. Or even, I may not be able to meet up your expectations. But I will be here, not going anywhere. You know how to find me, I am sure.

And let's meet up someday insyaAllah.

Yours truly,

The Complicated Me.

p.s. Remember, be strong! Because that is the only option we have. xoxo.

I Need You

I need you but I am a burden.

Have you ever thought something like this? To which you're afraid to be involved because you are a burden. Sometimes its not even getting involve, but you are afraid to even get close to someone. Just because you think you might burden them with your life, your problem, your stuff or just yourself. But you need them. You know you need them.

But, because of your insecurities, your tendency to run away is at its peak. You become too conscious and overthink, you are timid and coward to express your true feelings. You are afraid they might misunderstand you and your intention to which you are worried they run away from you because you know you really need them.

You need them and you are terrified of losing them. Because you know if its happened, its going to shatter you into million pieces like how it used to be. You are scared your wound would bleed again and again. Hence you end up to live inside your own coccoon just because you think it is going to be okay as long as you run away. Because you think it would not hurt you. Because you think you can be prepared with your own definition of armour.

But, deep down there, somewhere inside you, you know are lying to yourself. You know you are being selfish by as you consider it as protecting yourself. Just because of your insecurities, you keep your feelings. You think you hide it well enough when its too obvious because when you start to care, you know you would give hundred and ten. And here comes the part when you would give it all out, then you take it back. The process of give and take continues. The indecisive you. And this might confuse them to which you might hurt them unintentionally.

Though sometimes you feel tired when those you cared for simply don't notice it. Or maybe they don't have the mutual feelings like you. Or they don't see you as someone worth to care. Or they don't think you fit in their frame of life. At the end of the day, you know that you would still give your hundred and ten. It hurts you but because you have a lot to give, maybe you don't mind of giving it all.

But dear self,

This is from your own perspective. You may think people don't care about you. But, who knows maybe they care and its you who does not notice nor realize it. Because each of us has different kind of ways to show concern. There are some people who do not even know how to express their feelings. Verbally or even via actions. So maybe, just embrace whatever is served on your plate. If you are being too picky, you would not know the taste of those colourful things life could offer. And maybe, you should not be afraid to show or to express your feelings. If they are okay, you would not lose anything. But if they do not feel the same, maybe it hurts you to the core - being ignored, puzzled. But at least you have tried. Life is too short to not utilize it.

So, dear you,

I need you but (I know) I am a burden. Hence the insecurities.

Yours truly,

The Wrecked Me.

p.s. This post is due to few incidents happened in my life recently that triggered the wrecked me to reflect on the insecurities.

p.s.s. Someone asked me do I have someone that I really like to which I answered I am afraid even to like so I keep it and just be the "pemuja dari jauh".

p.s.s.s. the incoherent thoughts in this, reflects the incoherent of me and myself.

0800-1215pm

Salam Maal Hijrah

Shah Alam.

Suatu Rasa Yang Paling Dalam

Pernah tengok langit luas terbentang?
Tengok yang bukan sekadar pandang, tapi jauh terus mendalam.

Pernah tengok langit biru yang tenang?
Nampak indah sejuk mata memandang.

Pernah tengok langit yang penuh dipeluk awan?
Rasa tenang diawang-awangan, disapa lembut dibelai-belai.

Dan, pernah tengok langit yang hitam kelam membawa beban ke serata alam?
Memanggil, merayu memberi ingatan yang selamanya tidak akan sentiasa tenang.

Ibaratnya hati dan juga perasaan, yang tidak akan selalu aman.
Ada masa berbunga indah, ada masa berbuah lebat.
Namun ada juga masa diserang taufan, ada juga masa diserang la nina.
Tidak ada satu yang statik, berdiri kaku teguh sendiri.

Bila rasa tidak tertahan.
Terlalu tinggi, tidak tergapai,
Dipegang lepas, dibiar sayang,
Ditelan sakit, diluah perit.

Suatu rasa yang paling dalam,
Rasa yang paling payah untuk dihadam.

Namun jangan disalahkan Tuhan.
Ia hadir demi sebuah pengajaran.
Satu fasa dalam tumbesaran.
Buat hati-hati yang masih berpeleseran,
Yang tiada hala tuju
Mencari satu kebenaran.


.Langit malam Dengkil yang masih tenang, cuma hati sahaja yang tidak setenang alam.
.2138H.

Hati Manusia

Kadang kita lupa

Kadang kita leka

Siapa yang selalu ada

Yang di depan mata

Tak dihargai atau dipuji

Yang jauh juga tetap di hati

Hmm Manusia.

Sifatnya 

Tidak pernah sempurna

Sikapnya

Tidak pernah elok

Mahunya

Yang sungguh hebat

Seleranya 

Yang amat besar

Hmm Manusia.

Memang tidak pernah cukup.

Memang tidah pernah puas. 

On the other note:

Been away for a month. Been imagining myself to keep writing here but I did not. Blame me for that. I guess, I am too busy appreciating people and life that I have. Oh, It is not appreciating but rather learning to appreciate people. Something that we normally take it for granted. Sometimes I do feel like letting go. Sometimes I do feel like leaving an empty space. Sometimes I do feel like giving up. But, most of the times, I do feel that this is not the right thing to do. This is not what its supposed to be. This is not what its meant for me. And then, all the "what if's" questions pouring down all over the place. What if, this is my last day? What if, this is their last day? What if, I have not expressed my gratitude? What if, they do not know my feeling? What if, they do not know that I love them? What if, they do not know how I am grateful to have them in my life? What if? What if? And there are more of it. 

I feel suffocated.

Have I done my best?

But what about me? My self and my heart?

I am okay. I am mending it, collecting pieces of it. To make it complete.

By having, 

By making,

By being,

By trying,

-- my best.  

On the other, other note:

Yang selalu ada, 

di setiap sisi, 

di setiap rasa, 

di setiap ruang 

dan peluang,

tak perlu dilakar nama,

tak perlu dihebah dunia,

cukup mereka tahu

I am grateful

to have you.

Terima kasih. Moga sentiasa dirahmati dan dikasihi.

.Shah Alam sedang dibasahi hujan, mujur hati tidak tempias basah. 24Julai2016. 0235am. 

Perception

Perception is something unique. As we are all different from one another, our perceptions are similarly different for everyone. It is based on how we view our world. Sometimes, the way we perceive things determine on how we tackle our situation. For example, when there are two people in a similar situation, both of them might tackle the situation differently. Their schemata, values or even experience will influence their choices in dealing with it.

For some, one particular thing might look easy or common sense but, some others, it might be the hardest issue they need to face with. It is unfair to generalize all to have the same thought as ours. It is because we do not have the same capability to begin with. In my case for example, I value my family just like how other people value theirs. For me, my family includes the extended ones. It does not revolve around my nuclear family only. I would do extra miles for the rest of my family members just the way I would treat my own family. However, for some, they value family as only their nuclear family. And I can assure that nothing is wrong with it. It is because we are still focusing on the same basic which is family. It is just that my view on it is quite bigger compared to the others. Yet, I definitely cannot impose the values that I hold to the others because its their own choice.

As I said to my dear friend that we cannot read minds and we perceive things differently. These two combo surely affect our daily life in so many ways. You know when there is misunderstanding, mostly it is because of perception. One party will think that the other side is wrong, the other party will think the same as well. This might lead to bigger issue if none of them took the effort to settle the issue. I had experienced this situation with my own best friend. For me, she was being too dramatic and selfish. And, from her side, she thought that I have changed and started to leave her. So both of us perceived things differently and emotionally.We were avoiding each other to the extent it affected the precious years of friendship. Lucky us, that another best friend came and advised us to talk it out. So we met and confronted the issue just to realize that it was just a mere misunderstanding. So, the case solved. Alhamdulillah. But there are unsolved cases definitely. These kind of cases might involve deeper issue, trust or feelings. It takes times to settle it. And I believe that time heals all wound. So just be patience and have faith. hehe.

Back to perceptions. I always think that it is interesting on how people view things. One particular thing might have 100 perceptions from 100 different individuals. And it is fascinating to look at how people approach things based on their perceptions. I like it and as I am in the process of learning life lessons from someone, I do think that dissimilarity makes us unique entities. It colours our life or else we are going to have a mundane type of life. And again, I like it that I have a sparring partner to talk about these deep issues and conversations. Though I have to be extra careful as the sparring partner is definitely an intelligent person that I normally lost words and thoughts. haha.

Till then.

Just You

These are some of my lessons that I shared today. I did not plan any of it. But these are my reflections on the activity that we did together. Some of it, I can tell that, my concern for them.

I told them:

We are all unique.

Even our thumbprints are not identical 

with one another.

So I said to them

It is okay to be different.

It is okay to take the road not taken.

It is okay to be unique.

It is okay to be just you.

You don’t have to be like the others.

And it is okay not to belong. 

Be brave and venture the world.

And don’t settle for less.

***

I really hope they can remember some of it. 

Live their life to the max and enjoy it while they still can.

Acceptance

Life has been beautiful though there are ups and downs. It makes me wiser in facing the ever challenging life I guess. For that, I am forever grateful. Alhamdulillah. I would be lying if I considered myself unlucky to be given the opportunities that I have been living with up till today. I may not be the strong me that I used to be, but being fragile does not make me less me. Maybe being strong is too tiring to live in. Maybe I was not that strong that I used to think. Maybe being strong makes me forget who I am. Maybe being strong makes me more fragile. Maybe being strong is not for me anymore. There are lots of maybe(s) if I want to list it down here. But, I am not saying that I am too vulnerable that people might tear me up into pieces.

Been living in a cocoon, I normally keep myself to me. I choose people with whom I think I am comfortable with to share my personal life. I choose people to tell stories. I choose people to share the happiness or sadness or even problems. I might look easy. I might be telling people lots of things about me, but there are lots more of it that I have been hiding it underneath. Thus, it makes me having only few friends, I am a loner anyway. I guess I am over protective of myself from getting hurt. So when one of my students opened up and told the whole class that she is a 'shell', I sort of understand her condition. She told us that she has trust issues and she was under depression before this. Being in that kind of situation is not easy. You get hurt easily. You are broken inside out. I know that she tried so hard not to cry while telling her stories as I was doing the same for her. I would really want to hug and tell her that it is okay to be sad, it is okay to cry and it does not make you less of a person. But, I restrained myself so that I can leave the class with a good and cheerful atmosphere. So that she can have a piece of joy whenever she remembers that moment of truth. So that the other classmates would not look at her with pity. So that, she would not have reasons to regret her decision to open up. 

I am so proud when she told us that she has been accepting her fate. She said that there are no points living in sad memories. Agreed and I told her that time heals all wounds. I would admit that I was actually soothing myself at the same time. She is stronger than me. Wiser definitely I would say. For me to reach the acceptance stage would take forever. As before this, I have lost one prominent figure in my life. To be able to admit it takes me years and years. I even not telling the truth whenever it comes to that one particular question. Not lying but I would not answer it or divert it to the other directions. During the first few stages, I was still in denial that I imagined myself not losing that person yet. I would believe that that important figure is still with me somewhere. I did not admit it to people. I did not change my address. I would do anything I could to remain as it is. And I keep bottling it up and act strong. 

But, today. I would never imagined that I actually asked my favourite people to recite Al-fatihah to my beloved important figure in my life. It has been 12 years. 12 years I tell you I have been living myself avoiding this matter. I did ask my best friend before asking them to do so. I asked her did I look weak if I were to ask the other friends to recite dua. She said, No. And still, I delayed the process until I felt ready to ask. Acceptance. I guess this is finally the time I would really let it go. It does not mean that I am going to forget it but to open my heart that this is part and parcel of our indefinite life. I have been missing you Ayah for the past 12 years. And I miss you, still. Eternally. May Allah forgive you and place your soul among the righteous in the Hereafter. Al-fatihah.

The first and the last colour-themed raya as requested by Ayah. 

Hati-hati dengan Hati

Hati.
Suatu yang sangat subjektif, sukar untuk di interpretasi.
Kadang kita rasa seperti kita sudah kuasai hati sendiri tetapi, sebenarnya banyak lagi yang kita belum fasih.
Akan ada sahaja benda baharu yang kita singkap setiap kali kita berdepan dengan persoalan hati.
Setiap satu itu, pasti akan memberi kesan dan impak yang berbeza.
Mungkin bagi kita, kita sudah cukup bersedia, kita sudah mahir dan berpengalaman.
Namun hakikatnya, kita ini lemah.
Segala jenis persediaan mahupun kekuatan akan perlahan hilang bilamana masalah hati datang bertandang.

I think I have written something about "Hati-hati dengan Hati" some times ago.
So, this time around, more or less the same.
It just that, this time I tweeted these 'luahan hati' but then I deleted it due to personal reasons.
Then again, I think I need to put it here as my own compilation as for future reference.
Who knows I might need these kinds of pep talk in the near future.
So here it goes...

***
Hati-hati dengan hati.

Sakit hati, susah hati, patah hati.

Jatuh hati lagi kene hati-hati.

Sebab ikut hati, mati.

Jadi jangan suka hati.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kau susah hati.

Kau fikir bagai nak mati.

Kau jugak yang penat nanti.

Lagi tambah sakit hati.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Buat baik kau di salah erti.

Buat jahat kau di benci.

Sudahnya kau sendiri.

Pergi jauh bawa diri.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kau jaga rapi, takut patah hati.

Tapi kau lupa diri.

Bila sakit, kau tanggung sendiri.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Niat yang baik boleh di salah erti.

Walau kau cuba perbaiki.

Usaha itu ini.

Tapi tetap tiada siapa memahami.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Silap langkah kau nanti,

Bawa musibah pada diri.

Kau tak tahu mana nak pergi,

Meratap lagi kau sendiri.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kalau kau sayang diri,

Kene pandai jaga hati.

Supaya kau tak kecewa lagi.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kau jangan susah hati,

Tanggung masalah sendiri,

Okay la tu nanti, baru la kau happy.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Niat kau ikhlas dan suci,

Kau tahu batas diri,

Juga tak lupa diri,

Moga tak di salah erti,

Kalau tak, susah la kau nanti.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kau dan masalah hati memang sudah sebati.

Sampai bila nak macam ni,

Pendam sendiri, pretend to be happy.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kau sabar ya wahai hati.

Okay la tu nanti, it takes time maybe.

Sampai masa kau pergi,

Make sure you are ready.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Jangan takut patah hati.

Kau sakit cuba lagi.

Sampai kau puas hati.

Jumpa apa yang dihajati.

Cos you are strong already.

***

Hati-hati dengan hati.

Kalau kau paksa takkan jadi.

Biar dia datang sendiri.

Tersemat dalam hati.

Terlukis di sanubari, rasa yang hakiki.

***

On a personal note, I am blessed and grateful to be surrounded by wonderful souls at the moment. I love them all.  As someone said to me that the tendency to love many people at a time and too soon might harm me in many possible ways. Been there, done that. But me being me, though it hurts I cannot avoid it. I appreciate people just the way they are. I might go extra miles and do whatever it takes for them. If one day, I am hurt I will mend my own heart. Because for me, I will be happy when I know they are happy. 
So dear heart, keep strong! I need you, still. 

Gayung Emas

Assalamualaikum.

Ha! Selalu kita dengar payung emas kan, epppp sensitif tu. Maka harini kita tak nak cerita pasal payung emas tapi nak cerita gayung emas pulak. Gayung ni kalau orang Perak panggil CEBOK/CEBUK. Yang kita guna untuk mandi tu.

 Have you ever been described as something else? Or being identified by colours? It is not about the skin colours or any colours that represent your political party. But, something/colours that people will imagine or relate it with you?

Interesting aite?

I have friends who are very unique I guess. One of them told me that I represent as 'cebok' and another one told me that I am gold. Seriously I don't have any idea about it. Thus, to make sense of those two, I myself combine both and tadaaaaa the 'Gayung Emas'.

I don't know the connotation(s) of those two. I have asked them but they seem to not able to explain the exact meaning behind it. I am still questioning myself and searching for the answer.

Harap-harap maksud gayung emas tu yang baik-baik je  la. ehehe. Oh!!! baru teringat yang Gold tu katanya macam 'warm'. emmm. Macam mana tu???

Ini lah dia yang dipanggil sebagai cebok/gayung.

Ini pulak emas.

 

 



Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow

Shakespeare Quotes:

Macbeth:

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

To the last syllable of recorded time;

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more. It is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

Macbeth Act 5, scene 5, 19–28

***

Me:

For tomorrow I promise nothing but with the hope that Allah guides us all may lead me to the right path. As I may take things for granted. Or even keep on repeating the same silly things.

Yet, I hope deep down inside my heart that this will make me or at least show me the right way to become a better khalifah.

I may hurt you in anyways as I have flaws here and there so I beg for your forgiveness. Please Please and please forgive me. 

It may be hard. It may be difficult. 

But I choose not to stay. Anymore.

***

Al-Qasas (28:56)

Indeed, [O Muhammad], you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guideswhom He wills. And He is most knowing of the [rightly] guided.

Sahih International

Demi Masa

Time flies!!! Its already the last day of January. So how's 2013 been treating you? 

Let's make reflections upon whatever we have done or completed in the first month. Would it be enough or more effort should be put into making dreams come true? Any resolutions achieved so far in the very first month of 2013?

"Demi masa sesungguhnya kita berada dalam kerugian kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan kebajikan serta saling menasihati dengan kesabaran."

Taufan Sandy

Taufan Sandy yang dianggarkan paling hebat yang melanda New York telah menjejaskan banyak pihak dan aktiviti. Ramai juga mangsa yang terpaksa dipindahkan, berpindah dan diselamatkan. Namun, tetap ada juga sejumlah penduduk yang menjadi mangsa.

Biar siapapun mereka, biar agama yang dianuti berbeza, biar kepercayaan, warna kulit dan tutur kata yang tidak sama, PEDULIKAN SEMUA ITU. Mari kita sama-sama doakan semua yang terlibat dan terjejas akibat Taufan Sandy akan selamat dan kembali seperti asal.

May Allah ease everything and bless us all.

Kawasan yang terlibat.

Fakta ringkas Hurricane Sandy.

1. Keadaan 33rd Street SEBELUM dan SELEPAS dilanda SANDY.

                             2. Keadaan 14th Street SEBELUM dan SELEPAS dilanda SANDY.

3. Keadaan di jalan masuk Brooklynn Battery Tunnel dari Manhattan

 SEBELUM dan SELEPAS dilanda SANDY.

4. Keadaan di Broadway, Point Pleasant Beach New Jersey

 SEBELUM dan SELEPAS dilanda SANDY.

5. Keadaan di Huron St and McGuinness Boulevard

 SEBELUM dan SELEPAS dilanda SANDY.

Video on Sandy.

Jom luangkan sedikit waktu untuk berdoa supaya mereka yang terlibat selamat dari musibah Sandy.


p.s. I have friends who are currently staying in the US. Hoping that everything is just fine for them. Aamiin.


Source: BBC News

Banyak udang banyak garam, banyak orang banyak ragam

Manusia ni banyak ragam.

Perangai pun banyak jugak. 

Sebab tu wujudnya pepatah "banyak udang banyak garam, banyak orang banyak ragam"

Terkadang orang yang kita rasa putih, sebenarnya hitam.

Terkadang orang yang kita sangka hitam, putih sebenarnya.

Itu persepsi yang ditambah rasa dengan pengalaman.

Maka muncullah pandangan skeptikal.

Seperti "eh orang macam ni selalunya perangai dia macam tuttttt"

Takkpun "ala biasalah kalau kerja kat tuuuuttt perangai pun sama tuttt"

Rasa-rasanya semua orang tak terlepas dari berfikiran skeptikal ni.

Maaf cakap, tapi kalau ada yang mengaku yang dia sangat positif dan terbuka 

pasti pernah ada terselit di hati yang sebaliknya.

Kalau tidak mana mungkin terkeluar kata-kata anggapan yang orang lain skeptikal tapi dia tak.

Maka kesimpulannya, ye manusia sangat banyak perangai yang susah untuk disamakan dengan manusia lain.

Jangan pernah serik dan menyesal untuk memahami.

Kerna kadang-kadang kita juga susah untuk difahami.

Cubalah belajar memberi dan menerima.

Tanpa mengharapkan tindakan atau balasan dari satu pihak sahaja.

Dan ingat,

What you give, you'll get back!