pre-graduation

hehe.. I am yet arrived Gombak and tomorrow is my graduation day. After 5 years of studying, this is the peak out of it. This is only the beginning of the real world which is the working world. So, here I have uploaded some sneak peak of tomorrow's pictures - the pre-graduation pictures. =)

dearest mother

dearest sister

dearest bro

dearest lil sis

kau memang senseless

Kau suka tengok aku bersusah-payah kan?
Kau suka tengok aku terhegeh-hegeh kan?
Kau suka tengok aku pentingkan kau dari yang lain-lain kan?
Kau suka kan?



Bukan balasan yang aku pinta, cukup hanya sekadar ingatan.

nak feeling2 pagi sabtu

tetibe je teringat lagu ni while tengok korean series yang sangat cliche. ala, cliche2 pon aku dok hadap jugak kan..hahaha. well, esok da kene keje balik, jadi apa lagi, mari penuhkan hari anda!!!

Morning thoughts

It seems like people would do anything by any means just for love. Why is that so? For me, as I am still figuring it out, I do not know the reasons either. Are they just doing it to get the so called true love? Are they that desperate? Or maybe it is a sign of purity, sincerity, love and gift to all of us.

Well, I think I prefer the latest rather than the rest of it.


Love, Love!

PHOTO ENTRY ii: 2 important person, 2 important events and lots of love on the same day

Event 2
Akak's Graduation Day

21 November 2010

UNISEL Bestari Jaya, Selangor.

Emak dan kakak.

Kami seperti sangat kerdil bersama buku-buku bersaiz gergasi.

My love.

Le Familia.

Her friends.

Dan beberapa momen indah yang hanya mampu di'capture' di minda sahaja. ^___________^

PHOTO ENTRY i: 2 important person, 2 important events and lots of love on the same day

Event 1
Napisah's Wedding Day
21 November 2010
Taman Alkaff, Ipoh Perak.

Akad.

Upacara membatalkan wudhuk.

Bersalaman buat kali pertama.

Sweet kan??

Hantaran

Fare, Mak, Me, Liyana and Hani.

Sufi, Fazirul and Safarizan.

Bride and Groom.

Mereka lagi.

Kami+Liyana yang snap pic.

Happy faces!

Will be waiting for our turn next =)

The homestay: Shanana Homestay.

The Guest Book - I made it. hehe.

2 important person, 2 important events and lots of love on the same day!

When we can only plan and the Almighty decides for us, everything seems to be possible. All that we can do is just raise your hand and pray. May everything will be fine and works its way. InsyaAllah, things will be sailing smooth. In my case, I had two important events in a single day. These two important events were involved with two important person as well as lots of family and friends. The situation was not that good which made me suffer a little. I had to think and consider lots of feelings as well as mine. I want to be there for both ceremony. How sad I am if I had to sacrifice one of them and I am pretty sure that I will regret it all the times.

But, Alhamdulillah, with Allah wills, I managed to be there for both events. All the hard work, pray, and emotional imbalance were paid off. Even though I can spent only a little time with them and a bit exhausted, but being there for them made me feel happy, at least. Congratulations Napisah and Shahri on your wedding day. Congratulations my big yet small in size dear sister, Mya Akmal on your graduation. May Allah bless all of you. Now, I am counting days for my wedding  graduation day. Hehehe. Another 2 days. Let's celebrate!!! oh! when will my turn to get married eh?? haha.

So here, I would like to convey my heartfelt gratitude to Mr. Bestfriend for his kindness and concern. Thanks for accompanying me all the way even though I know you were really, really, and really tired. Thank you for feeding me with good food and good memories. You are such a wonderful man with a kind heart and a good soul. May Allah bless you!


Not to forget, I want to show tons of appreciation to my Miss Bestie for being there for me through my thick and thin moment. Thanks for spending your precious time to listen to my childish cry like a mad woman. Thanks to all your advises and concern. I owe you big time! May Allah bless you!

Most importantly, gazillion of thanks to my beloved family for understanding and supporting me and all my craziness. Without all of you, I would not able to make it. May Allah bless all of you!

Last but not least, to all of you who were there. THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!



p.s: this entry supposed to be a photo entry, however, as I have written like a lot, so I think I have to post the photos in the next entry. Enjoy!!!

p.s.s: ada rasa macam tulis ACKNOWLEDGEMENT  untuk thesis la pulak kan. ngek!hehe




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my new semester

Alhamdulillah, I have started my new semester.I am seeing the new faces and the former students as well. Basically, for the past two three days, it went well. The students, the class, the lessons and every single thing. I hope to see lots of interesting progress day by day.


May Allah bless.

dugaan itu datang agar kita terus percaya dan bangkit semula

Alhamdulillah, kalau air pun mampu untuk tenang semula setelah dilanda ribut, inikan hati manusia yang InsyaAllah boleh dikawal oleh minda. Aku sedang bangkit dan bangun semula. Mudah-mudahan kekuatan itu akan terus kekal jika tidak pun mampu bertahan selama yang boleh. Aku harus yakin ini semua ada hikmahnya. Mungkin aku sudah terlalu jauh, dan Dia mahu memanggil aku semula dengan cara ini. Aku harus redha.

Buat kamu-you-know-who, maaf kerana menggusarkan hati dan fikiran anda. Terima kasih kerana berada di sisi di saat-saat aku perlukan sokongan. Sesungguhnya keberadaan mu telah banyak membantu. Terima kasih sekali lagi kerana membuka mata dan hatiku. Rasa nak peluk kuat-kuat! Doakan aku kuat okay!

Buat kamu-yang-insticnt-sangat-kuat, jangan risau. Bila aku sudah sedia, akan aku khabarkan berita. Terima kasih kerana mengambil berat. Doakan untuk aku juga okay! I love you!

Buat kamu, keprihatinan dan perhatian kamu sangat-sangat menyentuh hati. Sangat sukar untuk ditukar ganti, lebih-lebih lagi menjadi taruhan untuk apa yang tidak pasti. Semoga kamu sentiasa diberkati dan dipermudahkan segala urusan duniawi dan ukhrawi.

Yang lain-lain aku serahkan padaNya untuk tentukan. Semoga segalanya yang baik-baik sahaja.

seribu tahun

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini
Biar berputar ke arah selatan ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia

Relaku mengejarmu seribu batu jauh lagi
Tapi benarkah kaki ku-kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini
Biar membisu burung bersiulan terlelah gelombang lautan
Ku masih setia

Adakah engkau tahu… ini cinta
Adakah engkau pasti… ini untuk selama-lamanya

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini… yeah…
Biar berputar utara selatan ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia

Jangan putus harapan… sedia setia……

Kelip-kelip disangka api,
Kalau api mana puntungnya?,
Hilang ghaib di sangka mati,
Kalau mati mana kuburnya?

mixed mode sama tak dengan mixed mood...

The title seems like I'm pursuing my masters degree whereas it is nothing to do with it. I have lots and lots of things in my mind that I do not know how to let it go. It is annoyingly disturbing me mentally, emotionally as well as physically. I have decided on something when another thing happened which makes me to have my second thought. Confusing isn't it?? I, myself do not know how to explain this.

I keep on thinking why on earth this thing is happening to me. And, I do not know what to do.

I have lots of things to write but I just do not know how and what to write.

I forget things easily nowadays and I am very worried about it.

I feel like hugging my friends at the moment.

In fact, I have been writing this entry from afternoon and I can only publish it at night.

Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me, ooh, baby

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe, I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because
I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


-Celine Dion-

Eidul Adha

Happy Eidul Adha everyone. May it brings lots of happiness to shine our days ahead. Basically, today should be a happy one instead it is not for me. At least I think so. I do not feel it at all. It just that some people are not considerate for others' feeling or condition. I am very tired, sleepy and not in the mood. I know, I know that it should not be happened as it will ruin your day. But, I could not help it.

I drove back from Kedah to Ipoh for almost 7 hours yesterday. The journey should not be more than 3 hours during off-peak with 100 mph. But, as everybody is heading back to celebrate raya with beloved family, the road was packed with lots and lots of cars. There were many cars need to stop along the road. Alhamdulillah mine was okay and we were safely arrived home near midnight. I was very tired, really am. Straight from office, went home for a while to pack things and headed back. Jammed. Packed. Tired. Crammed. Stressed.

So, with those feelings and conditions, I was hoping for crop of the cream. Sadly, the vise versa happened. I am quite frustrated. I waited and waited and waited. I want to celebrate, go here and there as well as do lots of things but I just could not. I think I have to learn to be more grateful. Do not demand too much or else it will turn you down. I want to breath happily and please let me be.


p.s: Forgive me for being inconsiderate as well.

p.p.s: Your voice makes me feel calm. thank you.

Perkahwinan

Pernikahan menyingkap tabir rahsia,

isteri yang kamu nikahi,

tidaklah semulia Khadijah,

tidaklah setaqwa Aisyah.

Pun tidaklah setabah Fatimah,

justeru itu isteri hanyalah wanita akhir zaman yang punya cita-cita,

menjadi solehah,

pernikahan ataupun perkahwinan, 

mengajar kita kewajipan bersama.

menginsafkan kita perlunya iman dan taqwa,

untuk belajar meniti sabar dan redha,

kerana memiliki isteri yang tidak sehebat mana,

justeru kamu akan tersentak dari alpa.

Kamu bukanlah Rasulullah S.A.W.

Pun bukanlah Saidina Ali Karramallah Wajhah.

Cuma kamu suami akhir zaman berusaha menjadi soleh.

I feel good na na na na~

I'm still not sleeping. I have tons and tons of work to do. Serve me right as I am the slave of procrastination. Blame me, not!hehe. And yes, I AM STILL NERVOUS! IT'S KILLING ME!

By the way,

As the previous entry entitled SAYA TIDAK STRESS!, it shows and leads to that condition. Whereas, I should have been saying that I feel good, I am okay, I can do it etceteras. Thanks to Mr. Izzat Rahman for making me realize that there is always hope and the power of mind really works.


As for now,

I FEEL GOOOODDD!!



p.s: pray hard for tomorrow.

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

SAYA TIDAK STRESS!

JOM SAME-SAME BACA MANTRA DI ATAS. JOM LA, JOM!!!

SERIOUS SAYA TIDAK STRESS!!!

TIDAK!!!!!!!!

nak propose orang jugak la!

Okay, aku tengah nebes ni. sangat nebes okay!! cumanya yang aku pelik lagi menghairankan, walaupun aku nebes, tapi aku dok ngadap laptop and tv sejak dari pagi tadi. takde la pulak effort nak bace buku and buat preparation untuk menghadapi hari yang menggentarkan jiwa pada esok hari. ESOK ADALAH HARI YANG SANGAT PENTING U'OLLS! hari apakah itu, jeng jeng jeng. nantikan waktu yang sesuai untuk diberitahu. huhu. sebabnya aku takot kang dah heboh satu malaya tapi hasilnya mendukacitakan..huhu

by the way, back to the main point, aku rasa macam nak propose orang la pulak. especially lepas tengok video save the date si penyanyi yang suka berkaki ayam yakni cik artis elyana yang akan bernikah pada 19 november dan majlis resepsinya pada 20 november sehari sebelum my best friend's wedding. wee~

Em, kalau dia boleh propose encik bakal suami, maka aku pon mesti boleh jugak kan?? em. em. em. siapalah yang beruntung yang akan dilamar oleh aku eh. Serious aku nak lamar orang, siapa mahu join????


Sambil-sambil tu, mari lihat video save the date elyana disini:

http://mediamalaya.com/video-elyana-ajak-kahwin/


p.s: agaknya dia sudi tak kalau aku lamar?? tet! hehe

Pengalaman masam-masam manis

Setelah bertahun ku jaga dan ku simpan, akhirnya terlepas ia.



Sudah pasti takkan mampu dilupakan.



Setiap pelosok dan sosok dicemari.



huawaaaaa!

*PhotoEntry* Tunangan Orang

As I mentioned in the previous entry, I was busy preparing the hantaran for my friend's sister. So here I will let the photos guide you through out the process and the ceremony. Enjoy!

I was too focus on making the bakul buah and that thing in shocking pink is actually a towel.

The Tapaks

The Tapaks again

Fruitful Basket

Tepak Sireh

Cookies

Bunga Rampai

Sireh Junjung

Fruitful Basket

The hantarans made by me.

Ours.

Ours.

Ida

Alhamdulillah. She's engaged!

Me with cute lil creature, Aisyah.

The Rings

Their's.

I am very happy that they like it so much. It feels like all the effort thrown is all worth it. When we see people happy with our works, it will satisfy us a lot. Thank you for the experience and the good feelings. Alhamdulillah. Looking forward and pray hard for my own time. hehe.

Renungan bersama

Jika kamu memancing ikan...
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu...
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia
semula ke dalam air begitu saja...
Karena ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya,
ketajaman mata kailmu

dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.


Begitulah juga...


Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN
kepada seseorang...
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU,
hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya...
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja...
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu,
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN 
segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu...


Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya 
dan janganlah menganggap ia
begitu teguh... cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu...
Apabila sekali ia retak...
tentu sukar untuk kamu menambalnya semula...
Akhirnya ia dibuang...


Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya

mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi...
Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,
TERIMALAH seadanya...
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya

dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa...
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa.

Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN

bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya...
Akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA

boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga
ke akhirnya....


Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi,
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu...
Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, 
cuba mencari makanan yang lain...
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan...
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi 
dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya...
Kamu akan menyesal.


Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan,
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU...
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA 
apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL...


- Artikel iluvislam.com
DR.FADZILAH KAMSAH




p.s: jika kamu tahu apa isi hati ku, pastinya kamu tahu
betapa deritanya aku menanggung segala rasa. 


p.s.s: jangan beri harapan yang bisa menghancurkan.