*escapism*

In another more or less eight hours, I will be presenting my paperwork to be approved. In other words, I will have to defend my paperwork; the objectives, the budgets yada yada... To spice it up, I am also will be presenting on behalf of the other groups as well.. Yet, I am doing nothing where I have supposedly preparing for it.. What am I doing here? haha.. Let me tell you.. Well, this is what we call as escapism.. What is escapism?? Again, let me tell you, escapism is mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation as an escape from the unpleasant aspects of life. That shows that I am trying to RUN AWAY from the reality to be able to breath. Mind you, I am not chicken, coward or any related terms to it. But, I just want some time to be away. I have lots and lots and lots to do. I am hoping and praying that I am able to deal with it one by one. This is the final semester, thus, I have to enjoy it to the fullest.. ooOOooYeahhhh *shouting while chicken dancing..ngehehe...*

p.s: let's join me singing and dancing... weee~~~

Friendship Contest Cik Mar

penganjur nya adalah Cik Mar. mari klik2.

• gambar mestilah gambar korang dgn mmber2 korang.xkesah la brpe org pun tp jgn r smpai 1clas plak...hehe (nnti dh mcm classmate contest plak)

• paling penting msti original ok,jgn copy kt tenet plak....klu nk edit2 pun suke ati la tp msti menampakkn "FRIENDSHIP" tu.
  

• hah!!! lg 1 plz la letak banner kt atas ni ye kt blog korang,bleh mempopularkan cik mar&kwn2 !!!hahaha (sengal je bunyi) xtually tuk meramaikn blogger tuk join,senang ckit nmpk.
  

• pastu klu nk follow blog cik mar ni, follow la.tiada paksaan ok. tuk memudahkan korang tau keputusan & persaingannye nnti better r follow,senang nk tau any progress about this contest.

• jz 1 picture je kay,kang terlalu rambang mata cik mar tuk memilih...hehehe
  

MAKA, gambar taruhan ku adalah:

tadaa~

gambar ini sudah berusia hampir enam tahun. gambar ini diambil sempena setahun kami bersama. ini adalah antara momen-momen indah dalam hidup bersahabat. mereka ini antara manusia-manusia yang mengajar aku erti hidup. semoga persahabatan kita berkekalan hendaknya. Amin.

p.s: cik mar, amacam gmabr ni?? COMOT tapi COMEL kan??hakhakhak...ini bukan gambar kelas tau..haha.. :)

kalau kau mahu lari, sila lari jauh-jauh

I have been keeping this for quite some time. I think this is the best time to let it out. I have had enough. I want to shout but I can't. I want to yell, but I could not. Thus, I am writing it out. So, please bare with me. Well for me, relationship is a strong word. It can be defined in broad views and different perspectives. Frankly writing, relationship can be a connection or association with anyone or anything. And, again it reflects with our Hablumminannas Hablumminallah. Through out twenty two years plus plus of living, I cannot run from relationship. It is there and everywhere surrounds us. Where can we hide if there is the One up there who is watching us all the time.

I am not a good person nor you. Everybody makes mistakes as to err is human. I have been through relationship's problems here and then as well. But, can we just let bygones be bygones?? If you do not like me or hate me, please ignore me or at least ask me to go away. But please do not hurt me like this. By putting me in despair and confusion, it would not settle anything. Yes, I am blaming you for this. You are the one who promise me the world and when you broke it down, you promise me again that you will be there for me in any situations. And, only death can separate us. But now, where are you?? For countless time, you were not there and indeed you keep on running away.

For you my dear, you know who you are, I do not want to lose you. You are one of my 'bestest' friends. You know me well. You were always there if I needed you. And, you know when is the right time that I need you most. But, why are treating me like this? Even worse, why are you keep on running away?? Don't you feel tired? Fine, fine, I am not blaming you, it is just a feeling of regrets that you are not being there for me. I know it sounds selfish but you are selfish too.hehe..

p.s: it's just a piece of my thoughts. forgive me.

Tolong Jangan Jaga Tepi Kain Orang Boleh Tak??

Are you aware of everything that is happening around you?? Or are you choose not to know because for you people who knows everything is just like "tolong jangan jaga tepi kain orang bole tak" before you realized that not everyone is wearing kain at the moment. They might be wearing pants or maybe they are not wearing anything at all. So, how it is applicable to label them as 'jaga tepi kain orang?' okay.okay. Straight to the point people! Basically, if you are lack of knowledge or you are unaware of something or chooses to subjectively ignore information, that is what we call as IGNORANCE.

Do you think being ignorance is a good thing to do?? Well, for me it is not. By being ignorance sometimes you tend to hurt others unintentionally as you are not aware of their feeling etceteras. Let's see from other perspectives people. Okay. What if, your friend acted weirdly and you know something is not right. However, being you with your ignorance attitude, you did not attend to your friend's need as you do not want to 'jaga tepi kain dia'. And, the next day he died!!!! What would you feel??? Don't you feel guilty?? Aha. That's sound too tragic I guess. Okay. Let's find another example that is not that tragic. em em em....

Okay. This is for real, i guess. Let me come clean before any of you pointing fingers at me. Frankly, I am being IGNORANCE at times as well. Please do not blame me. It is easier said than done, right?? I know that ignorance it not a bliss but somehow I keep on repeating the same thing. Case in point is assigments my dear. I know to procrastinate is not good for your health but somehow I do it all the time. I tend to ignore my assignments and that shows that I am IGNORANCE too. Omaigod, I am condemning myself. *run away and hide*

Well, i am not writing this about you or even you. I am just writing about me. I have been neglecting my study, my assignments, my work etceteras all these while. I only have another week to complete everything before I can happily be at home with my beloved family this coming CNY holiday. But, even so, I did not do anything yet. After being IGNORANCE, now I have tons and tons to do. It is STRESSFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.... I do not know whether I am able to settle everything on the dot or not.. and, this is why I believe that IGNORANCE is NOT BLISSFUL. Thank You. :)

p.s: I have too many assignments yet I don't feel like doing it.

p.s.s: how many 'OKAY' did i used?? haha *tanda-tanda stress la tu*

p.s.s.s: Let's show some love by not being IGNORANCE by helping 2-year-old Adik Ammar Danish who has suffered from Patent Ductus Arteriosus (PDA) since birth. He really needs RM12,000 to pay the deposit for the surgery to close PDA. "Hulurkan Tangan, Ringankan Beban"

Nasi Lemak for Sale!!!

two heads are better than one? is it so? i guess sometimes it may be true and other times it may not be applicable though..what crap am i writing here..i guess the mind is not fully function anymore. i need my beautiful sleep..but before that, let me share the experiences we had gone through today. i think i have mentioned before that my friends and i are concentrating on our final projects at the moment. we are required to manage a seminar on professional development. in order to do so, we have to collect our own fund. thus, what we are doing right now, we are striving our best in the fund raising program. we sell t-shirt and button badges as one of our ways in raising fund. it is quite an achievement yet we still have to sell the t-shirt more and more. besides that, EVERY WEDNESDAY, my friends and i are selling yummilicious NASI LEMAK at very low price and it is fantastic. after the hard work for the whole day, Alhamdulillah syukur rezeki menyebelahi kami. we managed to sell quite a number today. though the process was quite energy sucker, but at the end of the day we can proudly smile that we managed to do it. nothing is imposible. we have to be positive. and we have to bare in mind that nothing comes easily without any efforts to grab it. congrats on the selling dear friends. we have lots of things to do but with great teamwork, anything is possible. félicitation et bonne chance!!!

p.s: i have tons to write and share, but i just can't at the moment.. i need my momentum back~

Fair and Lovely

"Berlaku adil itu adalah meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya"

and, i am not being fair to someone and maybe to you...

i am being selfish all the way without even trying to put myself into your shoes...

i am cruel not to think about your feelings but only mine...

i am bad for not being there for you...

sorry my dear friend...

i am once again not a good friend for you...

p.s: maaf tidak akan mampu menghakis duka. dan aku telah berlaku tidak adil kerana tidak meletakkan kamu ditempat yang seharusnya..