im enjoying every bits of my life

There will be ups and downs in life, that's for sure. It is somehow spices up our life. We learn things not only in school but education is a life long process. Those experiences that we have been through since kids up until today are priceless. Nothing could be compared and no amount can be paid.

We live our life not only for the sake of ourselves but for others and the rest of living things. Our actions will give impacts for them as well. If we made mistakes, people will blame us but let them know that we live our life by making mistakes so that we can learn to improve to be better man.

We may hate others, blame others but at the same time we may love and care about others. I was angry at this one particular person, but after thoroughly think, argue, debate about it, I believe that there is no point to do so. Why can I just forgive and forget. People make mistakes. That person may not have the intention to do this or that, or maybe it is in his or her blood. Maybe I am the one who is over sensitive, so why bother to put my heart in pain. Thus, I have decided, to ask for apology and to lead my life happily. I do not want to think about works, office or assignments yet. But I am trying to relate those works, office and assignments with stress-free condition, please help me beautiful peoplleeee!!!!

No pain, No gain!



p.s: I still have to work until Wednesday. No cuti-cuti for me...uhuks!

Barbican Beer

picture taken from here

Anyone up for a drink? Beer maybe? Oh! I mean Barbican Beer..

Okay, first of all, I don't drink and drive. Wait! wait! I DO NOT drink at all, obviously. It is forbidden in the religion. So, what's up with the Barbican Beer???

Well, according to Mr.Google, Barbican Beer is non-alcoholic drink. Which means, there is no alcohol in it and when there's no alcohol, you can drink it as much as you want. It is made from Malt. Okay, now maybe some of you wondering what is malt? Malt is grain, usually barley that has been allowed to sprout, used chiefly in brewing and distilling. (taken from answer.com).

However, there are arguments that Barbican Beer contains alcohol. It is somewhere along the process, the concentrate used contains alcohol. So according  to Islam, when there's alcohol, we are not allowed to drink. But, there is also opinion stated that alcohol below 0.5% can be accepted and not categorized as haram. The alcoholic strength of beer on the other hand is usually 4% to 6% alcohol by volume (ABV), but is may ne less than 1% or more than 20%, and at least as high as 55%. (taken from wikipedia.org)

Barbican Beer can be spotted everywhere in Malaysia as it is non-alcoholic drink and anyone can buy and drink. So now, what say you?? Okay, before you made up your mind please read this "Arguments on the Halal Haram of Soft Drinks and Alcoholic Drink ( Barbican Beer) by The Mujlisul Ulama of South Africa" and " Bukan Semua Alkohol Haram (Utusan Online)"

As for me, I don't prefer to drink. Thank you.


Maybe we can ask Ustaz Love to answer regarding this matter. =)

picture taken from here

Berperang

Luka-luka dan penuh darah.
Bukan senang mahu menang.
Payah sungguh mempertahankan.
Letih berlari mahu bertatih.
Mengalir-ngalir airmata terasa di hati.
Ini perang bukan sebarang perang.
Tempur dengan bukan sebarang musuh.
Medan perang di dasar hati.
Bersenjatakan akal dan jiwa sebati.
Kalau menang tiada trofi.
Kalah pun tidak menjamin erti.
Sekali termasuk, selamanya derita.
Pandai buat, pandai tanggung.


p.s: sedang berbolak-balik, mencari erti, berlawan rasa, mengerti logik!

kecik hati

em. em. em. kecik ati with no reasons. ahaha ada reason sebenarnya. tak baik kan nak kecik-kecik hati ni. nanti hati rosak sebab banyak sangat membebankan hati. bukan aku nak menuntut hak lagipun aku takde hak pun nak dituntut ke hape ke. cume at least treat me well, the way I deserved to be treated, tu pun susah sangat ke? berat sangat ke nak buat. kalau aku boleh buat, kenapa orang lain tak boleh buat. FINE! nanti mesti ada yang kata kita buat sesuatu bukan sebab harapkan balasan atau orang lain buat yang sama macam mana kita buat. tak ikhlas la bla bla bla..what ever!

the point is, i am frustrated. over small and silly thing. but it means a lot!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

tolong jangan bagi jawapan yang kurang pandai

kalau kau jenis on off pakai tudung, lantak kau lah. kau punya suka. kau tau mana baik buruk bak kata kau. tapi tolong la jangan bagi kenyataan yang memalukan kau balik. paham tak?

kalau kau seorang public figure, lagilah kau kene jaga kata-kata. jangan biar orang nilai kau kurang pandai. kalau kau bukak tudung sebab watak, dan kau bukan diri kau dalam cerita itu. tapi hanya komitmen watak. perlu kah buat statement?


"saya tak boleh nak shut up dorang punya mouth?"


macam-macam.

Slang

it is not a dialect. it is new informal terms used and accepted by the society. it can be used in speaking as well as writing.

Brunch = breakfast + lunch 

Smog = smoke + fog

Grool = great + cool

LOL = laughing out loud / laugh out loud

ROFL = rolling on the floor laughing

TQVM = thank you very much

jk = just kidding

imy = i miss you

ily = i love you

poyo = self boasting

blurr = ignorance / being ignorant of something

sengal = stupid / silly

hanjing = disgust / dislike 

fuyoh! = outstanding

and there are lots more. go google if you wanna more.

today is better than yesterday

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah. I wish to have peace of mind and soul yesterday, and today Allah grants me with calm and peaceful mind. It makes me believe that when we put effort or in my case extra effort, InsyaAllah the outcome will be a blast.

Dear kids, can you please behave just like today. I will be extremely thankful for it. Let's enjoy the limited time that we have and hope for the best for your future undertakings.

"Miss, thank you for the ilmu"
"Assalamualaikum Miss"


There's big smile from ear to ear on my face =))

Sakit Hati

Makin lama kesihatan jantung boleh jadi semakin kritikal. Semakin lama simpan rasa, semakin sakit di dada. Sabar ye hati, sabar. Pelik bila tengok perangai anak-anak remaja masa kini. Mereka bakal pemimpin masa depan. Tapi inikah perangai selayaknya pemimpin? Di mana hormat? Di mana bahasa? Di mana susila? Apa sudah tiada bezakah antara kita? Bukan status yang aku minta atau tagih simpati cukup hanya sekadar hormat menghormati.

Kalau ini sikap anda, jangan pelik bila nanti ada orang bersikap begitu dengan anda semula. Setiap kali berjumpa, setiap kali juga aku tahan rasa, tahan derita, tahan kata dan tahan telinga. Sabar duhai hati!!


Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan iman, tingkatkan kesabaran, dan ketabahan hati =))

sedia membantu

Kalau penat, segar jadinya.

Kalau ngantuk, mata ditahan.

Kalau sibuk, luangkan masa.

Kalau tak sihat, makan ubat sihatkan.

Kalau clueless, buat-buat tahu.

Kalau malas, rajinkan diri.

Memang akan sentiasa ada dan sedia membantu.

Haish! kau yang pilih kau tanggunglah akibatnya.

Demi kau.

p.s: Aku rajin pun sebab kau jugak!

Oh! my Broadband

I am frustrated of the current connection, I mean my internet connection. It is such an annoyance! When you pay like a lot of money on it but the product is not satisfying at all. Yes, I am using the BLUE broadband which I have to pay more or less RM104/month. Imagine I have to spend HUNDRED ringgit per month but I just can use it best at night-early morning around 1AM-5AM. <---- this is my sleeping time, I need my beauty sleep!!!

I am working uolss, and studying at the same time. I have tons of works to do and lots of researches to be read, thus I need good network connection so that I can go through the websites/information without any hassles. Seriously I do understand the situation. I know the population here consists of students and most of them are using the same BLUE broadband. I understand the situation where most of us are using the internet at the same time and using the same connection. And, this is the reason behind all of the inconveniences.

BUT, dear network provider, if you have noticed the increasing number of users in this remote area, could you please do something for us. It is for your own benefits as well. You see, it's win-win situation here. Or, do you want us to terminate and change to the other network? I heard they are promoting theirs at the moment. I am desperately in need of good internet connection. I need to do my work as well as to get in touch with dear friends (oh blogging is included as well..hehe)

It's getting worst y'all!!!!

A Gentle Reminder

selalu kan bila kita da buat sesuatu and nak patah balik sangat payah. walau sudah janji pada diri sendiri juga pada orang lain, kebarangkalia untuk berulang sangat tinggi. mungkin solusinya tak perlu hebah2 kot. nanti orang kata cakap tak serupa bikin. =))

p.s: takut kene makan dek kata-kata sendiri.huhu

GATAL

oh! oh! tidak!!! kenapa lately ni mata gatal-gatal? tapi tak merah pon. pastu mesti air mata mengalir-ngalir especially mata belah kiri. sedih sangat ke aku? atau sadis sangat kah kehidupan aku??

ouh!! stresss!

those days with my beloved friends

I flipped through my photos during my teenage years. it sounds like I am too old la pulak. but the fact is I am still young lady but not gaga-ing for sure. The photos were taken during my uni years. Being melancholy as always, that's me..haha.

Well, I miss those days. I miss the friends. I miss the house mates. I miss the best friends. I miss the cat fights that we had. I miss the arguments. I miss the karaoke-ing. I miss the jalan-jalan cuci mata. I miss the makan-makan. I miss studying late at night. I miss studying at fast food restaurants. I miss jalan kaki together. I miss the jalan2-to-go-to-pasar malam. I miss the part kene tahan dengan polis. I miss those sharing is caring moment where we talked and shared stories like there's no tomorrow. I miss sharing foods together. I miss surprising them on their birthday. I miss watching movies with them. I miss organizing/going or anything related to programs/seminar with them. I miss stalking people together. I miss lepak2 at kedai makan.....and the list goes on.....but most of all, I miss being near to them and  I miss those moments wholeheartedly.

I feel like putting those photos in this entry but I know that it would not be enough. There are lots of them which I couldn't able to pick the best as all of them are the best photos. I have few friends and my circle of friends are limited but I am glad that up until today, my circle of friends consists of those people who can lead me to the right path of life. I might went to the wrong side during my younger days but He loves me I think that He leads me to my beautiful companions I have at the moment. Alhamdullillah and Thank You Allah.

Each of you has your own impacts towards my life and I am grateful to be given the opportunity to be one of your friends. I just want you to know that whatever it is, you'll be my best friends forever.

"kawan ketawa senang nak tukar ganti tapi kawan menangis yang ada saat susah dan senang sukar dicari dan ganti" --- my reminder to myself.

Thank you my dear!

Thank you dear.

Bila hati tidak tenang dan merindu, dia pon tiba dengan gelak tawa. sungguh telepati. 

he has just made my day. 

mode: Bercinta by Faizal Tahir.

lelaki tidak tahu tanggungjawab?

Betul ke? atau ianya cuma tuduhan semata-mata. Bukan semua lelaki tidak bertanggungjawab, itu kita perlu faham dan semat dalam minda.Cuma bak kata pepatah kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga. Kerana segelintir mereka, habis satu kaum orang perkatakan. Lelaki sepatutnya seorang yang memimpin, seorang yang mendidik dan membentuk sesebuah keluarga. Maka kalau pincang ketuanya, bergoyahlah sesebuah institusi.

Cuba kita lihat sekelililing, ada lelaki yang meletakkan sepenuhnya tanggungjawab di pundak sang isteri. Si isteri lah yang bekerja, si isteri juga yang membayar segala bil utiliti seperti air, elektrik, telefon, sekolah anak-anak, internet dan kalau ada astro pon isteri jugak yang bayarkan. Si isteri yang bekerja jugalah yang menguruskan rumah tangga. Makan pakai anak, sekolah agama dan sekolah kebangsaan. Habis, di mana kedudukan sang suami? goyang kaki dan menyalahkan takdir? 

Ada juga lelaki yang tak tahu nak cari duit dan mengharapkan dari orang lain. Kalau kita berada di satu tahap, kita kene tahu di mana kemampuan kita. Bezakan antara kemahuan dan kehendak. Bukan semberono membeli dan memiliki segala yang dimahukan. Kemudian, bila sudah kekeringan mulalah meminta dari ibu bapa atau kawan-kawan. Sampai bila mahu begitu? Lagi parah kalau sudah berkahwin dimana tugas dan segala tanggungjawab harus dipikul sendiri. Di mana integriti anda kalau anda masih meminta jasa ibu bapa untuk menampung kehidupan? Sepatutnya inilah masa anda membahagiakan mereka. Anda sedarkah?

Bila keadaan meruncing, mula lah mencari sesiapa untuk dipinjam wang. Anda sedarkah bahawa anda perlu bangkit dan tunjukan kejantanan anda dengan kemampuan sendiri dan bukan hanya berpaut dan bergantung sahaja. 

Kalau pun anda mampu dari segi kewangan, ada pula yang tidak tahu tanggungjawab dalam segi lain. Bagi yang sudah berkahwin, jangan ingat anda boleh lepaskan segala tanggungjawab pada sang isteri. Bantu mereka, give and take. Ini tidak, semua kerja rumah isteri buat, isteri jugak kerja cari duit. Pandai bina masjid, pandai lah bertanggungjawab!

Kalau anda rasa entri ini bias sebab datang dari tulisan seorang perempuan, anda boleh cuba baca tulisan seorang lelaki berkenaan ini. Kemudian anda tepuk dada, tanya minda.

JADILAH ANAK JANTAN oleh Norden Mohamed.

Self Reward.

Believe me if you love yourself please and please give reward. It is called as self reward. It will help you to perform better the next time around. The case is if you are forcing yourself too much in order to perform or completing a task. Self reward can be divided into two types. The first type is verbal reward. This type of reward need no money to spend on. What you have to do is just a little pat on your shoulder after you have completed your work. Praise yourself as well. For example, when you have finished doing your homework, you can just pat you shoulder and praise yourself "Good Job! or Well Done!".

The other type is concrete reward or I prefer to say it is more materialistic reward. Forgive me for the terms, I have to read more I guess in order to find the correct term. But this kind of reward is more or less you have to use money. As you have put a lot of efforts in completing your given task i.e: assignments, you can motivate yourself to do better next time by taking a break. What I mean by taking a break is you may need to rest for a while before you start doing another work. Maybe you are going to ask me, what's about money that I hav mentioned just now. Okay, money comes in when you are relaxing, for sure you will need it in order to do something else. Oh, by the way TIME IS MONEY! Ahaha. Actually, for me, I like to reward myself by buying something for myself. It will not necessarily to be expensive okay. Chocolate, ice-cream, or magazines are just enough to make me happy. And, I need a proper time-break. That's all.

According to Bob Fancher ( I do not know the year published but here the link, you can read up more) self reward is a powerful tool to motivate us.  Self-rewards have at least three good effects: They relax us, give us confidence, and reinforce our good performance. If you reward yourself for good behavior, you calm down, feel good, and repeat the kind of behavior that earned you the self-reward.

So, please reward yourself by showing some love. Remember to love yourself first before you love others! Have a good day!!!


p.s: there are lots of researches, theories or approaches can be found on self reward. You may google up for those info for your own benefits!!!!


p.s.s: My friend and I ( Puan Napisah Jelita) have submitted our 1st draft of research proposal. Yeay!!! Alhamdulillah. So, we will be patiently waiting for the comments from the lecturer and work on second draft as well as the real paper.

Ulat Buku atau Book Worm

To be honest, I have never been an ulat buku. I just enjoy reading but that also imply on certain genre of books. Maybe I can say that I am quite picky. Those days, I could read a lot of novels for instance Malay romance novel as well English novels. Up to this point I have been collecting a few novels be it in Malay or English. I was addicted to comic as well i.e Dragon Ball, Doraemon etc. But now, I am being choosy in selecting my reading materials. I can easily get bored when it comes to cliche story line. I can be very annoyed when it comes to those  fantasy love or cheesy love storyline. There was a time when I want to buy novels but at the end of the day I did not buy any because I found out that the stories are unrealistic as I skimmed and scanned. I have grown up I guess. haha.

But, since forever I have problems to read academic writing. I will always have short attention span and will end up not reading the book entirely. It is either I do not read or I will ask my friends to read for me. Meaning say, I will wait for them to discuss on the topic. Or, if I ever managed to read, not all of the information could be remembered as I am bad in memorizing as well. I think I know the reason of being bad in memorizing is because I am lack of reading, is that true? Maybe I should do a research on that. hehe.

Okay, the point I have been rambling here is just that I am tired of reading. haha. I know I am being exaggerating but I just do not know how did the ulat buku can ever read a lot. Like A LOT! I here pronounced that I am super envy them. And, obviously I adore them. Can I give my standing ovation to those ulat buku out there?


p.s: By the way, I have lots of books, journals and articles to be read. Can you please read for me?? muahahahahahaha

Men and women can be best friend?

Have I posted on this before? I could not remember but this topic had brought dissatisfaction amongst my students. We started the issue with simple questions. It was just a light discussion when I had started to provoke them on which stand they belong to. Do they believe there will be no lovey dovey between man and woman in a relationship? Case in point, between two best friend from different gender. Few of them believe that man and women can never be best friend and some others hold on their belief that man and woman can be best friend.

So, I divided them into four big groups where two groups proposing the motion and another two groups opposing the motion. The discussion was alive. They came out with lots of points and stands. Some of the points are taken from their psychology class and some of them came out with religious point of views. Later on, I   involved them with open debating where they had to defend their points.

The kids really did their work. Though I can see some of them struggled to let out their points and even being attacked while delivering the points, but I am proud of them. The simple topic has lead to massive discussion. There were arguing with each other. We laughed out loud together. We respect each other. The kids kept on defending their point on man and woman can be best friend as long as they know their intention. They said that nothing will happen if both parties know their limit. They won't go overboard if they are aware of those limitations. However, the other sides pointing out that love comes naturally. We don't have any idea when will it comes and to whom it may occur. They also mentioned that as man and woman are completing each other, they might fall towards each other. The debate was going uber expectation where I have to stop them. We ended up the session by wrapping arguments from each groups. I think it was beautifully wrapped up as the last person mention on some hadith which I couldn't recall. However, that girl made some advices to the rest of the classmates to take care and be careful in making friends.

Well, I learnt a lot from them. I can see their level of thinking where they have been actually omitting some values on Islam. When they provoke things on religion, when they see nothing's wrong, when they believe on their young heart, when they behave like nobody to respect but I learn the most that kids will be kids. As someone who is more mature, I have to tolerate and consider that. Anyway, I had fun!

p.s: can we be best friend?

Mind-blowing process.

It's been quite some time I haven't posted anything. The last entry was posted a few days ago. If I could put the blame, definitely it will be my hectic life. But that is not the option to do so. I should not blame anything or anyone except my self. Basically I have started my postgraduate study. It has been a month or so but I just attended the class recently due to my personal matters. What can I say about my study is that it is a mind-blowing process. Imagine, my first time attending the class, I had to do a presentation with my group mates. Alhamdulillah, it went well though we were super nervous. We thought that we screwed it up however a few of the classmates had this whoa-ed moment with us, and I guess it shows that we did it just fine. 1 down, lots to come. pfft!

I just do not know why but every time I went to the class or attended the meeting regarding my study I will end up having severe headache. Those lectures has been haunting me and ask me to think and think. Again, it's been a while for me and my friends in facing those assignments and presentations since our undergrads study. I have started to think this and that, here and there. It makes me want to puke and scream out loud. As for today, we went to the library, sat for a few hours and been discussing and reading on those things I am unfamiliar with or maybe those things are located somewhere in my brain that I have to re-located it back.
T-T

Well, somehow, I just wonder is this the right path that I am taking on or am I making the wrong decision? As for the time being, I am hoping and praying hard that I am able to cope with my roles in living the life to the fullest-a good servant, a daughter, a family member, a sister, a lecturer, a student, a good best friend, a friend, a colleague, an employer- A PERSON. May Allah bless us, all.



p.s: hope the best soon to come.

65 RIBU untuk setiap pemain dan jurulatih bola sepak PIALA SUZUKI AFF

WHHHHOOOOAAAAA!!!

Kaya juga Malaysia hingga mampu memberi ribuan ringgit insentif untuk setiap pemain serta jurulatih Piala AFF lepas. Mereka akan mendapat, setiap seorang insentif:

1. RM 50 Ribu unit amanah saham dan perlu simpan selama sepuluh tahun sebelum boleh dikeluarkan
2. RM 10 Ribu tunai insentif dari kerajaan Malaysia
3. dan, RM 5 Ribu tunai
4. serta attachment di luar akan ditaja oleh kerajaan Malayisa sepenuhnya.


Memang OKB la uols!!! Orang Kaya Baru!!!!

sumber: BULETIN UTAMA TV3 12/01/11 8.05PM




p.s: tapi semua baranng naik harga????

clueless phase

I am in a bit of clueless state. There is a saying that 'actions speak louder than words' and I somehow believe in that. We, people tend to show how and what we feel regarding something or someone by our actions. Sometime we tend to fake what we feel by saying those contradict statements which later on we will regret. Not to mention though we lie or not reveal the truth, others will be able to know the real thing from our own actions. For an instance, when we like someone and we deny our feelings to others. Unconsciously, we will be smiling or having a kind of happy face whenever we talk about that someone. Or, when we are talking to that person, without we realize it, we tend to slant our body to that person. On the other hand, if we do not have that special feeling towards them, we might not facing them while talking or we will have those stiff expression or body language.

All these while, I had enough of showing or having those body languages but still not enough or maybe they pretend not to know. Whichever they prefer, I do not know. When we get to know that the person we like so much do not know or never realize our presence, it hurts. But if we are able to get through this phase, worry not, we will be just all right! However, when we are trying our best not to put or have high hopes on them ( though you still have those hopes deep down your heart), it is confusing when they act the other way around. We will have the feelings of uncertainty and again it hurts. While we are trying so hard, they simply give us more and more hopes to look up. Especially when they make us feel special and needed. Or at least, we are the one who feel very special though they never meant to do so.

If I can ever asked you, I would like to ask what do you want from me? Are you testing me or are just fooling around with me? Why did you do this to me? Why did you make me feel so special and important in your life that later on you just laugh at me? What did you think of me? Is there any chances for me to be with you? Is there any empty spaces in your heart that I can fill in the spot? Do I deserve to be treated the way I should be? I do not have any idea of what you are trying to do. I am confuse, really am. After years of not doing so, suddenly you ask me to that thing again. Do you know that it reminds me of those days. The days that I treasure and hoping not to let them slipped away from my memory. However, I want you to really know that I really hope you are happy with your life and hopefully I will happy for you and for myself. It hurts. And, I am tired of this.


p.s: I know that I should be blamed for having all these feelings inside me. I am the one who feel important and special whereas you never feel so. I am sorry!


read more on body language here and here

Acoustic mood - Bila Cinta

I love acoustic. So very much..hehe.. I think I can easily falling in love when it comes to acoustic version of songs. I had dreamt of playing guitar on my own and even bought one for that purpose. Its name is Kasim Baba. haha. Unfortunately, I had difficulties in learning it (padahal alasan semata.haha.), so I gave up. But, I still hope that one day I am able to fulfill the desire. It is for my self satisfaction I guess.

And, I can also easily melting down if someone can play for me. Oh, how I have this imagination that someday my future other half will play a song for me. It will be good and additional points if he can sing the song very well. I will be the happiest person and love him more and more. hahahaha..verangan sangat!!! haish!

I found this video in youtube. I met him before as he was one of the photographer for my convo photoshoot. I did not expect he has such a good voice. And, he knows how to play guitarrrr!!!!!! weee~ Okay, here is his youtube channel Syahiran Sukardi. I am so gonna watch the rest of his collections of acoustic version videos. Enjoy watching everyone!!!!

ps.: psst! psst! i love you!! yes, you!!

AJL 25:Tomok takde identiti sendiri?

Meletopz okay opening Anugerah Juara Lagu Jubli Perak kali ini. Okay la, enjoyable and it brings all the memories during those days. Siapa tak kenal kan otai2 industri muzik kita.

Tapi bukan itu yang aku nak kongsi. Yang ini lagi besh kot. Perasan tak persembahan TOMOK tadi ada ala-ala persembahan siapa? Gaya pun agak-agak nak sama dah. Perasan tak?? Okay2, to cut it short, let me tell you. But this is my personal opinion la tapi. Em, aku memula tengok je performance Tomok terus aku teringat MR. MJ Malaysia kita. Cube teka siapa?? Mestila Faizal Tahir the superman. Fine! memang lah FAIZAL TAHIR pun cedok indentiti dari Late MJ, tapi bukan dah macam jadi trademark dia ke? Macam orang akan tahu Oh! itu Faizal Tahir yang pakai glove hitam, rayban, baju fesyen pon lebih kurang sama.

And, tadi persembahan Tomok serta gaya pakaian  juga sudah sama seperti itu. Ke arah itu. Atau aku berfikiran sempit kah? Siapa nak jawab persoalan aku ni?? Tomok?? ke Faizal Tahir??

does it matter?

If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.

Richard Bach

can i not give up on you and just wait? wait and wait and wait until i am definitely sure that you are not mine, forever not mine. because i believe that there is a little, at least, a little space for me in your big heart. dear God, please grant me with lots of strength to make me stand still and smile.

im done.

walau bukan senang mahu mendidik hati, namun aku pasti dan aku yakin harapan itu akan sentiasa ada. aku cuma perlu terus melihat dan pandang ke hadapan. walau ia memakan masa, walau ia mengguris rasa, walau ia pedih tak terkata, tapi aku pasti akan ada jalan keluar. mungkin bukan sekarang. mungkin aku kurang bernasib baik. dan segalanya mungkin. esok lusa dan mungkin juga tulat hikmah itu akan terpancar.

kini, aku sedang dalam tempoh membatasi hati. membendung rasa. walau yang pertama itu sakit, rasanya yang kedua pula lagi perit. maka, biarlah yang ketiga hadirnya abadi. aku mohon menadah langit. aku bukan kuat. dan aku juga bukan tunggul yang tiada rasa. aku mampu gelak tawa. aku mampu senyum gembira. tapi kalau boleh diselam dasar hati, pasti akan terlihat luka-luka yang masih berdarah. dan pastinya juga akan terlihat titisan-titisan hujan membasahi bumi.

aku pasrah. dan aku redha. jika ini jalan hidupku, jika ini takdirnya, maka aku rela. terima kasih diberi peluang. sekurang-kurangnya aku belajar menghargai. dan membatasi.


yours truly.

move on.

letting go.

letting go.

letting go.

letting go.

it was not that easy and it is still not easy.

let's get used to it.

moving on. letting go. look forward. no turning back.

thanks for the memories.

promise to keep it eternally.

used to be a part of me and it will forever be a part of me.

may Allah bless.

...

IF I LET YOU GO Westlife

Day after day
Time passed away and I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before


But once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

Chorus:
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I Know If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There is no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we world's apart

I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to loose
but sooner or later
I've got to choose
And once again I am thinking about taking the easy way out

Oh! excitednyaaa...

Sangat excited dan tak sabar-sabar mahu berjumpa mereka-mereka kesayangan hati. yeay! Sekarang sudah berada di gombak tapi kudik-kudik sudah tidur. ala, rindunya nak peluk cium =) Sila cepat-cepat bangun ye, esok awak tak boleh ke rumah Mak Esah tau. Kami mahu gomol awak cukup-cukup. hehe.

ala kudikkudik...

kudikkudik with his momma, maksu.

he is so adorable i tell you.

Juga sangat teruja mahu berjumpa mereka-mereka kesayangan hati yang lain. mari ketemu yuh!! hopefully i am able to meet all of them. kalau tidak semua pun, antaranya pun sudah lebih dari memadai. bersyukur!

cik azie kazen kesayangan dunia akhirat, insyaAllah.

dear along, my bestie since school.

mereka yang sentiasa di ingatan setiap masa setiap waktu. you know who you are. lotssaaa love bebehs! <3 <3 <3

encik mr. bestfriend. =)

semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. amin.

Budak Comel~

ini entri untuk budak comel yang rasa macam geram nak cubit-cubit.ngeee~ Okay, semalam post pictures tunang je kan, so today let's have a look on the birthday celebration pulak. tapi simple je la, doa selamat amongst family members sahaja. owh, terubat rindu pada kampung semalam..

Now, presenting budak comel.........

Eh! ini bukan budak comel yang dimaksudkan, walaupun memang sangat2 la comel okay. =)

me with aunties, kazens, niece and nephew.

Masih bukan budak comel tapi inilah dia birthday boy. Happy 24th birthday dear kazen. May Allah bless you and cepat2 kawen.hehe 

Yang berbaju merah merah itu adalah entiti wajib yang perasan sangat handsome. 

Tengok lah mereka yang sangat happy. The boys are siblings. woot woot.

AHA!!!! ini lah dia si budak comel yang dimaksudkan. BABY HAZIQ DARWISH, 5 months old.  Alololo comelnyaaaa!

Darwish with my brother and sister in law. His ayah ngah and mak ngah!

budak comel with his mak yong.

aha! budak comel with his mak yang (comels jugak.hehe). i asked them to call me aunty young but no one listens to me..huhu.

This is the comelest. finally dapat captured his smiley face. sangat comel la awak ni Darwish. rasa macam nak peluk and cium bertubi-tubi (Aisyah Hani, 2006).

Okay sekarang mari lihat kecomelan baby darwish dari kecik lagi walaupun sekarang baby darwish masih seorang baby yang kecil.

ni masa akikah dan cukur jambul baby darwish, 2 months old. with his comelest aunties. mak yong azie, mak yang hanna and mak yong mai.

lihat kaki ku..sungguh tergoda kannnnnn????

And, this year 2011 there will be lots of babies coming out.... yeaahhhhhaaaa! excited and looking forward to have a look on those beautiful and special creation by Him. Subhanallah.

superwoman yang gorgeous

Akhirnya setelah lama tidak menjejak kaki ke cinema, dapat jugak merasa di tahun baru ni. Menonton midnight bersama keluarga lagi tu. Walaupun rasa macam ada narator bilamana budak-budak kecik belakang kami dok sibuk bercerita mengenai setiap scene. Sabo je la. Tak tau macam mana nak fokus sambil mendengar apa akan jadi seterusnya. tekanan perasaan okey!Filem Hantu Mak Limah Balik Kampung walaupun ada scene yang macam kenapa sume orang gelak2 ni, tapi ada jugak yang betol2 mampu menaikkan adrenalin dalam badan dan segar dari ngantuk. Oh! masa dalam cinema td rasa seperti seorang yang terlalu cantik sehingga ada seorang perempuan mintak tukar tempat dengan her other other half dalam cinema. Whoa! takot la tu i goda suami/bf uols. ha i tau la i sopan lagi ayu sebab tengok midnight pakai baju kurung segala tapi jangan i xminat la nak rampas-rampas ni. nauzubillah, mintak dijauhkan.

Okay, nape pakai baju kurung kan? da tau nak g tengok movie tapi xtukar baju. huhu sebabnya pakai tu telah dipakai dari pagi2 lagi. kerumah bestfriend sebab dia nak bertunang dan lepas tu terus lajak ke kampung dan celebrate birthday kazen. sampaikan ada another bestfriend ni cakap i ni superwoman sebab hidup memang sentiasa atas jalan yakni men-drive kereta sentiasa. huhu.

here are the pictures for today.

Let me be happy, please!

A good start for a better tomorrow !










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