Frankly, I still can't get over with the act of (too much and too many) "borrowing" or "loan" English words to Bahasa Malaysia. We've been doing it for years but to add more words on the list, we may need to reconsider. e.g. program, konklusi, akomodasi, fasiliti, transaksi, translasi, klien, konsultasi, interviu, konferen dan banyak lagi.
But by borrowing the word "romance" and "sci-fi" and make it Bahasa Malaysia would inspire young people to normalize the act. Be creative. Yes, please be creative. Be artsy fartsy. Please do so. But, there are things you need to think thoroughly.
"Romen" and "Saifai" are amongst the example of the new age borrowing or loan words. See! It changes the context. "Romen" itself is a loan word and it brings different connotation in the Malay context.
If it is used in promoting books, it would lead to different perceptions or expectations or misconceptions. But who cares right? As long as you can be creative in expressing your feelings, people will idolize you? No!
Aspire to inspire. Publishers and experienced writers/authors/poet/lyricist etc should look into this issue. So that the youngsters will have proper channels to seek for knowledge and be creative in writing their pieces. #bahasajiwabangsa
Perception is something unique. As we are all different from one another, our perceptions are similarly different for everyone. It is based on how we view our world. Sometimes, the way we perceive things determine on how we tackle our situation. For example, when there are two people in a similar situation, both of them might tackle the situation differently. Their schemata, values or even experience will influence their choices in dealing with it.
For some, one particular thing might look easy or common sense but, some others, it might be the hardest issue they need to face with. It is unfair to generalize all to have the same thought as ours. It is because we do not have the same capability to begin with. In my case for example, I value my family just like how other people value theirs. For me, my family includes the extended ones. It does not revolve around my nuclear family only. I would do extra miles for the rest of my family members just the way I would treat my own family. However, for some, they value family as only their nuclear family. And I can assure that nothing is wrong with it. It is because we are still focusing on the same basic which is family. It is just that my view on it is quite bigger compared to the others. Yet, I definitely cannot impose the values that I hold to the others because its their own choice.
As I said to my dear friend that we cannot read minds and we perceive things differently. These two combo surely affect our daily life in so many ways. You know when there is misunderstanding, mostly it is because of perception. One party will think that the other side is wrong, the other party will think the same as well. This might lead to bigger issue if none of them took the effort to settle the issue. I had experienced this situation with my own best friend. For me, she was being too dramatic and selfish. And, from her side, she thought that I have changed and started to leave her. So both of us perceived things differently and emotionally.We were avoiding each other to the extent it affected the precious years of friendship. Lucky us, that another best friend came and advised us to talk it out. So we met and confronted the issue just to realize that it was just a mere misunderstanding. So, the case solved. Alhamdulillah. But there are unsolved cases definitely. These kind of cases might involve deeper issue, trust or feelings. It takes times to settle it. And I believe that time heals all wound. So just be patience and have faith. hehe.
Back to perceptions. I always think that it is interesting on how people view things. One particular thing might have 100 perceptions from 100 different individuals. And it is fascinating to look at how people approach things based on their perceptions. I like it and as I am in the process of learning life lessons from someone, I do think that dissimilarity makes us unique entities. It colours our life or else we are going to have a mundane type of life. And again, I like it that I have a sparring partner to talk about these deep issues and conversations. Though I have to be extra careful as the sparring partner is definitely an intelligent person that I normally lost words and thoughts. haha.
Or, it is a future that you are going to venture into.
The reality that you will enjoy living in.
Dream high.
As I would recommend to you.
Dream high as possible as you can.
To be the guide or the scale for you to achieve everything.
But, be moderate as a friend of mine said to me.
So that it would not deeply hurt you.
Deep down at the hidden corner of your heart.
Dream high.
Dream as beautiful as you would want it to be.
Make sure to put some actions into it.
That you will look back and be proud of.
Or, at least, you can look back and pat on your shoulder.
''I did my best. I have tried it out. But, it's not my time yet.''
Dream high.
Do not worry to fall back.
If it is meant to be, it will be.
And, vice versa.
Because,
Allah knows what best for you.
With that, I rest my case.
''He knows all that is in the heavens and on the earth, and knows all that you keep concealed, as well as all that you disclose. God has full knowledge of whatever lies hidden in the bosoms (of His creatures).''
Ha! Selalu kita dengar payung emas kan, epppp sensitif tu. Maka harini kita tak nak cerita pasal payung emas tapi nak cerita gayung emas pulak. Gayung ni kalau orang Perak panggil CEBOK/CEBUK. Yang kita guna untuk mandi tu.
Have you ever been described as something else? Or being identified by colours? It is not about the skin colours or any colours that represent your political party. But, something/colours that people will imagine or relate it with you?
Interesting aite?
I have friends who are very unique I guess. One of them told me that I represent as 'cebok' and another one told me that I am gold. Seriously I don't have any idea about it. Thus, to make sense of those two, I myself combine both and tadaaaaa the 'Gayung Emas'.
I don't know the connotation(s) of those two.I have asked them but they seem to not able to explain the exact meaning behind it. I am still questioning myself and searching for the answer.
Harap-harap maksud gayung emas tu yang baik-baik je la. ehehe. Oh!!! baru teringat yang Gold tu katanya macam 'warm'. emmm. Macam mana tu???
Alhamdulillah. I am still alive and breathing so that I can continue my searching for the almighty the most merciful Ya Rabb. And again, I am more than grateful that I have just achieved more than a quarter century of living. It is not an achievement as my life is completely depending on the almighty. I might not be able to be here today if He decided to do so before. Alhamdulillah.
Of the birthday and celebration, well it was not a celebration though. But I choose to make it a happy moment to be remembered, I have received a beautiful gift from my dear sister Mya Akmal. We attended a wonderful, thought provoking, self reflecting and mind wandering talk by Yasmin Mogahed.
So, here, let me share some of the things that I got during the talk. I divided it into few parts to make it easier for you to read and digest. Mind you, I might quoted, paraphrased or adding my own thoughts through out the sharing of Yasmin Mogahed's talk.
Returning home: Yasmin Mogahed
The Beauty: What lies behind it?
Some people not even noticed the beauty ahead them. Many of us take things for granted. We might passing through the beautiful sun, the magnificent forest but we did not realized it. Beauty has its own purpose. That is to remind us to Allah. We must look beyond and behind the beauty because what we see is just the surface. Thus, we must study the beauty of the creation and reflect the beauty to the most merciful. That He did not create anything without purpose. No happiness, sadness nor other things are created without meaning. And, nothing happened without a reason. We need to always look and find for its purposes to get nearer to Him. If we have unsolvable problem, do not despair. Do not let it drunk us down.
Fear and Struggle: Have Faith!
Believe to the Al-Fattah. When we are having hard times, always ask these questions: Who else can mend your heart? Who else can cure your heart? And, the answer is Only Him. When we are going through hardship, we will be or feel in isolation. Do not feel alone. Do not feel afraid as Allah is there for us.
Is the fear in this life can be compared to the fear in the later life?
If the fear paralyze us here, what about in later life?
Even the fear of hunger cannot be compared to any of it. We are going to lose people we love so much. We are losing things that we care the most. We are all losing in this life. It is a part and parcel of life. You may work so hard to make people happy but they do not appreciate you. You may work hard to study but the result is not the desired one. You might put extra effort to please others but they could not accept it. At the end of the day, all that you feel is just a waste of time and energy. But, remember, that we might not get whatever we think or plan what is good for us. Indeed, He is the best planner.
Al-Baqarah 2:216
Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhiraji'un: Remember this!
Inna lillahi- we belong to Allah (be it in terms of our health, family, money, things etc) THUS
wa inna ilayhi raji'un- and to Him we shall return. To those who persevere, to those who are consistent in going through the hardship, remember that we are all belong to Him. Bear in mind that hardships can become something priceless just like a blessing in disguise. It is the blessing of Allah, the mercy of Allah to those who persevere, who have patient and have come to the concept of inna lillahi. Do we realize the utmost reason Allah give us hardship? It is because when we are in despair, we can reach the state of needing Him the most. So that we can turn to Him, hope for Him and pray our heart to the fullest.
Sahih International (Al-Baqarah 2:214)
Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,"When is the help of Allah ?" Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.
Happiness: Is it a test?
Al-Anbiya 21:35
We always think that Allah tests us on difficulties solely. But tests can also be on prosperity and adversity. Often times in life, when we are being tested on happiness, we tend to get away from Allah. We love our life, we love our youth, more than we love Allah. For example when Allah gives us children, we tend to overlook the gift instead of the giver. We love our kids but we forget Allah who give us the kids. We forgot to be grateful. We thought that we deserve happiness, money, fame, wealth and many more because we work on our sweat for it. We forgot that the energy and health are belong to Him. We forgot to give help. We forgot to donate. We forgot to spend some time. Because we are being too comfortable as things are being easy on us. This is also a kind of test that Allah put on us to see whether we are getting nearer or not. But when Allah tests us on hardship, we struggle and despair and quickly we then tend to get near to Allah. Allahu Akbar. Allah tests us on ease and hardship as Allah wants us to come back to Him. So raise our hands and ask from Allah. Ask him regularly as we cannot get through the test, the storm on our own. It will get harder without asking help from Him.
The Way Out: To Purify Our Soul
Whenever we feel stuck, turn to Allah. Allah is enough for us. Allah is the one who we should rely on the most. Not other people. By no means, indeed He is with us. He will open the way out that we cannot see or expect. But it is not to say that we cannot ask help from others ie When we are sick, we need to see the doctor. When we have problems, we need to talk to the counsellor or friends. BUT the utmost dependency should be on ALLAH. Those people or those things are just the medium. But the cure, the one who actually help or change or ease us is the only god, the most merciful Allah. As we are just the slave of Him. So remember that the one who are the slave to money, things or own self (listen to desire and obey) is the most astray. As we need to be the slave to the only one.
We are full of impurities. We make mistakes. We commit sins. Thus, the hardships are to purify the believer. So when Allah tests us, it does not mean that Allah wants to watch us suffer but rather to purify us from our impurities. As Allah is Al-Wahhab. The Giver of gifts. Sometimes we need to be taken away from things so that we can re-focus. But whatever Allah takes it will never a lost. Because it will be replaced with something better. When things are being taken away, Allah is giving us the greatest gift which is being closer to Allah.
Jannah: In Life and Hereafter
Qaf 50:16
Looking for Jannah does not have to wait for the Day of Judgment. There is Jannah in this life. Allah lets us find the happiness in this life. Allah is the greater the most merciful Al-Wahhab. That is, in the remembrance of Allah, we will get the Jannah. Once we get the Jannah in this life by being closer to Allah InsyaAllah we will get Jannah in the hereafter. If we forgot Allah, Allah will be easily forgotten us as well in the hereafter. So be near to Allah and we will be near to Him in the hereafter. To make Him the ultimate goal, love, life, happiness then that is the Jannah in life. The more we remember Allah the more we love Allah. Zikir. Zikir. Zikir. And Solat. The first thing to be asked in the hereafter is our Solat. If it is okay then we passed, InsyaAllah. 5 times daily prayers then add those extra efforts until we think it is enough which it would not be enough as we do not know whether our obligation is perfectly done or not. So what should we do is by doing more and more. Remember more and more. If we pray when we feel like doing it, it is not proper and would not be sufficient.
Food for the Soul
Like when we are ill and going to see the doctor. The doctor will prescribe us with medicines. And if we were not religiously consume the meds, we are going to recover at slow rate. Same goes to all our obligations as prescribed by Allah. It will not be working if we only perform our obligation when we feel like doing so. It is not from the heart but just the body. Actions without soul and it would not work that way.
Just like we need to eat and shower to be healthy. Same goes to the heart. We need constant food to feed our heart. Cleanse it with Taubah regularly and constantly. By remembering Allah. By reading Al-Quran. Every time we sinned our heart gets one black spot. So if we do not clean it, it gets darker. Cleanse and feed it by remembering Allah consistently. Our Iman is going up and down most f the time because that is our fitrah. So this is the time to fight against the shaitan as they are making us feeling low and despair. Thus, we need to remember Allah all the time. Do not lose hope and despair in the mercy of Allah. And, do not compromise Allah with anything at all.
Allah is All Enough for Us
The key to have a happier heart is to keep on remember that nothing will be the same. If you are down today, make sure it will not be the same tomorrow. Do something to change it and do not lose faith. And keep solat. As it will protect us even when we are off track once a while. By understanding life in perspective we will feel at ease. There is not ultimate justice in this life. So look at it from the correct perspective. Bear in mind that the hardship is just for temporary to test us in this short life. As well as prosperity. Get a grip on the ropes of faith and work on it to achieve the Jannah in life and hereafter. Life is short to be wasted on unnecessary things, so we need to start doing something to lift up our Iman before it is too late. Allah knows all intentions.
On the other note, nowadays most of us are using the wrong approach of teaching kids. Instead of instilling the love towards Allah, we tend to scare them with the hellfire. Let's start to talk nicely to kids by sharing with the them the love of Allah, the beauty of Islam so that they will be or feel nearer and love Allah the most. Start attaching their heart with the beauty of Islam rather than emphasizing on this is haram, this is wrong, you cannot do this etc. .
So, that's all that I can share for now. I hope that by sharing this will at least help us to remind each other on the purpose of our life. I am still trying to be a better khalifah. It will not be enough for me to digest all these alone. So, let's do this together. And, if there is any misleading information or wrong interpretation, please let me know. I am blessed to have the chance to listen to Yasmin Mogahed, and I am honoured to share this with others.
I did a quick reading on this as a good friend of mine asked me for some helps. And, this is what I have found, one of many wonderful stories. I feel like really want to share this one with all of us.
Have you watched Pay it forward? I love that movie indeed. But I love the concept more. It is very frustrating when most of us are losing this kind of attitude, me too. We tend to wait and receive rather than giving and spreading love and kindness.
We argue, question and even get mad over something without considering the other side of story. It will always be two sides of the coin. Maybe you have just tossed the wrong side, be it the head or the tail. Why not we take a bit of our precious time to toss it again?
Getting mad is just a waste of energy. Let's try to use that energy for positive things. Don't jump into conclusion just yet. Listen. Visualize. Feel. Love.
Kadang-kadang perasan tak yang ada orang suka sangat edit gambar secara melampau. Sampaikan kadang-kadang originality atau keaslian itu sudah tiada. Agak-agak la kan kalau gambar yang dah diedit tu tak macam gambar asal. Tak best hokei!
Okay now Hanna nak tunjuk gambar macam mana yang Hanna kata edit melampau tu.
Hah over kan!! Ada tak rasa macam nak muntah hijau tak? hahahaha.
Pernah tak rasa macam kita sayang tapi benci, tapi bila benci kita rasa sayang? Situasi ni bukan hanya untuk hubungan cinta antara lelaki dan perempuan tapi skop yang lebih besar. eh! bukan Skop Production yang Gerak-Gerak Khas tu. Tapi lebih kepada konteks yang lebih meluas.
Okay mari kita lihat contoh:
1.Gf vs Bf, Wifey vs Hubby
Sepanjang masa nak bergaduh je. Kalau tak gaduh macam tak lengkap hidup. Tapi akhirnya tetap sayang menyayangi. Maka ini positif sebab perhubungan yang terlalu mendatar juga tak best. Tapi ada juga keadaan yang tak berapa nak positif di mana disebabkan sayang si gf sanggup meyerahkan jiwa raga sebab takut kene pukul dan jugak sebab sayang. Isteri jugak walau tak suka, walau teruk di dera secara mental dan fizikal tapi sanggup bertahan sebab sayang. Okay itu contoh yang sangat nipis dan tipis. Tapi macam mana kalau love-hate relationship ni yang memudaratkan kita?
2. Kawan vs kawan
Tak kiralah kawan sekerja ke, kawan sepermainan ke, kawan universiti ke, kawan tapi mesra ke tapi kalau kawan jadi lawan macam mana pula tu? Sesetengah orang ni kawan untuk kepentingan atau kita kata friends for benefits. Dia kawan dengan orang sebab ada kepentingan tertentu yang dia nak. Jadi walau benci, selalu tak bersependapat ke semua dia telan dalam-dalam. Dok makan hati je selalu. Itu takpe lagi. Kalau jenis semua nak argue, semua nak gaduh tak puas hati tapi esok-esok pujuk rayu minta tolong. Ni yang payah sebab kalau Hanna ni jenis yang tak reti nak tolak. huhu
3. Anak vs Mak Bapak
Eh ada ke? Mungkin ada kot. Bencikan Mak Bapak sebab strict sangat sampai rebel sana sini. Tapi sebenarnya dalam-dalam hati tu sayang walau badan penuh birat.
4. Pekerja vs Majikan
Yang ni selalu jadi kot. Belakang majikan dok la jaja cerita tak puas hati tapi bila depan majikan semua pun boleh. Sebabnya takut dan mungkin tak reti nak tolak. Lagipun kita ni selalu dok fikir majikan tu sumber pemberi rezeki bak kata kak Fynn Jamal. Dok la bodek kipas majikan segala sebab takut gaji or payment sangkut. Bila sangkut, takpalah belum lagi tu...minggu depan ada la tu (gaya memujuk hati dengan penuh nada reda dan sayu). Walhal kat luar sana, kalau tak bayar sikit or even lambat, terus buat tuntutan etc bagai under human rights etc.
5. Kita vs Kerjaya
Kerja semua buat tapi kadang lambat kadang cepat. Lepas tu merungut penat letih benci bagai tapi sebenarnya sayang dan suka kerja tu. Rasa macam kerjaya inilah takdir penentu segala dan kerjaya paling sesuai tapi tak suka. Bila rasa nak tukar selera, rasa sayang tapi hati tak best. Susah juga kan.
Ha itu baru 5 situasi yang tak banyak pun dikupas. Rasanya ada banyak lagi situasi macam ni yang mungkin pernah dialami oleh setiap satu kita. Susah bila dah sayang sebab kalau dah sayang semua yang tak elok pun nampak sempurna. Nanti hujung-hujungnya kita juga merana.
Ada tips tak macam mana nak deal dengan masalah macam ni?
Harini 11 September, 11 tahun yang lepas telah terjadinya suatu permulaan untuk sebuah pengakhiran.. Hah skema betul!!! (translation: the beginning of the end)
Ramai yang menangisi kematian mangsa-mangsa pengeboman dan kemusnahan Pentagon di Arlington, Virginia. Lebih 3000 mangsa yang terkorban dalam peristiwa bersejarah serangan 11 Sepetember. Bermula dari ini, banyak cerita seperti My Name is Khan, dan banyak lagi. Pengganas juga sering dikaitkan dengan yang berserban, berjubah putih, bertudung etc. Ops tak boleh lebih-lebih nanti kene tangkap. hehe.
Ramai yang ingat, menangisi, protes dan sebagainya. Tapi pada masa yang sama, ramai yang lupa tentang mereka-mereka lain yang menderita, yang di seksa, dikejami dan banyak lagi. Bukan setakat 3000 mangsa malah lebih dari itu. Mungkin ratus juta siapa yang tahu.
Takpalah, Hanna nak letak gambar pun tak sanggup nak tengok dan apatah lagi nak pilih-pilih. Rasanya semua tahu kot. Jadi apakata kita luangkan sedikit masa yang kita ada untuk sedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk semua saudara kita seantero dunia yang menjadi kekejaman perang dan kerakusan manusia.
Nampak tak yang dalam bulatan-bulatan merah tu? Ya betul. Brooches ni telah dibentuk dengan kalimah Allah dan dijual untuk kegunaan para wanita. Baru je lagi Hanna jumpa brooches ni. Mula-mula rasa huruf 'W' sebab kedai tu memang banyak jual brooches berbentuk alphabets. Agaknya tengah 'in' kot trend tu.
Tapi bila perhati betul-betul, dan makcik-makcik Hanna pun bertanya persoalan yang sama, kami jadi yakin yang itu adalah kalimah Allah. Persoalannya, wajar ke tak buat brooches macam tu? Haish sekarang dah makin banyak yang tidak menjaga sensitiviti dan tuntutan agama. Semua pun nak dibuat main dan digunapakai tanpa memikirkan sebarang kemungkinan.
Selalunya kalau kita nak pergi makan kat luar, kebersihan, layanan servis yang diberikan adalah antara ciri-ciri penting yang perlu dititikberatkan. Haruslah timbang tara faktor-faktor tu, kalau tak makan hati la jawabnya kan.
Kalau sebut je KFC dari sekecil budak sampailah golongan emas mesti semua orang tau. "Sedap sehingga menjilat jari" kata tagline nya. Tapi kalau setakat jilat jari, servis tidak memuaskan memang ke laut la kan. Ye dulu memang banyak kes-kes pasal KFC vs staff, KFC vs customers etc. Lepas tu kira dah settle la bila tindakan dah di ambil, CCTV telah dipasang bagai. Macam mana perubahannya? Jom zoom-in sikit kat KFC Gunung Rapat, Ipoh.
Tempat besar, cantik tapi frankly speaking servis dorang memang agak ke laut sikit. Dah dua tiga kali pergi pun masih sama jugak. Kebersihan tu kadang-kadang lantai hitam je tak di mop. Dan ada sekali tu my auntie langsung tak lalu makan dan kitorg terpaksa cari KFC kat pekan tu sebabnya toilet dorang yang sangat kotor. Macam ada yang tak basuh dan tisu bertaburan.
Untuk pengetahuan semua, KFC tu 24jam tapi pelik selalu makanan or minuman dia takda or tak cukup 0r dah habis bila menjelag lewat malam. Hari tu nasi putih habis, then air panas pulak takda so apa ja yang tinggal? Kaunter ada banyak tapi semua tutup. Bukak pun hanya satu kaunter je. So semua orang pun beratur panjang-panjang. Dah lama sikt baru nak bukak kaunter lain tapi muka sangat tak boleh blah.
Okay fine, ktorang tau yang korang penat kerja dan berdiri depan kaunter tu. Tapi bila kita kerja di front-line, kene lah selalu maniskan muka tu. Kalau terpaksa fake kan senyuman, fake it! Senyum la sikit, baru la customer pun senang hati nak beli dan makan banyak-banyak. Ni tidak, siap buat muka bila ktorang placed order tadi. Pastu bila minta sudu and tisu, korang bagi banyak-banyak. Macam perli ke apa?
Helloooo. Kami bayar tau. Bukannya mintak ayam free ke ape. Serius terbantut selera makan. Nak bebel or tegur takut la pulak. Tak pasal je ayam ktorang dikakikan or diludahkan pulak nanti. Nasib baik lah dapat voucher free Legoland for kids. Walaupun tak tau zaman bila baru dapat pergi Legoland tu tapi sejuk la jugak hati ni.
Okay, pesanan untuk dear pekerja KFC Gunung Rapat, jom kita ringankan mulut untuk terus senyum nak tak??
Alhamdulillah sudah 55 tahun kita mengecapi kemerdekaan. Selama itu lah kita dapat hidup dengan aman dan damai walau ada juga porak peranda here and there. But let's take it as part and parcel of life. Bak kata Allahyarham P.Ramlee, 'sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit inikan pula suami isteri' EH! apa kene mengenanya ye dak?
Tapi itulah, selama 55 tahun kita merdeka ni, adakah pernah kita bertanya samada kita ni betul-betul sudah merdeka ke tidak? Apa maksud kemerdekaan yang sebenar? Mungkin 55 tahun yang lepas, merdeka itu membawa maksud bebas dari segala penjajahan mahupun pemerintahan luar. Tapi apa pula definisi kemerdekaan sekarang?
Demontrasi sini dan sana. Ada kuning, biru, hijau, merah, dan macam-macam lagi warna yang mencorakkan pemandangan. Jalur Gemilang mahu ditukar ke Sang Saka Malaya. Janji diungkiti. Persoalannya pernahkah berjanji? Liwat. Perkosaan. Rogol. Perogol dibebaskan atas alasan mempunyai masa depan 'cerah'. Korupsi. Sayap Kiri. Jihad. Rasuah. Campur tangan luar. Dan banyak lagi untuk disenaraikan. Sampai esok pun belum tentu selesai.
Tetapi, bukan mahu pejam mata, bukan mahu tuli telinga. Andai hari ini bukan kemerdekaan yang dipersoal semua, apa kemerdekaan yang sebenar? Bagaimana keadaannya merdeka?
Jum kita berdoa agar keharmonian yang kita ada pada hari ini akan terus kekal biarpun bertukar tampuk pimpinan, biarpun bertukar bendera, biarpun bertukar warna. Mohon keamanan yang ada disebalik perbezaan agama antara kita di tanah yang kecil ini akan terus kekal. Agar kita tidak mengalami nasib yang menimpa saudara kita di sana yang diseksa, dibunuh tanpa belas. Tidak sanggup rasanya untuk google dan lihat gambar-gambarnya.
Maka, mari kita ubah dan bentuk dari hati dan diri kita sendiri agar kemerdekaan yang kita pegang berkekalan. Semoga dengan keamanan ini mampu memberi kita ruang untuk mengutip bekal ke akhirat kelak. Aamiin.
Yeayyy!!! Lagi beberapa hari lagi akan ramai pelajar Degree/Master memulakan fasa kehidupan yang baru. Bagi yang baru nak masuk, hujung minggu ni dah start dengan registration dan lepas tu akan ada minggu oreintasi. Harap-harap lah sekarang ni dah takda buli-buli bagai ni. Bagi yang dah memang jadi pelajar, bersedilah untuk meneruskan pengajian ke semester seterusnya.
Weee seronoknya! Tak sabar nak belajar dan berkenalan dengan kawan-kawan baru kan!!!. Dulu masa tengah baru nak sambung belajar, excited sangat MasyaAllah! Tak sabar nak timba ilmu tu membuak-buak.Tapi kene ingat niat. Jangan 'hingke' sangat nak sambung belajar sebab nak dapat kerja best dan gaji tinggi je. Tapi biarlah atas dasar nak cari ilmu dan ikhlaskan hati. Kan Rasulullah pun menyarankan untuk belajar selagi boleh biar sampai ke negara China. Lagipun belajar tu kan salah satu fardhu kifayah.
Tapi jangan salah sangka. Kalau tak masuk U pun, bukan makna kita taknak menunaikan fardhu kifayah tu. Belajar tu kan luas dan banyak caranya. Cumanya masuk U ni pun antara salah satu caranya juga. Ingat lagi Allahyarham Ayah dulu sebelum pergi banyak kali menitipkan pesan yang kami tak punya harta untuk diagihkan tapi Ilmu sahaja harta yang mampu diberikan. InsyaAllah Ayah, kami anak-anak akan ingat.
Okaylahh. Untuk korang-korang yang nak masuk U tu, ni ha Checklist Barang yang akan diperlukan untuk kehidupan korang nanti. Ingat, kadang-kadang tu bukan senang nak keluar or balik kampung especially korang-korang kene lalui minggu orientasi tu. huuuuuu!
Mati itu pasti. Dalam gembira tadi tiba-tiba ketua kelas datang berjumpa minta kebenaran untuk sedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk salah seorang rakan sekelas yang baru sahaja kematian pakcik sedara rapat. Aduhh!
Terus suasana kepoh kepochi bertukar menjadi suram sesuram hari yang disimbah hujan. Tambah sayu bila pelajar berkenaan menangis yang sangat kuat dan menyayat hati. Pedih!
Bila selesai bersedekah dan semua yang lain salam cium tangan untuk pulang, dia menjadi yang paling akhir untuk bersalaman. Masih bersisa tangisnya. Lantas aku peluk kejap. Kukuh dan kemas biar rasa itu sampai ke hatinya. Biar dia tahu ada yang sudi berkongsi. Lepaslah semua sengsara. Terbanglah semua derita.
Namun, manusia itu fitrahnya begitu. Lagi difahami, lagilah membuak-buak isi hatinya. Maka, semakin lebatlah hujan yang gerimis tadi. Bahu ku basah dek air mata dan air hidungnya sudah tidak diendah. Biarkan! Biarkan asal dapat memujuk walau sekelumit rasa pedih itu.
Aku lontarkan kata-kata buat semangat walau aku tahu suara aku yang tahan tangis itu terlalu nyata. Aku juga hampir menitis air mata. Hampir dan nyaris aku menangis bersama. Namun aku tahu, kalau aku juga rebah, maka runtuhlah semangat dia. Aku harus kuat melayan hati. Jangan biar ia mati!
Kataku sabar, sudah sampai masanya. Dia lebih bahagia disana, biarkan dia kecapi rasa itu. Jangan menangis, jangan meraung kalau kita sayang akannya. Agar dia tidak terseksa di sana. Makin lama makin kejap pelukan aku. Sambil aku terus gosok belakang badannya. Dengan harapan dia seceria selalu mampu mengankat muka berhias senyuman. Payah!
Reda tangisannya, aku usap lagi. Aku harap dia tenang kerna esok dia harus menduduki test yang penting. Aku tahu bukan mudah, namun kalau kita cuba lawan dan punya rakan yang sanggup bersusah bersama InsyaAllah ia tidak lagi mustahil.
Momen ini telah jauh membawa aku terbang ke momen-momen pedih, payah, pecah hatiku bila kehilangan abadi insan-insan kecintaan hati. Sakit!
Jom kita luang sedikit masa untuk bersedekah. Moga Allahyarham tenang di sana. Al-Fatihah.
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak Mengetahui."
(Surah al-Baqarah:ayat 216)
Easier said than done! Betul tu! Selalunya kita hanya akan pandai bercakap dan menasihati orang berguni-guni tapi bila kene kat batang hidung sendiri, baru menggelupur tak tentu hala. Masa ni lah apa yang orang semua nasihat terus masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. Lepas tu, kita akan sedaya-upaya menafikan kata-kata nasihat orang "AHHH senanglah kau cakap, yang menanggungnya aku. Cuba kau pulak yang kena!!" (pulak dahhhh!)
Pelik kan! Unik sebenarnya. Kenapa kita sukar nak terima nasihat kalau kita rasa kita pandai nasihatkan orang? Sebenarnya, itu lah konsep kita hidup berpasangan, berkawan, berkomuniti dan macam-macam 'ber' lagi. Kita ini dijadikan untuk saling melengkapi. Ha jangan nak terus fikir pasangan hidup je okay!! Ramai lagi selain pasangan hidup yang perlu kita jaga hubungan hablumminannas tu.
Mungkin kali ini kita kecewa. Mungkin kali ini kita putus asa. Tapi Allah itu maha berkuasa, Dia pasti ada rancangan terhebat buat kita. Selalu dengar orang cakap macam ni "kita dipertemukan dengan orang yang salah supaya kita dapat belajar dan bila kita dipertemukan dengan yang satu, kita akan lebih menghargai..."
Semuanya sudah disiapkan untuk kita, cuma tunggu masa yang sesuai sahaja. Mungkin kita telah berselisih sebelum ni tapi belum tiba masanya. Memang orang akan bercerita, orang akan mengata mungkin menghina. Tapi perlu apa caci maki mereka. Selagi kita tahu paksinya, keluarga di sisi, sahabat yang memahami, insyaAllah segala kepayahan akan mampu kita harungi.
Banyak lagi perkara yang perlu kita pentingkan. Bukan nak kata jodoh itu tidak penting. Siapa kata tak penting??? Penting dan mustahak tau!! Sebab itu yang akan menjadi penentu zuriat kita selaku generasi dan khalifah yang akan membimbing sekalian ummah. Tapi jangan jadikan itu satu alasan untuk kita tunduk dan layu. Bangunlah demi anak bangsamu. Apa kata kita bersiap-sedia dahulu sebelum jodoh itu tiba. Lengkapkan diri dengan ilmu, tabahkan hati dengan kecekalan dan balas jasa ibu bapa dan keluarga selagi termampu.
Kenapa? Kerana, dengan harapan bila tiba masanya kita akan bersedia dengan segala macam onak dan duri serta mempu menikmati nikmat kebahagiaan itu semanis-manisnya. Agar tiada ralat di hati. Benar, jodoh perlu diusaha, tak boleh tunggu datang bergolek alamat bersendirilah sampai ke tua. Tapi biarlah kena caranya. Kan kita memang dilahirkan berpasangan. Percaya dan yakin, InsyaAllah. "Allah menguju seseorang itu kerana Allah swt mempunyai rahsianya tersendiri, sama ada Allah hendak menambah keimanan kita atau hendak uji sejauh mana keimanan kita.."
"Jangan kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah (pula) kamu bersedih hati, padal kamulah orang-orang yang paling Tinggi (derajatnya), jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman."
(Surah Ali Imran: ayat 139)
p.s: Mesti korang rasa "Ala, senang la cakap cuba kau pulak rasa.." So, apa kata kita sama-sama rasa, berkongsi kan boleh kurangkan rasa sakit. Jangan simpan sebab ia mampu menjadi toksin yang mendekatkan kita dengan barah.
