Hati Manusia

Kadang kita lupa

Kadang kita leka

Siapa yang selalu ada

Yang di depan mata

Tak dihargai atau dipuji

Yang jauh juga tetap di hati

Hmm Manusia.

Sifatnya 

Tidak pernah sempurna

Sikapnya

Tidak pernah elok

Mahunya

Yang sungguh hebat

Seleranya 

Yang amat besar

Hmm Manusia.

Memang tidak pernah cukup.

Memang tidah pernah puas. 

On the other note:

Been away for a month. Been imagining myself to keep writing here but I did not. Blame me for that. I guess, I am too busy appreciating people and life that I have. Oh, It is not appreciating but rather learning to appreciate people. Something that we normally take it for granted. Sometimes I do feel like letting go. Sometimes I do feel like leaving an empty space. Sometimes I do feel like giving up. But, most of the times, I do feel that this is not the right thing to do. This is not what its supposed to be. This is not what its meant for me. And then, all the "what if's" questions pouring down all over the place. What if, this is my last day? What if, this is their last day? What if, I have not expressed my gratitude? What if, they do not know my feeling? What if, they do not know that I love them? What if, they do not know how I am grateful to have them in my life? What if? What if? And there are more of it. 

I feel suffocated.

Have I done my best?

But what about me? My self and my heart?

I am okay. I am mending it, collecting pieces of it. To make it complete.

By having, 

By making,

By being,

By trying,

-- my best.  

On the other, other note:

Yang selalu ada, 

di setiap sisi, 

di setiap rasa, 

di setiap ruang 

dan peluang,

tak perlu dilakar nama,

tak perlu dihebah dunia,

cukup mereka tahu

I am grateful

to have you.

Terima kasih. Moga sentiasa dirahmati dan dikasihi.

.Shah Alam sedang dibasahi hujan, mujur hati tidak tempias basah. 24Julai2016. 0235am. 

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow

Shakespeare Quotes:

Macbeth:

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

To the last syllable of recorded time;

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more. It is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

Macbeth Act 5, scene 5, 19–28

***

Me:

For tomorrow I promise nothing but with the hope that Allah guides us all may lead me to the right path. As I may take things for granted. Or even keep on repeating the same silly things.

Yet, I hope deep down inside my heart that this will make me or at least show me the right way to become a better khalifah.

I may hurt you in anyways as I have flaws here and there so I beg for your forgiveness. Please Please and please forgive me. 

It may be hard. It may be difficult. 

But I choose not to stay. Anymore.

***

Al-Qasas (28:56)

Indeed, [O Muhammad], you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guideswhom He wills. And He is most knowing of the [rightly] guided.

Sahih International

Wordless Wednesday

Peace y'all!

I miss his sweet talk. 

I miss his manja'ness. 

I miss holding hands with him. 

I miss cuddling with him. 

I miss running in shopping mall with him. 

I miss using train with him.

I miss this little sweetheart.

Kudik.

p.s. Wordless la sangat kan!!! haha

Senyum kan lebih manis.

Senyum itu senang je nak buat.

Tapi payah sangat kita nak senyum.

Kenapa ye?

Jom la kita senyum. 

Kalau kita senyum, nanti orang pun akan senyum kat kita.

Lepas tu merebaklah senyum pada semua.

kan best, tak payah la kita nak tengok muka orang yang masam kelat macam cuka.

Tak pasal-pasal rosakkan mood kita pulak.

Senyummmmmm je.

Kan senang!

Kudik sekecil ni pun tau senyum.

Ni yang orang kata senyum ear to ear tu.

heeee.

rindu.

kbai.

Faten's Wedding.

It was a very busy weekend. Dan sekarang Hanna dah tak berapa nak busy sangat. Maaf sangat-sangat sebab ada komen yang Hanna tak sempat nak reply. Nanti InsyaAllah Hanna akan melawat korangs kay!

Weekend yang baru lepas ni adalah weekend yang sangat busy sebabnya best friend Hanna kahwin. Itu yang  kalut nak buat banyak kerja. Walhal menyibuk je banyak, tolong tak la sangat. Teruk kan.. hehe. Kawan Hanna yang super cantik ni nama dia Faten. Seriously sangat gorgeous!! Hari Jumaat solemnization dan hari Sabtu pulak baru majlis walimah Faten. 

Ramai jugak kawan-kawan yang datang ke majlis Faten ni. One of my bestest friend, Mak, pun ada datang jugak all the way from KL ke Kedah. Another bestest friend, Napisah and her baby Nuha dari Kulim pun sama-sama datang dan overnight kat rumah Hanna. Best! hehe. 

Jum roll the photos!

1. Ni lah pengatinnya, Puan Faten. Ni masa hari nikah. Yang cantik macam anak Arab tu nama dia Marina. Marina dan Faten ni baru je balik dari the UK buat masters. 

2. Si cantik Marina dan si gorgeous Puan Faten.

3. Napisah and baby comel Nuha datang pada malam sebelum majlis walimah. 

4. Muka ceria Nuha bangun pagi dengan dikelilingi the aunties hehe. cuteness!

5. Sejurus selepas pengantin perempuan tiba ke dewan. Cantik kan!!!

6. Pengantin tengah berdebar-debar tunggu rombongan pengantin lelaki tapi still cantik!!!

7. Sempat lagi tu kami posing sementara menunggu penuh debaran. Semua ni coursemate dari zaman uni. 

Dari kiri: Afifah dan Nuha, Sarah, Marina, Farhana a.k.a Mak dan me!

8. Nuha with Mama Ana & Nuha with Mummy Hanna berpsoing sebelum gerak menuju ke rumah kakak ipar Hanna.

9. Tapi sebelum balik kalau tak posing dengan pengantin macam tak lengkap la pulak. So kami gigih berebut amek turn bergambar dengan pengatin. heheh. 

10. Mak with Amani, anak buah kesayangan Hanna =)

 11. Bergambar depan rumah Kakak Ipar. Masa ni Hanna n Mak nak berpisah dengan Napisah n Nuha dah. Dorang dah nak balik! Sobs. The last photo together. 

Fuhh banyak nye gambar kan! Tapi itu baru sikit, ada banyak lagi sebenarnya. Hahaha. Lepas dah salam-salam kami pun berpisah. Napisah n family balik ke rumah dorang manakala (ecewah) Hanna n Mak pergi sambung meronggeng. hehe.

Okaylah, nanti Hanna sambung dengan entri ape jadi waktu ronggeng dengan Mak. By the way, Mak dah balik KL pagi tadi. Sangat sedih melepaskan dia pergi. T-T

Dah! Dah! Dahhhhhh!. Merapu banyak sangat ni. Bye uolsss! Take care!

Thank you Nuffnang

Hoyeahhh!!! Akaun nuffnang sudah kembali seperti sediakala. Alhamdulillah. And, thank you nuffnang. Walaupun bukanlah seorang blogger tegar yang selalu dapat cek dari nuffnang, tapi bila tak boleh nak log-in akaun nuffnang buat sekian lamanya memang sangat menyusahkan hati.

Macam-macam dok fikir. Hanna dah delete akaun nuffnang tanpa disedari ke? Atau dah tak layak jadi ahli ke? Tapi kenapa orang lain boleh? Kalau nak tau, runsing punya pasal sampai Hanna tukar password and email nuffnang sendiri. Tapi hampa sebab still tak boleh jugak log in. hur hur hur.

Tapi tiba-tiba hari ni rasa macam nak try lagi log-in lepas baca entry dekat blog Ika. Kalau tak percaya, cuba tanya Ika sebab Hanna siap tanya lagi boleh ke nak log in nuffnang kat Ika. hehe. Thanks untuk Ika jugak.

Now rasa happy sangat sebab sebab dah berwajah baru dan dah boleh cek aktiviti dari akaun nuffnang. Tadi bila cek keywords rasa  lawak sangat sebab ada orang cari perkataan 'burik' sampai ke bareesence. hehe. Apa dan siapalah agaknya yang mencari burik tu ye. hehehe

Adik Kudik.

Spent 3 days 2 nights (without the mother) with this bebiboi memang TAK AKAN pernah cukup. Sudah semakin bijak. Banyak keletah. Sangat manja. Sangat lovely and surely a very charming sweetheart. And, a fanatic fan of API (train) and just develop his interest on ships.

He knows how to show his love and make people fall for him. In fact, he is very good at it. Kalau dia buat something yang dia rasa salah or kalau kita sedih, surely he will come and hug and kiss us to make it up. Ciuman yang sangat menyentuh hati siap dengan bunyi kiss dia. hehe. Such a heartthrob!!!

Nak jaga pun, sangat lah senang. He is a very easy baby since he was small little baby. Alhamdulillah. Dia macam tau je apa yang berlaku sekeliling dia, so dia tak banyak kerenah. Me and my sister pernah bawak adik kudik jalan-jalan sejauh ke Kedah without the parents. Sangat-sangat senang jaga. macam baru-baru ni, my maksu (the mother) ada kursus, the father kerja, the rest siblings ada kem, school etc, so my sister and I took care for him. Bawak jalan-jalan, bawak pergi main, makan-makan, tidur sama-sama dan tak akan pernah rasa cukup dan puas.

Rindu. Whenever we are going out, he will always ask for my car key, he will open it for us. Because he likes the car alarm and the lamp I guess. Then he will keep the key in his pocket like the car is his. He loves to find our hands and hold to it whenever we are walking. He hugs us tenderly.

It just that recently he is getting more sensitive. When we said, we want to leave or going out without him (jokingly) he will start to tremble. Those days, he was still able to laugh at the jokes. I was like clueless. My sister too. But yesterday, while looking at his photos, something came across my mind. He is still in his mourning phase. His babysitter (Mak Esah) which is called by the name 'Emak' has just passed away. Though they are just kids (kudik and siblings) but they were very close. I think the kids spent most of their time with Allahyarmah Mak Esah compared to my maksu, their Ummi. I believe he don't know how to talk about it but somehow kids behavior and expression deliver their emotional stage.

Maybe he is afraid of being left, again. And it strikes deep in my heart. I really hope and wish to spend more and more time with him. He is in his developing phase and it is very fast. Sometimes I am afraid that he could not remember me and my sister soon as he grows up. huhuh.

Okay, I am being too emotional I think. hehe. The point is I miss him lots and lots. Really want to hug and kiss him again. Adik kudik, I love you. We love you. Please be good and stay as charming as you are now. May Allah bless you and the whole family.

Ada jodoh, kita ketemu lagi okay! And we promised to bring you naik Api again.


p.s. nanti nak upload lagi banyak pictures of him. xoxo.

Cinta Semasa

Betul tu! Ini bukan tentang Gadis Semasa by Yuna. Tapi tentang my own cinta semasa. Since life's been like roller coaster and I'm getting more and more stress day by day. Maka hadirlah cinta-cinta semasa yang baru. Ops! banyak nya cinta kan.

Cinta pertama. I have been a very loyal blood donor. Don't ask me why? Atau jangan tanya tak takut ke badan makin gemuk? Entahlah rasanya since dulu-dulu kala memang teringin sangat nak derma darah. Kali pertama berpeluang derma darah masa tengah struggle buat praktikum dalam 3 tahun lepas. I was very stress at the moment. Lepas derma darah, rasa sangat lega. Sangat gigih sebab kene drive sendiri balik rumah sewa dengan kereta yang 'PAUT STERENG'. Imagine la dengan paut stereng and supposedly after derma darah tak boleh buat kerja kasar dalam a few hours macam tu. Apalagi jadi lebam teruk la. It tooks days to recover.

Tapi takpe, itu semua tak pernah padamkan rasa cinta ini. Bila dah kerja, hospital kat sini memang selalu datang sebab katanya dorang kekurangan darah. sepanjang 2 tahun berkhidmat, rasanya sudah dalam 4-5 kali jugak lah derma darah. Even ada one tu nurse cakap 'Cik kene tak cukup tempoh lagi untuk menderma semula'. Okay FINE! haha. The latest one, last week. Seriously Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah sebab my friend and I were chasing the ambulance sebab nak tau kat mana location program derma darah. Habis satu kampus jugak kami pusing and dah nak putus asa. Then, dimudahkan Tuhan, kami jumpa balik dengan ambulance tu. And I was the first person donated the blood. Jom ramai-ramai derma darah!

Cinta kedua. I am in love with books. Haha tipu! Okay bukan semua buku. Certain books and novels. I can spend hundreds of my money just to buy books. Satu kepuasan bila dapat beli buku banyak-banyak especially kalau kita beli buku dan hadiahkan pada orang. Tapi jangan tanya la pasal collection of books. tak banyak pun. Sebab kadang-kadang pinjam je buku dari library or pinjam or tukar-tukar baca with friends. Ohhh  I love both Malay and English novels. Best bila kita baca, kita boleh belajar sesuatu dari buku-buku tu. We are travelling into the time capsule.

Lately, I bought a few English novels. I have finished the first one 'My Best Friend's Girl" in 24 hours. Mungkin tak sepantas orang lain but I don't really care because it is very important for me to read page by page. I am not that type of person who skip reading. And I want to feel it the most. It's about death and the love of mother towards her child. I cried! I learn some new things and it opens my eyes on certain things.

Now, I am reading this one. About death as well. Been searching for this book that I almost give up. Fortunately just before I turn and going out from the bookstore, I saw this book. Can't wait to finish it!

Cinta ketiga. Food has always been my love. I find it as a great pleasure to eat delicious food especially when I am stress. It somehow can helps to brighten up my days. Semalam one of my senior, gave me this. Delicious!

Lewat petang semalam, my friends and I went to LeBoss restaurant. Kalau di area Sungai Petani, LeBoss ni kira mahal sikit la. Mostly, restaurant ni famous dengan western food taoi ada jugak Malaysian food. Memang harga dia mahal sikit tapi portion makanan dia besar-besar. So, I ate chicken chop with two sidelines, Italian Salad and Mashed Potato. The total dalam RM16 plus the taxes. Tak lah mahal sangat kan. Oh RM 16 tu termasuk air sekali iaitu Hot Lemon Tea. Sangat relaxing! hehe. Love it to bits. Tapi maaflah sebab tak sempat nak ambil gambar Chicken Chop sebab dah lapar sangat. Hehe.

Sekian kisah cinta semasa buat kali ini. Next time mesti lebih banyak cinta-cinta lain yang hadir. Mari raikan cinta. Hoyeaahhh! (*Tetibe!!!)

Masih Ada Cinta

Angin lalu
Kirimkan lah
Beritanya
Oh di sana
Di hatiku
Masih ada cinta
Kembalilah kekasih ku… sayang
Ku rindu...

Siapa ingat lirik ni? ha nilah lirik lagu Masih Ada Cinta nyanyian kumpulan ATo Z.. Lagu ni paling femes masa filem Gemerlapan dulu.. Woot Woootttt mase tu memang tangkap cinta cintun la dengan lagu ni (dengan ahli ATo Z pun ye jugak..haha) Tapi siyes  masa tu memang tangkap leleh la dengar lagu ni. Suke!

Malam-malam kene buat esaimen lagi. Badan dah makin kurang antibodi. Sudah sakit-sakit terima tekanan. hati runsing. Jiwa lara. Jadi sangat emosional sejak menjak ni. Oh rindu kudikkkkk~

p.s. Jom ayuh lekas mari buat ASSignment!

Budak Manja

R I N D U ! ! !

Hani's solemnization and reception ceremony.

So, last weekend was awesome for me!!! Managed to go Hani's solemnization and reception ceremony then later had ronggeng rokiah with dearest family. hehe. Memula sudah frustrated sangat sebab macam tak sempat nak rush ke kepong for the solemnization. Imagine I was from Kedah around 2pm, then headed back to Bote to pick up my little girls (note: they refer to my cousins) and my superhero which is my car. Hujan lebat sangat sehinggakan sampai Bote around 5ish pm, almost 6pm. Lepas tu rushing ke Ipoh to pick up my emak and kakak pulak. Right after maghrib baru lah gerak ke Kepong. Dengan hujan lebat sepanjang hari memang menyukarkan pemanduan. Dah give-up untuk sampai masa nikah sebab Hani nikah after Isyak. Sedih.

Tapi, takdir Allah siapa tahu. Bila dapat tahu Hani nikah lambat apalagi terus pecut even hujan lebat. Alhamdulillah sampai around 10pm dan masih hujan. Tinggalkan family dalam kereta then headed to her house. Elok-elok sampai, Hani selamat diijabkabulkan dengan Hatta.

I was so happy to meet dearest besties. Lama sangat dah tak jumpa. Without further due, let's look at the photos of the solemnization and reception ceremony before I go mad and babbling  rubbish..haha.

The solemnization.

 My jelitawans that I managed to meet that night. 

Sadly another jelitawan, Napisah wasn't there that night. 

 Some of the hantarans from both sides.

Before the reception ceremony started. 

Alhamdulillah we managed to meet up with Napisah this time around.

These were taken during the ceremony
upon the arrival of Mr. Bridegroom.

 My siblings and my cousin were attending the ceremony too.

Praying for our turns to come next. Haha.

p.s. Didn't manage to meet lotsa friends. huhu..

p.s.s. Next post will be on the ronggeng rokiah trip. hehe..

Down Memory Lane and Tribute to Hani

In another few hours, one of my besties is getting married. tik! tok! tik! tok! Oh excited nye! Eventhough sekarang masih di Kedah sebab konon bajet nak siapkan proposal nak hantar esok, tapi ape pun tak siap lagi sebab mood sudah terbang ke Kepong!!!! Tak sabar nak jumpa Cik jelita bride-to-be Ecah. Lepas ni no more cik, lepas ni puan/madam sudah.

Dear sahabat, esok pasti menjanjikan kelainan buatmu. Tanggungajawab pun makin besar, keluarga bertambah, banyak yang berubah. Semoga kehidupan berkahwin akan lebih membahagiakan, diberkati dan dirahmati selalu dear. Dah kawin bukan makna nya putus kawan dan letak kawan jauh-jauh kan, tapi lebih kepada memanjangkan lagi silaturrahim kan, insyaAllah. Semoga persahabatan kita kekal abadi. Amin.

And, here are some pictures as the tribute to you. miss you babe. and yes, you know i love you.

1. August 20, 2008. Babe, ingat tak waktu ni? Ni masa kita dok sibuk pindah dua tiga round ke rumah mr. pang. Pindah keluar dar rumah ***##*. Penuh giler kereta. Mak takde masa ni, dia kat OZ. 

Mak selalu escape, kan.haha.

2. September 09, 2009. Yang pulak masa kite pg sunway nak tengok cite Ugly Truth kot. 

Yang kene tahan dengan polis suspek bukan warganegara..haha..

3. July 11, 2009. Your Surprise birthday celebration kat KFC Federal. 

Almost frustrated sebab macam tak jadi. tapi Alhamdulillah plan went accordingly.

4. April 5, 2010. Ini antara momen-momen terakhir kita. The friendship that stays stronger since our first meeting masa pre-degree dulu. Then, kita teruskan lagi masa degree pulak walaupun banyak rintangan. more or less 6 years and still counting. Roommate, housemate, classmate, course mate, colleague,  bestest friend.

Selamat Pengantin Baru Dear Hani. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. 

Kekal bahagia dan dirahmati selalu. 

Lotsa love,

Mummy Hanna. 

(nak bagi hint kat ko..haha)

p.s. pics 1 and 2 tu amek dari archive dolu-dolu. yang dah siap edit. tu pasai jadi macam tu..haha

Pictures of busy weekends.

For the past two weeks, I had been busy with lots of things. Happy things for sure despite of whatever bad things that had happened. Because I believe life is too precious to be given up! Here are some pictures that hopefully can tell the stories..

1. 7 - 9 July 2011. A return journey of 24hours from Merbok, Kedah to Ipoh, Perak to Teluk Ramunia, Johor. A solid single driver!!! Yeah! I broke my own record!!!

This is yours truly with tiring face!

Yours truly, again! Berangan okay!!! haha

With the Bride, Kak Ira.

The d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s wedding cake!

My partner in crime, my beloved sister, Akak. This is one of the successful dangerous poses that we  took while heading back from south to north. and please noted that I was driving..hoho

2. 14 - 17 July 2011. A return journey of  many many and many hours from Merbok, Kedah to Ipoh, Perak to Gombak, Cheras, Ampang and Putrajaya. Though terrible things happened but I enjoyed my stay there. Thanks Akak, Maksu and family!

This is my little angel, Adik Kudik. We were at Pesta Floria, Putrajaya.  Maksu, Angah, Abang Chik, Azie and Akak, THANKS!!!

This is Abg Chik and his adik, Adik Kudik.

Here are Maksu and beloved children, Angah, Abg Chik and Adik Kudik.

THE KAZENS. From left: Me, Azie and Akak.

Yours truly with my partner in crime.

That's it. Now I'm back for work and I have to attend a course for these two days. Well, there are lots of things to be written and to be vomited here. I have not been posting anything for quite sometime. I miss to write again here. But , somehow, there are certain things that we should keep by ourselves. Certain things that only certain people should know and not the entire world. I am okay at the moment, I think. But I hate that things change to be upside down. However, I believe in Him. There must be something good at the end of the day.


p.s Thank You!

p.p.s. Allah jarang beri apa yang kita minta tapi Allah akan beri apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

love hurts

this is the first entry of the year.

the clock is ticking. time is running faster than i could ever thought. there is no time to turning back and regrets. it is all about moving on and getting over with. i want to be different. the brand new me. everything is just not the same anymore. the good side or the bad side it is, the matter of fact, every of it contributes to what we have and who we are, now. i want to be stronger than yesterday so that no one could see the weaknesses and the fragility of me. tomorrow is just the beggining where it will lead to various path that can be chosen to shape the future. we might be wrong in making decision yet the process of it will help us to review the way we see the world and change for the better. the world does not revolve around us solely, that is why we should not be concerned excessively with oneself by not sharing our life with people that we care and we love most. do not wait until the final minutes that we have to share with them. i am afraid that it will be too late to catch up things. appreaciate each and every of them while we can even sometimes we suffer ourselves by doing so. but believe me, the time spent with them is precious and it worth a hundred thousand miles. i know how it feels as i learn the hard way.

anyway, this is the last day of spending my quality time with dear family. it has been around three months and this is the longest semester break that i spend with my beloved family. i have been quite busy the whole break. there are lots of things to settle with but somehow it bridges the family ties within the nuclear family members as well as the extended family members. day by day, we are getting closer and closer, not that we are not closed before, but, to the extend i could sadly cry or cry happily just for small and silly things. last night was the closing dinner with dear family. and, since beloved mother's birthday is just around the corner and we might not be able to come home later, thus, we did a little birthday suprise last night. Alhamdulillah, beloved mother loves the surprise soooo much. it was rather touched and heartmelt when beloved mother did round table to kiss each of us. not just that, beloved mother accompanied me doing some stuff the whole night. we chatted, we disscussed and did things together. how wonderful motherly love is, isnt' it??.

now, it's the time. i have to face it. dare or no dare. let think positively and look forward each and every day. OH! love hurts!!!!


p.s: additional resolution, searching for my green apple. please pray for me eh!

::enough::

i just finished my final paper-sociolinguistics/sociolinguistic for language teacher- tsl 545/546...alhamdulillah, my friends and i managed to answer the paper..i guess it was because the questions just like what we have expected..but, somehow, flaws everywhere...though i finished the paper 30mins earlier, that doesn't mean im able to anwer it...huhuhu..i just hope that the marks will be ok and sufficient for me to be credited...here and now,i want to shout out loud that i had enough...after tons of activities,programs organised and hectic life for this sem (july-dis 08), i just had enough..nights and nights without proper sleeps,days and days without organized time to eat, live life like a working zombie,the assignments etc...it just enough...leave me alone..let me breath..let me re-scheduling my life..give me oppprtunity to taste the happiness of my life...i'm done..huhu...well, seems like i have another three sems to be graduated but before that i have just another sem to go for my practicum...haih~~~pretty scared already...the picture of me teaching secondary school students just...well i may say that isn't nice,maybe.xsesuwei kot...

erm,tomorow my friends and i will be attending kenduri..can't wait as we are part of the kenduri...ala2 org penting la...huhu...aha, we're expecting new housemate...hopefully that life will treated us fair for this time...

this is what my friends and i, or to be specific, i have been waiting for---WELCOME BACK BIG BRO...ANOTHER TWO FRIENDS AS WELL...---hurm i missed him a lot...and the other two...i just can't wait to see him next sem and listen to his story in australia...i just can't wait, that's for sure...love to see and hear from u...


enough...fullstop...

second chance...

It triggers me a lot on how is it feels in giving another chance to a person who had destroyed our believe, hopes and those feelings that I’m unable to mention...Before this, I don’t believe in second chance when it involves with relationship...I don’t think that we have to give him or her second chance after all the opportunities given before this he or she didn’t appreciated at all. I don’t think that I’m going to ruin my life with the same person again and again as I don’t think I’m able to handle it anymore..For me, it is the matter of forgiven but not forgotten... But, somehow, something has changed my mind, my view and believes... Maybe, he or she deserves a second chance... Or maybe we, or maybe me, deserves another chance to be happy… nothing is perfect and everyone makes mistakes… I do make mistakes... so does other people… it comes to my mind that who am I to punish others? They did mistakes, so, give them time and opportunity to redeem back… though it hard to be accepted but as long as we give a try, I think it would satisfy us no matter the results is negative or positive. Being able to breathe up until now has made me as a person… I may hurt your feeling, I’m hurt as well… I may pretend that nothing’s happened between us and I’m happy… but deep inside me, nobody knows except for HIM... let’s give another chance to the person who deserves it… hopefully, I’m going to stick with my new resolution as I’m the person who is hoping for my happiness to come… help me to find the lights…

P/s: I lost my significant ring while I was writing this entry… is it a sign for me??? Or, is it just an accidentally accident???