Relationship

I am no good in sustaining relationship(s) but I think it is nothing wrong with me. Because for me no one is. So please accept me for who I am as what I been accepting you the way you are. Peace y'all.. By the way, Hafiz showdown sangat comel.. Aawwww~~

L.O.V.E

Thanks Mya Akmal for pasting up this photo in your blog! It reminds me of those memories, love, pain, happiness that we have gone through! This picture was taken during last Raya, 2010. Fortunately we took this picture together cos it would be our last pic with Tok and Opah. Their last Aidilfitri in this world. How I miss them so much! RIP Tok (7th June 2011) and Opah (12th April 2011). Al-Fatihah.

p.s: we wont be having them around anymore. especially this raya, it would be our first raya without them. it would be different, really.

wedding bells..

Not me obviously..heheh..my bestest friends are getting married soon..quite a number of them.. I am beyond happy for them..May the union will be blessed forever! To my dear punching bag, I wish you the best for your life. May the coming marriage will make you happy eternally. Indeed, this is what I have been wishing and praying (dreaming, too)  for you. And, He listens and answers my prayers. Alhamdulillah.

Dearest bestest friends, May Allah bless you and partner for the whole of your life. Please produce lotsa cute and adorable babies so I can be their cutest aunt in the world..hehehe..


p.s:please pass me the baton and the aura(s) as well..hehe..

blood donation

I have donated my blood again. And, this is the third time and still counting. I wish to make blood donation as my interest because by donating my blood will help me to help others. This is the least I could do, one small tiny thing.

Every time I donated my blood, it reminds me of my atok. His sufferings. His pain. If donating blood is painful what about those people who undergo dialysis every alternate days just like my atok. I believe he suffered a lot in those days. Imagine that the kidney is not function anymore and you need to use machine which is located outside the body. The machine will be functioned just like your kidney to purify and remove waste from your blood. just like the process of taking out your blood, cleanse and return it back to your body. The process took about 2 to 4 hours depends on individual. Imagine! My atok once held my hand tightly! And during his final days, I can see how painful it is to do that process. His body almost could not stand the process and rejected it. He had to stop during the second hour where he should uundergo a process of 4 hours.

I am glad that he is not going to suffer the pain anymore. I could not stand to see him in pain. InsyaAllah, I will donate my blood as long as I can. And every time I donate my blood, I will remember my atok so that I can realize where I am and where should I stand. Tok, you will always be in my heart. I pray that Tok and Opah will be seeing each other and be placed amongst the solehin. Al-Fatihah. Amin.

p.s: my grandpa has just passed away on 7th June 2011, almost 2 months after my grandma passed away, 12th April 2011. Tok and Opah died on the same day which is Tuesday and almost at the same time 6.50ish in the morning. They are destined to be together until the end of their lives. (sehati sejiwa, sehidup semati)

p.p.s: 52 is  my Opah (73years old) and 55 is my Otak (75 years old). side by side!

perasaan macam terharu..

bile students bgtau yang dia dok tunggu nak jumpe kite. siap tunggu kat kereta sebab itu sure tempat yang kite akan tuju. cuma nya jodoh itu belum ada atas sebab-sebab aral yang melintang. waktu dorang tunggu pun adalah waktu kelas yakni maknanya waktu sedang mengajar. pukul 5 petang.

Aww! sangat la terharu bile students yang kita dah tak ajar ada inisiatif nak jumpa. oh! ye 5 ptang pon masih berada dalam kelas kan? sebab sem ini jadual sangat padat. malam pon ada kelas ganti lagi. hahaha.

BERUSAHA!!!

happy

Alhamdulillah. I am beyond happy for my students. How i miss them so much! Though the semester has just started, I do not have the same feeling as I had in previous semesters. Changing is not my cup of tea. By the way, I am happy because most of my students manage to get Band 4 for their MUET. Alhamdulillah. They did a great job, they put extra effort and He pays real good for them. When the students thanked me, I feel happy that at least I have contributed something for them, one small little thing. Though I know I was only facilitating them and be there when they needed me. After all, everything was not under my control. They believe in it, they work hard on it and they get what they want. I hope they can continue their degree in Law. My prayers will always be with all of you. i miss you all. =)